Andie May ostrander

Andie May ostrander Jul 2016

cry yourself to sleep at night to the sounds of another pointless fight.
don't listen to mommy cry tonight, daddy doesn't mean to fight.
are you alright dear, are you ok?
I know it hurt when daddy drove away.
who would blame him you want to go.
You walk away but daddy drove.
     Years have gone, and so have you
along a tear stained avenue, with your mind and your manner to
you are your fathers son through and through.
      and just like him, children came, from a woman, you cant even remember her name.
Unlike him you tried to stay but just like he did you drove away.
      Your boys left now without a dad, you've given him no better life than you had.
Don't you remember crying yourself to sleep, doesn't matter the bottle you'll keep.
     While your boy learns to stand on his own two feet.

#love #life #pain #death #father #hope #crying #dad #feet #bottle

Andie May ostrander Jun 2016

Liars

Were all liars,
our house is broken.
This house is not my home,
I feel broken.
I don't know how im supposed to feel,
when I don't want my reality to be real.
This house is broken,
its not a home,
hasn't been since you threatened to leave so long ago.
I love you, I do,
Ill never leave you,
but, I cant take all this heart ace.
I've got nothing left inside of me,
Becoming numb to your memory.
This house is not a home,
were all liars because we say so
This house is not a home....
and I feel broken...

#love #broken #heart #hate #home #pain #death #nothing #liars

Andie May ostrander May 2016

The love of a Vampiret

Their are many things in this world
that are straight and bent and twirled
and wrapped around my little finger
but don't worry the pain wont linger

Because what is love without a bit of pain
to put the whole world into perspective again.
To show you that the world is cruel
But I find beauty when I find you

You with all your faults
And all of your short comings
Back to your side I find myself running.
Love me or not I cant tell you enough
That yeah life gets rough
But you are enough

Life wont be easy
and our hearts are not perfect
But I'll work with you because I think your worth it
your heart never beet to the sound of a drum
you never blindly followed anyone

....your gone and it hurts to watch you leave
But, I would rather it hurt to breath without you
Then to watch your eyes fill with misery at the sun rise
I cant follow you as you went
so I watched the sun as it set
with or without me
love me or hate me
Ill bend so you don't have to break in the end.....

#love #hate #pain #death #sun #without #with #set #vampier #piret

Andie May ostrander May 2016

Vampiret

Dear sister can you hear me
are you out their are you listening.
Do you know that they have got me,
do you know that I fee like I'm drowning.
Our father he did tell us about the monsters in the sea
He told us to be cautious
he taught us to be weary.
Now I've lost you the ocean floor.
now the very monsters have me, locked behind the door.
I don't know if your still breathing,
But if you are I'll tell you this.
I am aboard the vampiret ship

Aboard the ship that moves threw nightmares
The flags made of bones and ash
Threw your dreams we will go
Aboard this ship that we sail
Aboard the ship of black and soulless flags

I have lost you but one day find you
Then we will never again fear the night
We together aboard this ship that carries all of fear
Aboard the vampires ship

#hate #pain #death #hope #sea #locked #monsters #goth #brother #vampier

Andie May ostrander Apr 2016

Is It Just Me

is it just me?
I don't think so..
Is it just me
that's what I've been told
Im getting real sick of all this *******
all this dull ****
Im real sick
if you don't love me then be on your way
you aren't a necessity in my life today
I don't need you if you wont want me
so if that's the case
you can be replaced
is it just me?
I don't think so...
Is it just me?
That's what eve been told
But that's ok if that's the case
I don't need fake friends in my life today

#love #friends #hope #fake #breath #me #think #replaced #wont #case

Andie May ostrander Mar 2016

alone

your alone.
God that hurts
The world wont stop spinning
God that's hell.
Just stop trying
But I cant
I cant let go of them
but they don't looove you*
No, but I love them

#love #hate #pain #god #death #alone #panick

Andie May ostrander Mar 2016

When I Am A Mother

When I am a mother,
my children will be kind,
they will be strong, but they will have a kind mind.
I will be good to my children, but they wont have it easy.
My daughter will know about boys her age and how they automatically assume she's just as ******.
She will know that she can never be replaced, shell know Ill love her always.
When I am a mother my son will know grace.
He will treat others, the way he would like to be faced.
He will know to protect his sister, value her over any of her misters.
When I am a mother I will love my children.
If my daughter decides she's a he,
and if my boy wants to play dress up Barbie.
Because when I am a mother, like I plan to be,
no matter who my children are, what gender they will identify as, even if their body doesn't say that.
No matter who they fall in love with.....When I am a mother, I will love my children...because they are my miracle....and they are the world to me

#love #life #son #live #daughter #play #children #plan #mothers #baribe