Somedays I'd just rather
be alone than being with people
that make me feel lonely.

Other days I'd rather be
alone and unbothered
because I want to feel nothing,
exactly nothing at all.

Tell me what it is
that causes my
unhappiness
despite having
everything?

Last night I was
in pain,
I cried loud and clear
but no one heard me,
people were around
but
no one helped me
despite my plea.

I always felt
that I was not
capable of being
wanted.
I didn't believe
that I was enough
for anyone.
I have always felt
worthless, rejected,
and that I couldn't
be loved.

the sky dropped
              its invisible whiteness

             we saw  pass out
                                   nowhere

                        empty the blue  

                              stars

          our summer
                                on the ground


            like last night another
                                             time

                    in fragments

I really want to tell someone
about the things that go in my head,
bu the truth is,
everyone else is busy with someone else.

I' nobody's priority
I chose not to bother anyone
with meaningless problems
that they don't want to hear.

Shh...listen, don't you hear?
I'm crying, but they are silent tears.
I'm crying on the inside so you can't see
all the pain running through me.
I cry for you, I cry for me.
I cry for the times I can't,
so if you listen, you may hear my silent tears.

There is this girl,
she is beautiful.

She has short dark blonde hair,
I can notice her anywhere.

At first, we were just friends
but now it all depends

does she know my love for her
is sincere?

Imagine
Metting someone
who wanted to learn from your past
not to punish or judge you,

but to understand
how you needed to be loved

I want you
to undress
your heart,
and show me
how much it hurts,
so that
I can show you
how I intend
to make it
stop.

-jl

I am
deeply
falling
in love
with someone
who I can't have
because I am
not a man.

I don't know how to love someone
by lying about caring for them

I don't know how to love someone
by pretending to be someone I am not

I don't know how to love someone
by making them feel worthless

I don't know how to love someone
if I don't trust them

I Don't Love As You Do

When I die
don't you dare
come  to my grave
and tell me
you love me

because those words
were the only thing
I would have needed
to stay.