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Skylar Keith Oct 2017
You speak
You yell
You slam

These are the things I remember

The times of fear
The trembling of my hands
The streams of tears

These are the things I remember

The times of hatred
The fire burning
Yet I hid it
In fear
You slam
Remember?
That's what I remember

Do you remember?
I don't believe you
The hugs you gave
That drove me insane
You said it was fine
You never asked me
You asked yourself
Is it okay?
Yes
That's not what I said

Tears
I hope I left a stain
I recall all that

The times when you raised the hand
I don't recall if I felt it
The time I stared at the number on the screen
Debating
I took to long
The door opened and you were there
I never made that call
That day is when my Fear burned bright
My instincts told me to run
I was frozen
Had I run
What would you have done?
Raised your voice or your hand
Or something else
I hope I'll never know

I want to know

Are my fears justified
I can only know if I break out of my silence
Silence that screams
Run
Leave
Forget

Forgetting is what I've done so far
Repress
Suppress
Forget the times
I forget the times that would lessen my fear
Do those times even exist
I don't know
I don't care

I have to break free
A cage I've built for protection
You used it against me
To keep me where you want me
Vulnerable

Silence is screaming
All the times
I curled up
Fear
Hurt
Pain
I don't want to feel that way
Yet here I am
Silent
Staying put in fear
I can't speak
Tongue tied
Screaming Inside
Caught up in my own words
That you will never hear

Shut up
I don't care
...
Silence
Continuation of Empty Memories
Skylar Keith Oct 2017
Years of Lost Memory
You tell me stories
I can't recall
You laugh at moments
That I don't remember
I don't think I want to either
I see no value in you
Your words
Your stories

I don't care

I nod and smile
I'm not listening
I look right through you
Imagining times of other people
I don't think of you
You smile at me
I'm smiling as I remember a joke
It wasn't yours

Empty Memories
You ask if I remember
I laugh and say that I do
I don't
I laugh at how easily you fall for what I say
Your eyes try to find mine
Connections
I don't see you
I see the times that I do remember

Times I wished didn't exist

I look in the mirror
Asking myself how much I am like you
Hoping that I am me and not parts of you
Yet I know
You run through my veins
No matter how much I do against it
Doesn't mean I like it

I've told you
I don't see you as what blood and papers may say
Skylar Keith Oct 2017
Darkness descends
Lights rise
What have we come to?

Strangers scream
It rips through the silence
That the Night promised

One
It flickers
It's weak and broken

Two
This one is stronger
It cuts through the curtains of layered black

Three
Brighter than the others
But it won't be enough

Get me out of here
Who am I talking to?
Myself I'd hope
That I take the first steps to find my way

Follow the lights you say?
What lights?
Oh
Those before right?

That's only three steps
How will I feel better through that?

I call *******
That's what we all do right?
We want to get better yet we think others need to reach out

Reach out to what?
They cannot see you from where you are
Even if you just try
It'll create a splash and people will reach out

Take the first steps
One
Two
Three
You're not alone anymore

Reach out to them and they'll extend their hands
Pulling you up
Into the world that you've been missing out on

Don't give up
No matter what comes
You're stronger than you think
Alone or together
You can smile again
Never stop pushing for what you want and for a smile that is yours to claim
We all have our shadows but don't let them define you
Fight
Skylar Keith Oct 2017
Did you leave?
So far, yet so close
If I reach out, will my fingers touch empty air?

You've gone
Yet when I feel like this
I always think you are right by my side

Why must you haunt me like this?
I just want to move on
Yet images of you fill my mind

Sadness through your tears and cuts
I've seen them all and I want to reach out to you
Embrace you and never let go

When I close my eyes and curl up
I imagine you next to me
Holding me close while I cry

When you close your eyes and curl up
You imagine me right by your side
Holding you close while you cry

All your tears and cuts
All my tears and cuts
What are they for?

For what others say
What others do
All the bruises they've given you
I want to erase
I want to run my fingers over your skin and see you smile
I want to be there for you

When I reach out
What will my fingers touch?
Empty Air
You

Neither
All I feel is the cold and dead feeling
of a screen against my fingertips
As I cry out for you and I know you do the same

You're haunting me and I curl up
Imagining you to be there with me
While we cry

So close, yet so far
Only a border between us
The phone screen staying black
As you cry
As I cry

No bruises or cuts
No tears or screams
All I ever wanted was for you to smile
All I ever wanted was to see you smile
Skylar Keith Oct 2017
The smoke rises
Inside this cage of glass
Is it snow or paper
You will never know

Your breath fogs up the glass as you stare out
As you stare at me

I can't see you
Tilting my head I smile
How pretty it is
My thoughts

I shake the globe
Watching it snow down
As I cry

Are you crying?
We can cry together
As the snow falls

You're just a figure of my imagination
Yet I cry
As I stare through the glass
Snow globes

That's what they're called
My thoughts
As my breath fogs up the glass
I stare outside
As we watch the snow fall
Written while listening to "Breathe" by Lee Hi
Skylar Keith Oct 2017
Come to the Edge
Don't be scared
That's what they said

Edge of what?
The Edge changed

Don't go!
It's dangerous
It's different now

Come closer
Step away
Which one is it?

Turn away!
Jump!
What edge are you on?

Some Edges are made to jump from
Some Edges you look over
Some Edges you leave

The same way you came
Jump if you can fly
Can you fly?

Find your wings
To the Edge I say
The Edge you stand on is the one you chose or found

Jump if you can fly
Walk if you can't

Find the Edge that belongs to you and lifts you high above
You'll find your place
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