TS - Hello Poetry

TS Aug 2017

I thought of you again today while sitting at my desk.

I thought of how you make me feel so serene.

I thought of how if I were to just join you, I would feel at peace, too.

I am overwhelmed by this life and everything it shoves down my throat. I choke by its hand and tears stream down my emotionless face. I am broken.

I thought of you today.

I long to join you in sweet end.

I long to feel nothing again instead of everything all at once.

I thought of you today.

I thought, maybe I will finally decide to give in.

-t.s.

#thinking #of #you #depression #suicide #hurt #anger #overwhelmed #pain #end

TS Aug 2017

Deep Blue Beauty

Are you even aware how staggeringly gorgeous you are?

I don't just mean the symmetry of your ****** features or the temperature of your deep blue eyes.

I mean all of you.

How beautiful you are when you run your fingers around the tops of your ears when you are in deep though.

How inspiring your gaze on something that ignites that passion in you.

How stunning the furrow in your brow when someone hurts your loved ones.

How magnificent your voice singing the language of souls.

Even the crinkly skin on your elbows makes me smile because it is you.

Do you know how beautiful you are?

How perfectly unique you are?

The world is a much better place with you in it, gracing us with your infinite radiance.

-t.s.

#beauty #gorgeous #love #beautiful #stunning #unique #radiant

TS Jul 2017

Let Me Out

I need to speak but it weighs so heavy on my mind.

"They don't love you."

"You aren't good enough."

I can't work, I can't sleep, I can't breathe.
This feeling is suffocating me slowly.
Let me out, let me speak, let me be who I am without judgement because I already judge myself enough for the both of us.

-t.s.

#judge #sad #hurt #pain #depression #angry #heavy #suffocate #anxiety

TS Jul 2017

Anonymous Internet *******

I'll dump this here so your words stop stinging.

This community ***** the venom out with each poisonous thing I post.

"You're a kind-hearted person with good intentions, but you hurt so many people. You say you're their friend, but you've entirely abandoned them, despite the lengths they've gone to to help you or to support you. If you truly care about someone, reach out to them, even just to say hi. Stop hurting the people who care about you the most."

With no love whatsoever, Some ******* on the Internet

-t.s.

#hurt #pain #sad #abandoned #poison #anger #stress #anxiety #depression #words

TS Jul 2017

Desecration

I can smell the cigarette you put out on my skin.
The sting, it lingers, but I am used to the pain.
I can feel your gaze, not love but lust from sin.
Still I let you touch me, in hopes I feel sane.

Your hands wander and I want to scream.
Tears are running but I am not hurt, just in pain.
You pay no mind and so it seems
This bed will always creak where you have lain.

I am haunted by the ghost of your touch
Who once took my soul from me.
Desecrated place, my eye are lifeless such
Without hope or depth for eyes to see.

I am finished here, it is over.

I no longer belong to me but you have claimed me for your own and left my lifeless body in the wake.

#defiled #depressed #used #sin #soulless #hurt #anger #pain #touch #suicidal

TS Jul 2017

My Visions

LSD to hallucinate
Marijuana for stillness
Alcohol to numb the pain

All I wonder is

Who needs drugs when we have music?

-t.s.

#music #drugs #song #lsd #marijuana #alcohol #listen #depression #pain

TS Jul 2017

Color of Song

Bokeh flares glitter.

Give me love
Give me love
Give me love

Spirals of white.

Give me love
Give me love
Give me love

Dancing yellow light screeches.
Overwhelming prisms flash through.
Angry heated red sets fire.
Meadow green comforts, too.

I close my eyes and I listen.

I see a masterpiece painted behind my eyes, sitting, waiting to be discovered.

Encovered. Enearthed. A firework display of passion errupting in time

One and two and three and four ...

Blood, oceans, dirt, sun

The words bring the passion and the passion brings the show.

The rhythm creates the motion, gives life to the color.

Color.

Give me love
Give me love
Give me love

Every song has color.
Every song has a display.
All we need to do is close our eyes and wait and

Take the time to listen.

-t.s.

#color #song #listen #patience #quiet #love #calm #display #firework #passion