The word disappointment weighs heavy inside my mind
It hangs on my shoulders like an anchor
It seeps from my pores
and causes blood to run from my veins
The girl in the mirror stands hollow and emptied by the world
lost in the desolation of space and time
she does not feel warmth;
she cant even will hot tears to flow from her eyes
she is left in silence-
with the word 'disappointment' haunting her thoughts
the feeling when you start growing
apart from a friend,
the feeling of a movie sucking
compared to the book,
the feeling when you fail a test
you studied hard for,
the feeling when you look in the fridge,
and there is no food,
the feeling in your stomach when all these
that's the feeling i get when i
look in the
It is the worst of all emotions
Creeping in like a snake
Seizing your breath and tongue
A chill that raises the hair on your arms
Your stomach drops and your face
It is not fleeting like anger
Or easily soothed like sadness
It's brother is bitterness and
It's sister is misery
Leaving a stain that can only be cut out
It seems to travel in packs
like hungry wolves
Devouring the rays of light
Following you like a shadow
Greeting you in the morning
It is tireless, relentless, determined
It is an open wound that lasts a lifetime
A series of battles in a war that must be won
So we are not consumed and buried
Holding fast to hope no matter how small
The Dazzling Divas
Have an elaborate plan in place,
Brimming with absurdity and scandal.
Their hopes far too high,
They traipse home rejectedly,
Despair and disappointment
Plastered on their heads and in their hearts.
I look at myself and all I see is grey
I try so hard to pray it away
I know it's cliche
But I can't stand my own face
It's sad eyes
They see through my lies
My oversized thighs
My failure to revise
I despite this disguise
I look at myself and all I see is disappointment
Try harder I mumbled in exhaustion
What a collision
My own derision
One day, soon, I will look at myself and all I will see is joy
My reflection, I will enjoy not want to destroy
I will not be coy
As the sun dawns
All will be gone I vowed
I look at myself today and all I see is hope
For I am proud
I want to scream it loud in crowd
I am proud of me and you
And with that statement I feel so new.
I've always been a disappointment
And I could always deal with that,
Until the day I let you down.
No knife could cut deeper
Than the shake of your head.
No boy could break my heart
Quite like you did when you walked away.
I've lost friends,
I've lost family,
And now I've lost you.
Nothing hurts more
Than the loss of my one
And only role model
Solely to the curse
I was given a name the day I was born
Later, I was given another.
Later still, I married and took another name.
Later, I took back the second.
What is a name? Should we not just choose our own?
If so, I shall call myself "Disappointment" and be done with the matter.
The door is now open
But are you ready to step out?
To take on life on your own
Realize your presence, Exist!!
You've been following their rules
Climbing the ladder one step at a time
The society's way, you know
In between you earn
Money, fame and the need to succeed
Wow, I wish I was like you
I wish I could follow rules
Live to your expectation
But I choose to step out the door
Embrace the sun, breathe in the air
End this pretentious living you call life
and exist instead of survive
Unlike you and your society
Just myself: a disappointment.