In my beginning some thing created this purposeless mess that stands before you
Knowing my best would never be enough and still pushed me through like some kind of fuuck you
To who?
To the future me, to the tragedy I'd become ultimately?
That's a ridiculously high baggage fee
Especially for baggage bestowed upon me
If there's nothing he can't do then none of this is how it had to be
But nooooo,
He had to go and put in that god ****** fruit tree

©2024

Can't feel him breathing.
Still holding mine.


Soon to be stab wound. My eye.

It's grey. It's jelly. Blue-green snake crossing new sandy patch.



Betray me Biloxi, baby believe me. It's you with drawn out hues.

Herding colour and tone.

We hear your tears & my misunderstanding.



Hold on to me.



Momma' pull in. Yes, this gift for thee.
The sun to shine by noon. The moon we'd pull, closer.
What this flower sings, is memory.
A true friend, your palette. Mine laughing, muddled.
The thunder and the lightning heal my wounds.
Waiting on the refresher.
The coarse discourse of loneliness, I'm prepared.
Maybe yours, maybe mine.



Napkin on the table, swaddle my newborn with the damp one.



Wishing for that lonesome whistle's cry.
It's almost mine.



Somewhere in the graveyard.
If I hadn't asked, you'd remember.
Turn away.
If you hadn't asked, I'd be there.



Looking back, it's me getting better.
From there, it's me getting out of here.



I put my teeth to steel.
Into fiery doors I pull.



Some wish.
Something for you.


For Adam.

see how dangerous


there's it
something blue
blackberry, pourrait être allergy


Yeshua


for this stone rolls
lo que alguna vez fue
and who's he become


allow me to enter
impel for break
me bridge before crossing

bit gold in youth
voiceless impressions
a loose tooth, some indent


i finally die
on top the mausoleum
behind a mezzanine


see how dangerous
there's you
i lift you into the sky


mountain zeus from this view,
may i fill your heart with pain?
with no cause to doubt
my belly protrudes.



I surrender.

Comedy and tragedy never seem to be distributed evenly
Not sure destiny would even recognize me
Nor I it honestly
But could it, would it, should it be able too avoid me deliberately?
Surely if I coulda, I woulda and probably shoulda taken it more seriously
I know this is my millionth apology,
That's not lost on me
I'm so sorry that I happen to be so sorry
If you could find it in your heart too forgive me
It'd be
Just another thing that I envy
Endlessly
For all of eternity

©2024

Will the ghost of you

Haunt me if I cannot let you go

After you leave me

Despite of every

Little thing you put me through

I loved you selflessly

I've had enough loss

In this life and the next life

That has yet to come