You came home 

With liquor on your lips, stumbling to the ground

And since you fell

You made mommy fall too. 

"Go to your room sweetie” 
Mommy choked to say with your hands around her neck

But you said to come out

& to wipe the tears away.

The tears came pouring out 

so you said that you would give me something to cry about

as you threw a vase to my head

& told me I’m just like my mom.
10 years later I no longer wonder where you are

or why you weren’t there to tuck me in at night. 

10 years later I no longer wonder why you won’t come to my birthday parties

or who that naked girl was in your bed

when you thought I was asleep. 

10 years later I no longer cry “daddy stop it hurts.”

10 years later

and I no longer need you..
Although I never really did.
10 years later and I stopped feeling the shards cut my heart
like that **** vase cut my ******* head. 

10 years later and I realize-

I am just like my mom & I rather be like her 
than you

At 1 am, he tasted like cigarettes and was over 6'3 in all black.
I didn't know his name & I didn't care.

At 2 am, he gave me ****** beer and held my waist and taught me how to kiss.
His eyes held secrets, I'm sure, I didn't want to know. And his smile said I'll -****-you-up in a **** kinda way.

At 3 am, he was ready for more and I craved another touch, another kiss from this bad boy at the bar.
Drunk off who knew what and this overwhelming urge of lust.

At 4 am, i had bruises on my arms and lipstick across my face left in a ***** bathroom with no shirt.
He tasted like cigarettes and I wanted to puke.

I couldn't forget you if I tried
Drunken words and emotional lies
I'll save my heart
And she'll play the fool
Your love isn't real anyway

Simon, a drunken man
drowns himself in bottled regret
and wished himself away.

"I love that you think of me
when you're drunk."

The sound of my footsteps
is ringing in my ears
because the music has died
and the pizza
has soaked up
all of the alcohol

But you are still
pounding in my chest