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1.3k · May 2016
-Verse [Art, of Language]
Armed with knowledge
of any given set of rules,
One inherits great Power:
arbitration of One's own

Be well-versed
enough to be able to subverse
any and all obstacles, however adverse,
and, moreover, to be able to transverse
thyself (and, by extension, thy universe!)
perchance edified by some means of verse,
(but not necessarily: bask in the diverse!)
during this sacred and fleeting saga of the converse
called Life: denied, defamed, and defiled by perverse
and attenuated souls; true cowards: unwilling to traverse
their own inner darkness, rather opting for the reverse:
to turn themselves schismatically and indefinitely averse
to the divine, ineffable, and limitless inverse:


So this plea, please:


Just be you,
let them be them.
Let me be me,
and let her be her.
Let him be him,
just let us be us.
Just let us.
Lettuce.

("Why he talkin' 'bout lettuce now, mommy?"
"I guess he just think he funny, the fool!")



Look, point is:

You are you and I am not,
and I'm okay with that.



I am I and you are not,
and I'm okay with that.


I hope you feel the same.
If not, by me it's coo',
yet I jus' gotta say:
I pity the foo'.


Bask in the holy beauty of this Life
while you still have the chance.
Truly, Solace awaits those who are willing to face this unchangeable aspect of this Life:

Diversity is the nature of this Universe;
the Void is One is Two are Three are the Ten Thousand
(et cetera, blah blah blah)
Get over it and strive for balance.
Maintain balance.
Create it.
Be it.
Be able to lose balance and find it again and again and again...
Be it.
Be you.
I'll be me.
I'll try, at least.
I hope you do, too.
I mean, I hope you try to be you,
not that you try to be me..
'cause that's for me to do.. not you. that's..
oh jesus, here we go!

Foremost,
One must harmonize with One's own Godself.

Nary another
can or will do that for you,
nor shall ye for any other.

So, whatsayeth thou:
let's just try
and we'll see just what we can do.
I'm optimistic,
albeit a sign of weakness in such a needlessly vampyristic world.




Please,
heed my verse
should ye be so apt,
or, rather:
inclined!






Thank you for reading.
Blessings upon thy Path.
I hope this makes even just half as much sense to fresh minds as it makes to me right now.

Words are constrained to interpretation,
but therein lies much of their magic.

I wouldn't change it if I could.
--


"******'fuckidyfuck! It's five in the ******' mornin' already‽‽
I been writin' n' editin' this ******' ******* for an hour now‽
Jesus Christ!"

"Whuddup, homeboy?"

"I got work at ******' ten a.-******'-m.!!"

"God-****! You so ******, yo.
Huh, ***** t'be you, foo'!"

"You tellin' me‽ Shiiit.
Look, Jesus, bro, I got a favor t'ask ya:
So, I know you all, uh- real nice an' all,
an' I ain't tryin' t'take advantage a that immaculate ****,
but, look: I drank a lot a water, 'n I got plenty left, but uh-
I could really ******' use some medicinal miracle wine right about now!"

--
PS: Profanity in the notes field ain't explicit, so it would seem.
In keeping with the allusion at the beginning of this piece:
Knowledge is ******' Power, y'all!
-
Now it's five-*******-thirty-
make that five-*******-forty-five in the morning.
Oh, the afflictions I incur in the name of this silly piece of scripture.

Still no miracle wine...
--
Seven o'******-clock rolls around with the epiphany that my lazy and crazy self can get me my own ******' wine! Expedite the whole debacle a little, y'know?

--
Seventeen-*******'-fiddy-one and I just got off work; ne'er got me wine,
but surely ein bißchen Whiskey!
Los geht's!
1.3k · May 2013
Fractal of Manifestation [I]
The Universe
is a manifestation
of the Music of the Godself,
and I am a personification of that Universe.

Music is not my Medium; I am that of Music.

The Universe at any given time
is the "All-Chord" of that moment;
The Harmony of all that is,
implying a motion
forward in time
perhaps towards resolution?

Not if Entropy has anything to say about it,
which, by now, it certainly seems to.

What a queer Symphony is this Existence,
that implores Entropy to be Maestro!

A Babushka Doll Set of Paradoxes,

*Perfect!
1.3k · Aug 2013
CathARTic
Sometimes my Music and Writings
are created in the Worst of Times,
Other times my Music and Writings
are created in the Best of Times,
At still other times, they're simply created
when the Time is otherwise right.

Please keep in mind my expressions usually are most vivid
when I need them to be;
in order to clear my mind of the Negative
or express my joy at the Positive
or simply to create a new thing:

My Art is a snapshot
of my present state of Mind
and does not necessarily reflect
who I am on a day to day basis,
though those tortured and elated aspects
are always indeed aspects
of who I truly am.
1.2k · Mar 2015
Lazy
"'Lazy' may well be another term for 'efficient,' as so many love to romantically remark, but it nevertheless has a vague connotation of '..drowning in a distorted sense of responsibility, dimension, and progress, with symptoms including a stupefying lack of initiative,' but, yes: 'laziness' is a sort-of pursuit of 'efficiency-'
with no intention or willingness to bear the responsibility of exertion.

A system cannot be said to be efficient
if it bereft of energy by which it might do work, however efficiently.

Put your energy where your mouth is.
It's cool to kick it once it's done,
but, for now: ante up or fold."
A cute joke gone philosophically wrong.

I'm lazy, but I'm working on it.. well, chiseling away at it, really. Okay, fine! I'll start working on evolving as a conscious being first thing tomorrow, I promise! Right after I hit the snooze button for the umpteenth time.
1.2k · Jan 2014
Department of Propaganda
"Stop ******* over every group on Earth
and perhaps fewer will seek to exact revenge."
Funny how that works.
1.2k · Jul 2012
Tools
We've crafted such elegant tools
Words which baffle the tongue
and weapons which tear tongues out.

We have so many words
as if tools in a box
But, if we fail to realize that the tool is the means and not the end,
as a map is the means to finding a destination,
we assume we've arrived at the destination by looking at our mass-produced maps
and by saying our mass-produced words
instead of by traversing the terrain and climbing the mountain
to look around for ourselves and craft our own maps.

Our maps must be
Unique to each one of us. Unique to our experiences.

No one can know your dogma;
sometimes not even you.
No one can find your way but you,
sometimes not even then.
No one can guide you on the inward journey but your mind,
sometimes not even that.

All we can do is give each other maps which have proven useful to us.
It takes the individual to take the steps of the journey.
Is it lamentable when the individual doesn't even realize there is a journey:
Life is the classroom in which the lesson is taught.
The lesson defies words: It is more subtle and elegant than we have tools to denote;
The territory is far too complex and constantly shifting to draw a definite, permanent map.

We must learn to draw our own map
to realize the limitations of our tools
to come to terms with the boundaries of our perceptions

Otherwise the maps are useless.
Otherwise our tools are useless.
Otherwise the lesson is useless.

Otherwise the beauty of reality is lost on us.
As a great friend and professor of mine always said:
"The map is not the territory."
1.2k · Nov 2014
Were you to ask me* [1]
"O, how Light
doth so verily well as Ink
upon canvases of Darkness,
as Darkness
doth so verily the same
by Light.

Thus
do I beseech of thee
to speak at any length with me
of this 'good' and 'bad.'
over which you toil yet so."
Let's call it "following a whim~"

*Just in case anyone's curious: the asterisk in the title is wholly intentional as a facetious appeal to a theoretically-requisite-though-nevertheless-inescapably-non-existant footnote of a disclaimer signifying that this is, in fact, somewhat likely to be a hypothetical scenario where someone, for some senseless reason, actually wanted to know the author's viewpoint; or, that it could indeed be otherwise fictitious.

Resemblance to any person, myself or otherwise, is favorable.

Just to clarify. ;)




.
What if Evil exits
as an antithesis of what Good can be
so as to show by counter-example how awful it is
when the Good is under-appreciated
and thus serves as a sort-of self aware hypocritical advertisement
for the antithesis of the antithesis,
which is, simply, to be Good?
Not that it justifies it, but it is an interesting thought.
1.2k · Jul 2013
Dionysus, you motherfucker!
It's a whole lotta fun
to write while intoxicated,
but not all of the things
that come to mind while inebriated are good ideas,  
though, a lot of them are rather, shall we say..
"Inspired"
1.2k · Mar 2016
All Lives Matter
Enough of this us versus them crap;

either admit
all lives matter
or perpetuate
this violent prejudice
1.2k · Mar 2014
Poison [Martini]
Perhaps I'm a bit weird,
but I prefer to know it's poison
instead of just a good time.

I still choose to do it;
I poison myself willingly:
these martinis are sublime.
1.2k · Jan 2013
Divintiy
Divinity is all around us, yet no deity is to blame.

A world of wisdom is there to be explored
both in the outside World and the universe Inside
if only we allow ourselves to break our fixations
and to overcome our own shortcomings
and forgive those of others.

Empathy. A word created by it's absence.
Compassion. A word fortified with guilt.
Enlightenment. A word used as a carrot on a spiritual stick.
Virtue. A subjective and metaphysical code of honor.
Love.

Words are but tools. Signs upon the path.
They weave into an intricate map of reality.
A subjective map. A distorted map.
The map is not the territory.
One must acquaint one's self to the territory
before the map can be put into it's proper context.

Words are funny tools.

Used for every purpose.

By both good and evil. Truth and lies.
Profit and charity. Prophet and atheist.

They are limited. They are imperfect.
Such is our Communication,
Such is our Perception,
and thus
Such is our reality.

Life without death is non-existence.
Instead of nourishing extensive philosophical quandary,
it seems that they'd rather suppress it in the name of:
"THIS IS HOW IT IS, SHUT THE **** UP
AND DON'T QUESTION WHAT YOU'RE TOLD!"

to which one is seemingly entitled to reply;
"Jawohl, mein Führer! Mein Leben für den Vaterland!"
"Of course, my Leader! My Life for the Fatherland!"
(A Patriot is one who is loyal to the Father. Patri=Father. Know yo' ******' greek word parts, fools!)
1.2k · Jan 2015
Seas of Death
What is it
within the realm of
my Self
that has the nerve
to question the divinity
of this current, fleeting moment?

Is it not the vessel of Life, itself,
that is used to navigate
these, the occluded
Seas of Death?

Could it not be
that a Mind and Body
are the very salvation
over which we so toil?

Would it not be an act of pure mercy
to have the capacity to look around
and to think, and create
while, all the time,
being pulled under
by the inevitable tide of change
we, in English, chose to call
"Death?"

That, in itself,
should inspire me to carry on
and to turn an eye
up from the ground, back from the past;
to within my self; this current moment;
and on, upward:
to the skies and, likewise,
the future.

What is it about my Mind
that so enjoys, or perhaps requires
some selfish sense of 'overlooking'
for the sake of ephemeral comfort?

Alas,
I know what word I would use,
but I dare yet not to use it;
for, t'is that a word, itself,
isn't the concept, itself;
and it's use would be to misdirect
from the nature of the experience,
and to mistranslate what I feel.

I realize the necessity
for names; for words:
we use them to facilitate communication.
I also understand their limit:
there is a great realm
beyond the transparent restraints
of our Languages.

I would identify the culprit
as either "Ego," or "Id."
But, better yet, I would argue
"both and neither."

Freud had some great ideas,
but I tend towards Jung-

I could sooner call it the Shadow,
or at least one aspect of it.

The Shadow is semi-subconscious.
It is an amalgam of fears and repression.
It can only hold so much pressure
before it erupts.
So,
I implore you
to study your Shadow.

It has great potential for change.
Failing to utilize it
is to be utilized by it.
Make it work for you
or you will work for it.
Use your Shadow
to your advantage,
or it will use you
to that of it's own.

Pick apart your Self;
put it back together.
Sometimes that's easier said than done,
but, with a proper mindset,
it'll come and leave
before you even know it.
It happens all the time.

Refuse the shackles
of thy Shadow;
break the chains
and share with the world
the fleeting feeling
of self-liberation.

That is,
if someone doesn't misinterpret what you've said;
looking through the Shadow,
everything looks darker.

Realize where you're going.
Realize what you're doing.

Heed what you feed,
external or internal.

Seek Balance.
Explore Ideas.
Gain Understanding
no matter how slow:
at all
is far better
than so many.

No one may escape these Seas;
but you can start some ripples
that will propagate ad infinitum.

Ask. Practice. Learn. Grow.
Mostly improvised.
Stream-of-consciousness-esque.

Call it following a whim~

Spoken Recording:
https://soundcloud.com/apexparadigm/fleeting-seas-of-death
1.2k · Dec 2012
Odium
Spite and disdain:
the sustenance of modern society.

Oh how we love to talk **** on others
while ourselves being perfect and blame free:

How is the weather? How is the view?
Up there in your tower, with nothing but you?
So high above the filth that makes up the rest of us,
tell me, o Majesty, how things seem to you,
with your flawless perception,
perfect opinions,
passive-aggressive disdain,
and hubristic spite.


"Wer im Glashaus wohnt sollt nicht im Wohnzimmer bumsen."
"[One] who lives in a glass house shouldn't **** in the living room."
1.2k · Oct 2013
Longing
Right at this very moment
there isn't much on this Earth I'd rather do
than interlace our fingers
and look into eachother's eyes
  and nip at your ears, collarbone and neck
as I make sweet, passionate Love
to you.
For a beautiful and lovely muse.
1.2k · Nov 2014
Dear Mother Earth:
I'd ask thy forgiveness,
but I know thy disbelief of blame.

Though thy terrors be great,
thy bounty is much the same.

Thy systems be wiser
than many can fathom,
and for their presence,
I thank thee.

We have loved you,
respected you,
revered you;
but, then
we also
***** you,
plundered you
and forsook you.

Though we inherit thy Eden,
we voracious inhabitants
squander and profligate thy lush resources
in the name of mere money-
in the name of ourselves;
yet, I dare to reckon
better is deserved by thee,
o Mother Earth.

I hope we can eventually become thy apt sentinels.
I have been honored to be in thy presence.
Thank you for thy selflessness.

I am ashamed on behalf of my kind,
but I know you understand that we're still young.
We'll come around one of these days,
or, if not, I know we'll inherit thy wrath, as well.

If such be the case:
so be it.
I wish it won't come to that,
but, if it does,
at least some of us will surely understand.
1.2k · Dec 2015
Reflections on Christmas
Be kind and do good
for no good reason;
not because it looks good
but because it is good.

To need a day
to be humane
is to celebrate
fractured empathy.

It is good we have days
where it's hip to give and be nice,
but wouldn't it be nice indeed
if we didn't need to be reminded?

Happy Christmas-
Remember what it signifies.
Think of those with less
and meet everyone
with love, humility, and gratitude.
The truest of Terrorists
in this our wretchedized World
will never be publicly labeled as such
for they are the ones
convincing all the others
that all the others
are the Terrorists.

You want to find the Terrorists?
Look in our buildings of Government;
the policy makers and enforcers:
politicians, judges, police, lawyers, lobbyists;
who are corporately sponsored
and/or backed by secret Societies
tend to be the ones
who most viciously violate Human Rights
through Fear, Prejudice, Violence and Ignorance,
(that is to say Demagoguery)
for personal gain
and that of their Clan.

That sounds like the truest of Terrorism to me.
Demagogue:
A political leader who creates and plays on popular prejudices and fears
to obtain, retain, and expand their power (and that of their colleagues, as well)
as opposed to using rational, logical arguments to establish what is truly best for the Public
1.2k · Apr 2015
Accomplishment
"Yup. There we go. Now it's complete."
1.2k · Nov 2016
Eating Out
"... i have a strange feeling
that when you ask
if I want to get some food,
to 'eat out,'
i have something
entirely different
in mind, and
t'is a **** shame
if it's not on the menu-
Yet, I digress,
nevertheless,
and correct me if i'm wrong,
my answer is yes
especially if you're thinking
what i am."
With more than just 'due respect.'
1.2k · Jun 2013
Brave New World
This isn't so much a literary write
as a reflection
upon a ****** up reality
of our society:

I found a website
that lets employees rate their employers,
and so, naturally, I decided to look up Wal Mart,
just for fun.

You can read all the good things
about opportunity and comfort
but none of the bad things
about corruption, unethical treatment,
or treatment of workers as disposable
unless you're signed in to Facebook:

http://www.glassdoor.com/Reviews/Walmart-Stores-Company-Reviews-E715_P11.htm?sort.sortType=OR&sort.ascending;=true


I think that's kind of funny,
in a weird, omnipresent
big-brother kind of way.
1.2k · Mar 2014
Colloquialification
"Forsooth, my bretheren! That is rather foreboding!"
Translation:
"****, *****! That's sketchy."
1.2k · Jul 2012
No, it isn't "God".
Nothing is eternal.
Only that which dwells
outside the realm of reason
is forever eternal.

No, it isn't "God"
but it is what it is
that is so often misinterpreted
by so many as "God".
""God" is just another thing we've created
to try to make the unfathomable
fathomable.

So is Tao. So is Brahman. So is Allah. So is YHWH/Yahweh.

These are just constructs for our limited perceptions and ignorance; for our need for words.

Because nothing is eternal,
everything is sacred.
Divine.
Holy.
Transient and shifting.

Not in a dogma sort of way, for that diminishes the possibilities.
More of a dynamic spiritualism kind of way.
Forever changing, recycling, pulling and pushing.
Like water, or good music.

There is peace in this existence.
You've just gotta learn to allow it to embrace you.

The more you deny, the less you experience.
God is a concept.
The same sort of concept as the Tao.
A name for the nameless. The origin. The ineffable, unfathomable, numinous-ness of our reality.
Also, I notice that if one writes about "God", suddenly everyone has something to say.
1.2k · Dec 2014
Devout Dung Beetles
"I'm gonna take the moral high ground
just so I can look down at them;
'cause, after all, that seems to be
what moral high ground is all about."
No offense to the Dung Beetles, of course.
1.2k · Nov 2013
Liebe wie Gift
I'm not sayin' that she doesn't love,
I'm just sayin' she has love like poison;
and, no, not the good kind of poison;
an innocuous enough seeming poison
of which I wish ne'ermore to partake.

We had neigh incompatible sorts of love,
yet seemed rather complementary as lovers.

Now my form of love is to
remove myself completely from her,
to remove each and every last trace;

I mean it not so much with that intention,
but that result seems to be a side-effect of
efforts to remove unnecessary contention.

So be it.

I can only hope it's not outrageous
for me to claim it in the name of mercy.
Title: Love like Poison

Sub poem; inspired by the last words of each line:

Love: poison, poison, poison.
to partake of love as lovers
to trace intention;
unnecessary contention.

So be it;
outrageous mercy.
1.2k · Aug 2014
The Expert Enough Manifesto
We are all capable of so much more than we think.
Most people never scratch the surface of what they're capable of.

Expertise is relative.
Expertise doesn't come from a piece of paper.

Life is richest when we become good at a lot of different things.
“Know-it-all,” “Jill of all trades,” and “renaissance man” are compliments.

Life is an experiment.

You don't have to wait for permission,
and you don't need anyone else to grant you status.

It's not about being the world's greatest expert.
It's about being expert enough to accomplish your goals.

The more you use creativity, the more you get.

Brilliance lies within each of us.
Follow your passion.

Go now. Live. Play. Explore.
*Learn* more. Do more. Be more.
http://expertenough.com/538/the-expert-enough-manifesto
1.2k · Dec 2015
Find it
Every day
may not be good,
but there is always
some good to be found
in every day.

The same can be said
of practically anything.

If you can't find it,
make it.
Once it's there:
nurture it.
Anything less,
one may suggest,
could be aptly called
cowardice.
Leaders of the 'Free World':
Get jobs inflating hot air baloons
with all that hot air you love to blow,
Then perhaps you'd make an honest living
and your words would be useful
not just to you and yours, but to those you claim to seek to help.

WE ARE SERFS
WE ARE PEONS
WE ARE PAWNS
WE ARE STATISTICS
WE ARE UNITS TO BE EXTORTED
WE ARE UNITS OF PRODUCTION
WE ARE THE UNTOUCHABLES

Our right is to worship our system
In surveillance and ignored promises we trust!
1.2k · Jan 2016
Knowledge, Wisdom [Taogod]
Information
applicable to
any one subject
is called "knowledge,"
whereas
information
cross-applicable to
any number of subjects
is called "wisdom."

The difference
seems to me to be
but a matter of
liberating one's Mind
from functional fixation
and practicing the art of
creative contemplation;
to not fear the unknown
fighting it, running from it;
but to rather welcome it
as a teacher and a friend
and to allow it to noirish
One's innate curiosity.

T'is indeed not a path
for the faint of heart:
those who should dismiss it
and diminutize it
and demonize it
as "the Occult"
are, themselves, guilty
of occluding
such respendant and divine potential!

Darkness-
the unknown-
is just as sacred
as Light, itself,
for Yin
cannot sustain
without Yang.

Such is the Tao:
such is God.

Thus I revere it
and refer to it
as Taogod;
not to limit either,
but instead
to set both terms free!
Hence my term "Taogod"
The difference
between
failure
and
success
is
perseverance
1.2k · Jul 2013
Cultism
The cardinal difference between a group and a cult
seems to be the discrepancy of knowledge (and, furthermore, intention)
between the higher-ups and those down below.

But, the problem looms
that by this definition;

.
..
..!
oh, ****!
..!!!
We need to do something!
1.2k · Jan 2015
I'm not quite dead, yet.
"That's what life is all about:
not dying yet!"
1.2k · Jul 2014
Etiquette
Judge not
by "what"
so much as
"why" and "how."
[There is] So much figurative Wisdom in this world
yet so much of this wonderful Wisdom is taken as literal
by the people who call themselves People
who indeed are Sheeple.

Figurative wisdom taken literally is profane to philosophers and true mythological scholars alike.
Title: Figurative Wisdom [will be/is] taken as literal
1.2k · Oct 2014
Discretion
It is all
up to
our
discretion.

That is,
simultaneously,
our greatest gift
as well as
our greatest curse.
1.2k · Jan 2014
Spirit Crusher - Death
It comes from the depths
of a place unknown to the
keeper of dreams.
If it could then it would steal
the sun and the moon from the sky;
beware!

Human at sight,
monster at heart,
Don't let it inside;
it could tear you right apart!

No guilt, it feeds in plain sight.
Spirit crusher!
Stay strong and hold on tight.
Spirit crusher!

Speaking in killing words,
the vicious kind that crush and ****.
No mercy, its pleasure:
to taste the blood.
That's it, blood.

When it's time to feed,
to fulfill the need to consume a breath,
some will rise standing tall
breathing out all the breath from
the voice of a Soul.

Human at sight,
monster at heart.
Don't let it inside,
it would tear you right apart!

No guilt, it feeds in plain sight.
Spirit crusher!
Stay strong and hold on tight.
Spirit crusher!

Speaking in killing words;
the vicious kind that crush and ****.
No mercy, its pleasure to taste
the blood!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KOXLc3rmK10

Song by the band Death;
written by Chuck Schuldiner
1.2k · Apr 2014
Sloth
[A] People, who willingly
sacrifice progress for comfort,
are deserving of neither.
1.2k · Oct 2012
Nightfall/Nephthys
I heard you knocking
with the long red rays of sunset.
Tranquility falls over the land as the sky blackens.
You step into my chamber and disrobe.
Before me now is the Night, in all her bare, transcendent beauty.
The icy fingers of wind which which whip over our bodies do not discomfort us,
in fact they welcome us into her realm.
As Night embraces me, we sway with the wind.
We take in the energy of the moon
and the beauty of the crisp, clear, dark and speckled night sky.
This poem is from over a year ago.
What good would time-travel be without the blessings of memory?

But, of course; that's how to get away with it!
..raw..
Is it a joke or is it serious?!
It can't be both, right?!

Ow, my head!

-
1.2k · Oct 2013
Magdalena - A Perfect Circle
Overcome by your
moving temple,
Overcome by this
holiest of altars

So pure,
so rare,
to witness such an earthly goddess;
that I've lost my self control,
beyond compelled to throw this dollar down before your
Holiest of altars

I'd sell
My soul
My self-esteem a dollar at a time

One chance
One kiss
One taste of you, my Magdalena

I bear witness
To this place, this prayer, so long forgotten;
so pure,
so rare,
to witness such an earthly goddess.

That I'd sell
My soul
My self-esteem a dollar at a time
For one chance,
One kiss,
One taste of you my, black Madonna

I'd sell
my soul
My self-esteem
a dollar at a time

For one taste,
one taste,
one taste of you, my Magdalena
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EDCCjGf2v1E

"Magdalena" is the original surname of Mary Magdalene.
1.2k · Mar 2014
Iteration of Frustration
Thy overzealous, sustained presumption
is akin to this, my long-seeded indignation.

Thy seemingly effortless pretension
and blatant disregard for implication
creates quite the hypocritical situation
seemingly devoid of deliberation.

Thy egotistical ostentation
does not evade much observation;
this is thy choice, such alienation:
I anticipate resentful perturbation.
Written for a peer of mine,
but I am not immune.
1.2k · Apr 2013
The Conundrum of Empathy
Too compassionate to say no
but too fed up to say yes.
1.2k · May 2014
Quite the Affinity for Black
I don't wear black clothing (when I do)
because I think it'll make me fit in with 'cool' people,
I wear black because I like it.
I enjoy it. I think it's rad.

I don't wear black nail polish on my fingers and toes
because I think it's 'cool,' or that I want others to think so,
I put it on because I like the way it looks.
I like the chipping that happens;
I feel it's a microcosm of Time, itself.
Nail polish exemplifies Wabi and Sabi.

Besides, I have quite the affinity for black.

I don't wear black eyeliner (when I do)
because I think it makes me so metal,
or because I think I need makeup to look good,
I wear it because I enjoy the theatrics
and I like the way it makes me feel.

I don't have the style I do
because I want to associate with
Goths, Rockers, Steampunks or Metalheads;
I have the style I do
because I genuinely like the way it looks.
It just so happens that I get those labels
because people like to put people in boxes.

I don't do what I do
because I want others to notice and like me for it, if anything,
many others will simply mock and make fun of me for it,
but, ironically, much of that spite and disdain
merely fuels my relished rejection
of modern cultural normality and gender roles.

In times of identity crisis, how weird is it to self-identify?

I do what I do
because I like to do it,
because it makes me happy;
because everything is a way to express yourself,
if you only allow it to be such a medium,
if only you find things to use as such mediums.

I see it as Art for the body,
somewhat poetic and transient;
make of it what you will.

It's truly too bad
everyone misconstrues expression
based on their own psychology,
even me. I do it too, though I try not to:
I am not exempt from my own critiques;
I am, in fact, my closest frame of reference.

At the end of the day, though,
you just have to do what you like,
for people and words shall fade
but it is what you have within that stays.
1.2k · Nov 2013
Don't hold your Breath
What will it take
to finally get it through
that thick-*** Skull and Ego of yours
that I want absolutely nothing to do with you?

Haven't the bountiful "*******"s been indicative enough?
The very fact, for instance, that I didn't stop to give you the time of day
when we bumped into each other a few times at my show
yet I hugged and chatted with the friend of yours
with whom you were there?
All the **** you told me not to post that I posted anyway?
All the pieces I've written just to get your torment off my mind
long enough to be able to fall asleep?

You just don't get it, do you?
Well, sorry,
I'm not another forsaken minion
caught under your spell anymore;
I am not One who can comply and abide by
your blatant disregard for those closest to you,
nor your corrosive patterns of narcissistic and selfish behavior.

Here, let me spell it out for you:
I want nothing more to do with you;
I'm quite happy that you're out of my Life;
you're so much more beautiful of a person
when I don't ever experience you.

That may eventually change,
but, like I have said before:
don't hold your breath.

Oh yeah, I almost forgot;
Happy Birthday!
Apparently I wrote for you a Birthday poem,
though far from intentionally, and it's far from flattering.
I did sketch quite a few tattoo ideas, as well,
but the simple fact remains:
*******.
Never have I been so inspired by the word "hey"
https://soundcloud.com/apexparadigm/dont-hold-your-breath
1.2k · Jan 2014
Practice/Study
Each time I put down my guitar,
I feel as if get a bit better at it;
and each time I pick it up once more
I notice my subtle yet very real progress;
and, who knows; one of these days,
I may just get good at it!

I mean not to downplay
my musical accomplishments,
I simply seek only to try to convey
that I feel one of my greatest accomplishments
lies in the realization of a true Path:
to keep on practicing;
to keep on studying;
of my own accord
and in the process
not seeking to be good,
but seeking only to improve.

Hoping all the while
that my invested time
will one day bear fruit;
time already feels
as if it is ripening before me;
as if it is ripening for me.

The Future is pregnant with potential.
The Future always begins Now.
12 years of study;
12 years of learning;
12 years of humbling;
12 years of Music;
12 years of Fun;
keep at it and love it.
1.2k · Jul 2016
Holy War
If
God is Dead
it is ONLY because
WE drove HIM to SUICIDE
(...and who could blame Him?)

...and if
Satan is King
it is ONLY because
WE built HIS THRONE and CROWNED HIM
(...and who could blame Him?)
Welcome back,
After a brief impromptu hiatus.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nXg2WsNCrW4
The DHS is the new SS.
SIEG HEIL!
Wir dürfen nichts befragen.
We're allowed to question anything.

THE GOVERNMENT HAS ORDERED
FROM 450,000,000 TO 1,000,000,000 ROUNDS
OF HOLLOW POINT AMMUNITION;
ENOUGH FOR ONE BULLET FOR EACH OF US AND TWO FOR SOME OF US
TO ONE BULLET FOR EVERY 7 PEOPLE ON EARTH

RAPID MILITARIZATION
IS A THING TO BE WEARY OF;

**** THIS MARTIAL LAW
**** THIS NEW WORLD ORDER;

There's no reason to question Authority, right?

Anyone who pays Taxes
in the United States
helps to fund one of the most prevalent Terrorist organizations in the World
1.1k · Oct 2012
Utility, or plight?
Just because we have phones and computers
doesn't mean we should stop everything we're doing
just to check up on them constantly.
Society breeds lemmings.

There's a fine line
betwixt convenience and plague,
utility and plight,
nurturing and smothering.

No one owes you anything
just as you owe no one anything.

Life is deeper
than the tools we craft
as conveniences;
If you can't get ahold of someone
when you really want to,
perhaps you oughtta go do something for yourself:

Think. Read. Breathe. Create art.
Drink a glass of water. Drink a glass of wine.
Sleep. Meditate. Dance. Cook. Laugh. Think.

You just may be amazed what you can learn and accomplish
when you turn your focus inward
without explicit regard for time or space
or your computer or phone.
If everyone were to agree,
the drive for progress would be gone.
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