I've always been a disappointment
And I could always deal with that,
Until the day I let you down.
No knife could cut deeper
Than the shake of your head.
No boy could break my heart
Quite like you did when you walked away.
I've lost friends,
I've lost family,
And now I've lost you.
Nothing hurts more
Than the loss of my one
And only role model
Solely to the curse
I was given a name the day I was born
Later, I was given another.
Later still, I married and took another name.
Later, I took back the second.
What is a name? Should we not just choose our own?
If so, I shall call myself "Disappointment" and be done with the matter.
The door is now open
But are you ready to step out?
To take on life on your own
Realize your presence, Exist!!
You've been following their rules
Climbing the ladder one step at a time
The society's way, you know
In between you earn
Money, fame and the need to succeed
Wow, I wish I was like you
I wish I could follow rules
Live to your expectation
But I choose to step out the door
Embrace the sun, breathe in the air
End this pretentious living you call life
and exist instead of survive
Unlike you and your society
Just myself: a disappointment.
It would be good
as she stood
under a sky more colorful than blue.
As she stood
on a threshold of something
that smelled like the silk and satin
he had slept on just the night before,
She hoped for more
than red lights flashing,
than hearts surrounded by fences.
But, she only heard the mashing
of sweetened heartstrings not fully cooked.
If only she had looked
for something more than a cookbook.
That's what I am.
Can't seem to make anyone happy
No matter how hard I try.
She yells she screams.
But it doesn't hurt
I am dulled.
Until I feel a stinging pain on my cheek.
Did she just hit me?
No, she loves me, she wouldn't.
But now as I stare at the black mark forming on my face
I've just been told
I'm a huge disappointment
Forgive me for doing this
but it just hurts
A girl once laughed at me
for crying when a teacher
gave up on teaching me
she said it was a stupid little thing
A boy once forgot me
after talking to me only a day before
He had said I was beautiful
but it seems that was a lie too
I've been told today
I was a disappointment
I don't know how to feel
I don't know what to do
So forgive me if what I do
is drastic and irresponsible
But I'm a disappointment, it's true
and I am replaceable