As they're passing each other in the hallway,
Him thinking how she's coping up.
Her thinking how she still loves him.

But end up being strangers again

"When will I find the right girl for me?"
He said in his sleep
"She's right in front of you."
I said knowing he didn't hear it.

After 5 years

"Its actually coming true.
She's in front of you."
I whispered to him
while he's looking at her
with the look I have given him
five years ago.

the lifeless body in front of her was put to shame
as she herself kinda dead from the inside

"You don't deserve to be loved."
He said and she believed.
And he left

With the key to her freedom.

Until then, she's close.

Too numb or too sensitive.
Too dumb or too smart
Too much or not enough
Too happy or too sad

There's nothing in between.

"Will you marry me?"
He said while kneeling
in front of her.
"Yes." She said,
the same time
I whispered yes.

"How can I save myself from me?"
She said to herself as the battle continues.
Until she can slay her demons

I can see stars twinkling in your eyes
the moon illuminating your darkest part
the sun shining brightly
and the whole universe
every time you look at
.
.
.
.
.
.
her.

She saw him with another girl
She's happy for him
But as she walk away,
"I wish that its still us in the end
and this is just a phase."
Was all she said.

I was at the bottom
but you never lift me up
instead, you go down there
to help me until I can stand
on my own.

It was pain
but you never took it away
instead, you hold me
until it goes away.

Things a sister will do.
THANK YOU.

I prayed to all the stars above
for someone like you
to come into my life.
I never knew that
I should be praying to the moon
for you to come.

"Just give me five seconds."
He said and hug her.

One

Two

Three

Four

Five

He reluctantly get away from her.
And that'll be the substitute
for their so called forever.

"You are not a disappointment."
Even if you didn't pass the board,
or even if you didn't graduate on time,
or even if you didn't pass your subject.
Again, YOU ARE NOT A DISAPPOINTMENT
And circumstances won't change who you are.

How I wish I know nothing
For when I know something
I understand the thing
And I can't help but feel the pain

She's twelve and
She's not scared
with the monster under her bed.

She's twenty one but
She's afraid
of the monster inside her.

|beautiful disaster

A girl fighting a battle no one knows.
A girl with so much pain that destroyed her and actually made her whole.
A girl that was once dead inside but finally alive.
A girl that was done existing and now living.
A girl that stumbled many times along the way but stand on her own bravely.
A girl who that was lost but now have found.
A girl who has the experience but not regrets.
A girl who was controlled by her demons but just mastered it for a while.
A girl who suffered.
And finally, a girl who came back stronger than before.

|bent not broken

She decided to drown herself
but as the water starts to fill her lungs,
a silver line of regret rush through her.

She wakes up with the white ceiling blinding her.
And realization starts to strike her
like a cold bucket of water
with the memories come flashing back.

And a little thank you Lord for another chance

"Save me. Please", she beseech.
"No one's going to", her demons said.
As she struggles from slaying her own.

How can she save herself from herself?

"Surprise me." she said.
As she closes her eyes
and throw the last coin she has
in the wishing well in front of her.

Not thinking what lies ahead.

She's silently begging
For the driver to slow down a bit
For it took everything in her
With every step she takes
As the church slowly showing
For the final blessing
Of the dead body
That's moving in front of them

I'm here yet I'm not.
I exist yet I don't.
I care yet I didn't.
I'm found yet I'm lost.

"You're in deep thoughts,
be careful, you don't even
know how to swim."
Little did he know,
she drown herself
into the sea of darkness
inside her.

You wake up
You struggle from yesterday
You struggle today
And you'll struggle for tomorrow.

The cycle continues.

Every day, you can see me
But at the same time,
You don't really see me.
Just a coat to who really is.

For the longest time
that I prayed for you,
I am finally done done
And for the last time,
Thank you for hurting me
Thank you for leaving me
Thank you we didn't end up together
Because, finally, I started praying for myself
Finally, I started smiling for myself
Finally, I started believing
that I was more than enough
Finally, I started making progress
In loving myself
More than I have loved you.