"disapearing" poems
The noise of the night now comforts me. The stove creaks as it cools, jets decend to the airport and the traffics throng wains.
The day unwinds, its events now memories already. Each event, each thought like a train on its own little railroad, disapearing into the depths of the mind. When morning comes a clean slate. Then within seconds the thoughts that dwell, stress and depress, once again tear along the tracks till they overwhelm you. They just circle the mind on little railroads. No journey to speak of.
Apr 14, 2014
Apr 14, 2014 at 7:45 PM UTC
last summer
I met a boy of 6 feet tall
he is two years older than me
he listens to punk rock
has an alcoholic father,
and his kisses
are sweeter than honey
and softer than silk
we spent countless, long, dreamy
cold, rainy, humid
nights
in my backyard
with the smell of too much hairspray
which I can not bring myself to smell again
and mosquito spray which I never apply anymore
11pm
4am
the hours passed by like minutes, seconds
under the stars
telling secrets
I was scared
scared of losing him
even though he was already lost
fading
disapearing
slowly and then all at once
hallways
silence
stares
me alone
him and her
11pm
4am
hours seem like eternitys, milleniums
crying
flashbacks
thinking about the us that will never be
blood spills on the paper
spelling out your words, promises
do I even cross his mind
maybe probably not no
I'm sorry I wasn't
skinny
pretty
funny
admirable
good
enough
I'm sorry
we didn't even say goodbye
goodbye, Brandan
May 31, 2014
May 31, 2014 at 10:49 PM UTC
*cookies crumbling in my mouth
tea burning my teeth
slowly making the cookie crumbles
melt onto my gums...
i sat layed on my old couch
next to the big window
in the living room
the sunset creeping through the curtains
painting my skin gold
the tea fumes
slowly disapearing into the thin air
......
i wondered
and wondered
"why?"
....
"i dont know"
responding to my own
question
laughing softly...
the tv was on
playing a movie
my eyes tired
my hands sinking in my couch...
happy..
happy..*
Feb 10, 2014
Feb 10, 2014 at 9:14 PM UTC
I hear about his face
Being burned.
I hear spokane played
make belive with
The true meaning
of recovery.
Are they all playing
with syringes and
needles so sharp
You could weeve
the strings into
Linnens and
portraits of your
friends disapearing
from every hill
You lied about painting.
Over and over we all
waited at the end
of the tunnel. until
the last train gave us
the message. "hes on his own now"
I know they all tried.
But now they will wait
For him anticipating the sounds
Of bells ringing a cadence saying
" hes somewhere else now"
They ask his mother
" wheres evan"
Even if she doesnt know
Where he is anymore.
Shell drum up half of
The true answer
Simply saying
The words
"I dont know"
"I dont know"
Sep 13, 2013
Sep 13, 2013 at 4:45 AM UTC
i am
like the bread without yeast
like all deserts sands that have blown away
like the fresh waters of life has evaporated
like the stars and sun disapearing in the skies
like the oxeyen being depleted from the air
like cars without tires
i can go nowhere without you
Jan 12, 2015
Jan 12, 2015 at 3:17 PM UTC
I stand there
With twittle by my side
Waiting for the others
Waiting to make the exchange
They come
High out of their minds
Threatening me
Tell me what I have is a lie
Their leader pulls something out of his coat
GUN
I hear twittle yelling something to me
but I cant hear what he says
my eyes only focus
on the barrel in front of me
Why I didnt run
is a mystery to me
BAM
I've been shot at before
I've been stabbed more times
then I can count
I felt the bullet go through me
I felt myself stagger to the car
Slump against it
trying to hold on
my vision blackening
around the edges
My hearing
disapearing
Is this what its like
To Die?
Twittle?
Where is he?
Will he be ok?
My strength leaves me
And I welcome Death
May 20, 2014
May 20, 2014 at 11:54 AM UTC
Only a stranger with time.
A friend in memory,and a lover in life.
His soul engraved in my heart, his spirit blankets me in the dark.
As a cool breeze passes by me ,thats when I feel his feather touch ,which gives me chills so briefly.
When I look sharp and afar is when I see his sillouette walking slowly then disapearing into the dark
Jun 11, 2015
Jun 11, 2015 at 12:24 AM UTC
Can anyone take the memories?
They’re beconing me to a place I never should be,
They’re reminding me of mistakes sent free,
An eternity of sin and greed,
Can anyone take the memories?
I can’t erase the one time I accepted a fantasy,
Before losing the charity,
That now I no longer have within me,
Can anyone take the memories?
Because they’re haunting my sleep,
As I sit here and shake and weep,
Thinking of the disapearing creep,
He is hiding within my memories.
May 23, 2018
May 23, 2018 at 1:25 AM UTC