Waking up
to the taste of blood
and a shooting pain
in my side
which is now the norm
and I dont know what's
coming next since
I hadn't planned
to have made it this
far
but
things are going pretty well.

take me
where nothing matters
time stands still
no hatred
corruption
and war
take me
where the grass
is greener
where there is
fresh air everywhere
no worries to beware
of terrorism anywhere
no worries
about the dreamkillers
and the doubters
somewhere
someday
You shall take me
to this
better atmosphere

All dressed up
With nowhere to go
A phone full of numbers
With no one to call
Guess I should have replied
To all the messages I got sent
Instead, I shut everyone out
That when you pay the price
In behind these lonely eyes
Lies dormant emotions inside
Ready to awaken from this slumber
Oh how I wish I could rewind
Make better decision in my life

Sympathy ain't found here
You made your own decisions
It should be crystal clear
Why you're all alone
Staring at your shadow
Upon the wall
Hoping, waiting for somebody to call

That is when you hear
Just deal with it
No, I won't give in
Just deal with it
Can't shake this
Sinking feeling
I won't just deal with it
I won't give in
I'll keep fighting
till my last breath
I won't just deal with it
Deal with it

Late night drives
Just don't work like they used to
I need someone till fills this void
There's a hole in my soul
Looking for a spark
Looking for a jumpstart
To reenergize my heart
There's something in my mind
Trying to stay optimistic
That it'll all be okay
But there's still no sign
Of an end to all this rain
There still no cure
To this pain.

Sympathy ain't found here
You made your own decisions
It should be crystal clear
Why you're all alone
Staring at your shadow
Upon the wall
Hoping, waiting for somebody to call

That is when you hear
Just deal with it
No, I won't give in
Just deal with it
Can't shake this
Sinking feeling
I won't just deal with it
I won't give in
I'll keep fighting
till my last breath
I won't just deal with it
Deal with it

They say home is where the heart is
Never has a line ever been so true
That why I'm out in the darkness
Searching for you
Looking for a little light
To brighten my sky
Somehow I hold onto hope
Everything's gonna work out right
Somehow I figure
I'm gonna find you
At just the right time

Sympathy ain't found here
You made your own decisions
It should be crystal clear
Why you're all alone
Staring at your shadow
Upon the wall
Hoping, waiting for somebody to call

That is when you hear
Just deal with it
No, I won't give in
Just deal with it
Can't shake this
Sinking feeling
I won't just deal with it
I won't give in
I'll keep fighting
till my last breath
I won't just deal with it
Deal with it

©2017 Written By Benji James

Do you ever have one of those smiles...
you know, the kind only someone special can cause.
The kind where your heart doesn't exactly drop,
but it's a similar feeling just way slowed down.
Maybe this sensation I'm trying to describe is called melt?
That kind of smile.
Where your heart just melts as the corners of your lips turn up and create the opposite of a frown.
That kind of smile where you receive chills,
not necessarily anywhere special
just scattered chills that make the whole thing feel even better.
A smile that you're excited to show,
a truly amazing smile.

My eyes are running black
The sky is starting to crack
My back is starting to ache
As my hands start to shake
My vocals are starting to strain
I'll keep pushing through the pain
I'll keep making my way
Writing my own fate
All these tears won't wash the memories away
I'll keep holding on, Stand strong
Proving I can handle anything that goes wrong

No, I won't fight back the tears
No, I won't hold back what I think
I've held it in for far too long
I'm letting it all loose
No more weight on my shoulders
Need to be a little bit braver
A little bit bolder
After all the mistakes I made
I feel a little bit wiser

Don't give in (To all your pain)
Don't throw (Everyone you love away)
I'm starting to see
You don't need to do everything
On your own
You don't have to always feel alone
I'm not just another shadow
on the floor
I'm starting to see the ones
Who've earned my love
And I'm starting to see
I get it back in return

You've been here all along
To help carry the load I bear
You've always been there
To guide me with your hand
And all the love we have, We share
You plus me have been through every tragedy
It's taken all this time to learn
You can help me breathe
Tell me everything you see in me
I'll let down the walls
Take a look at all the flaws
And all the hurt that was all my fault
But you see where perfection lies
and sincerity that is trying to hide
the broken piece to my heart you'll find
Because I want you to be classed as mine

No, I won't fight back the tears
No, I won't hold back what I think
I've held it in for far too long
I'm letting it all loose
No more weight on my shoulders
Need to be a little bit braver
A little bit bolder
After all the mistakes I made
I feel a little bit wiser

Don't give in (To all your pain)
Don't throw (Everyone you love away)
I'm starting to see
You don't need to do everything
On your own
You don't have to always feel alone
I'm not just another shadow
on the floor
I'm starting to see the ones
Who've earned my love
And I'm starting to see
I get it back in return

You're here in every waking moment
Struggle with me through every problem
You know every scar that is marked on my heart
You've wiped every tear that I cry
You said I was your soldier who makes you smile
And all the battles that we have faced
Have carried us to a higher and safer place
In your arms I know I'm safe
And no matter what darkness lies inside
I know you'll protect me with your life
As will I
Because baby you're my kryptonite
You could try counting all the stars
But you can't count all the ways
In which I love you
I'll never put another above you
Because everything I am
Is everything you gave me
And I won't throw that away for anybody
Cuz you are my everybody
Your the one and only
With you, I could never feel lonely
There was only room for two
Honey that was me plus you.

No, I won't fight back the tears
No, I won't hold back what I think
I've held it in for far too long
I'm letting it all loose
No more weight on my shoulders
Need to be a little bit braver
A little bit bolder
After all the mistakes I made
I feel a little bit wiser

Don't give in (To all your pain)
Don't throw (Everyone you love away)
I'm starting to see
You don't need to do everything
On your own
You don't have to always feel alone
I'm not just another shadow
on the floor
I'm starting to see the ones
Who've earned my love
And I'm starting to see
I get it back in return

©2017 Written By Benji James

I know inside your heart is breaking
your whole body feels like it’s aching
Inside your soul, it’s shaking
Your breath of air feels like it’s fading
you didn't expect this situation
but in the dark, there is always light
You’ll find happiness on the other side

Hey there angel eyes
everything is gonna be alright
Take my hand hold it tight
I will see you through the hardest times
Hey there angel eyes
Everything is gonna be just fine

Trying to fight another scar
Just don’t give up
You won’t lose out in love
I promise you there is someone
It feels like there’s no end
To this corner bend
you’ll find somebody at the end
Waiting for you to come to them

Hey there angel eyes
everything is gonna be alright
Take my hand hold it tight
I will see you through the hardest times
Hey there angel eyes
Everything is gonna be just fine

It feels like your trying to fly
With broken wings
There is a way to mend everything
Don’t let go, never give up
Put some armour around your heart
you’ll find a way to make the pain fade
Keep on walking don’t be afraid
Love always finds a way

Hey there angel eyes
everything is gonna be alright
Take my hand hold it tight
I will see you through the hardest times
Hey there angel eyes
Everything is gonna be just fine.

©2017 Written By Benji James