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I am a cereal killer Devouring Life is a thriller Snap, crackle, and pop I make the flakes drop Stalking salubrious crunch Murdered for breakfast and lunch My appetite for Trix is voracious For my Lucky Charms, I am gracious Mud & Bugs haunt my soul Desecrating Grape-Nuts whole Yea, I'm Nut n' Honey and Cocoa Hoots Krispy Kritter Krave Fruit Loops I'm a cereal killer Yet a community pillar Can't comprehend why it's a crime Unrepentant, I'll massacre cereal every time
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Mar 25, 2013
Mar 25, 2013 at 10:01 PM UTC
Cereal Killer
Violating a placid spirit Memories transgress   desecrating the sacred. Memories are the dark side of a full moon. Memories are unsatiated desires couched on sorrow   entangled in time a perennial wrinkle on the soul. Memories are trespassers possessing neural atrium wading saline sockets slithering in to throbbing veins tiptoeing to hollow spaces burying all under their eerie weight, Memories are an inescapable affliction. In fragmented mindscape Memories are violent winds littering the past. Lurking behind aches   in ethereal garbs, Memories are assassins. Or sema of a swirling dervish. Hurtling within, Memories is an avalanche pounding the abyss choking the void one gasp at a time. Memories are nameless apparitions fused as shadows to the very being. Memories are an assault on identity and belonging.
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Sep 28, 2018
Sep 28, 2018 at 6:23 AM UTC
Memories are trespassers
It’s the way the sun bounces off the gravel and the smell of wet moss mixed With the edge of old cigarettes and tree sap, It’s the gap between memories and fuzzy impressions Of past existences mixed with recaptured instances And empirical proof that my childhood existed. In the way light moves heaver through the air there Until branches from the walnut lift and you can hear scrub jays, And the echo of cans that  rattled In perfect belonging with the march of smacking sandal shoes Chasing along black pavement toward dirt roads And children’s kindred spirits running after water. The heavy sent of fresh fallen rain on old pain and yellow Paint and trumpet flowers that play silent music To the ears of a young person discovering existence Exploring persistence and resilience and Coming forth out of darkened nights with the Resurrected brilliance of the maimed sick and twisted Soldiers of life from these former generations. Never has a place existed as hell and heaven Like this museum of familial dysfunction. I stand here at junction between, panic struck sadness, And the will for the gumption to say goodbye To a past with dwindling survivors And sour memories. Praying a thank you to dark space For the fond thought of their wrinkled faces And a grandeur lesson of all that I want not, And for the first thing my life to stay in one place For the duration of its chaos. Sweet wicked, loving woman , The remnants of my childhood will die with you. I assume I will hide my tears in your  memory. My past my memories myself, I hate the parts I love And fear a kind of numbness at the loss of you At the loss of this chunk of myself And of all the things that will slip my grasp When so much of my life is confined To the constantly desecrating atmosphere of my mind. And when I turn to find The first cornerstone of my existence, My support and experience I will See only shadows and the pasts of real things, And I will miss you.
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Nov 6, 2012
Nov 6, 2012 at 9:00 PM UTC
And i will miss you
It’s the way the sun bounces off the gravel and the smell of wet moss mixed With the edge of old cigarettes and tree sap, It’s the gap between memories and fuzzy impressions Of past existences mixed with recaptured instances And empirical proof that my childhood existed. In the way light moves heaver through the air there Until branches from the walnut lift and you can hear scrub jays, And the echo of cans that  rattled In perfect belonging with the march of smacking sandal shoes Chasing along black pavement toward dirt roads And children’s kindred spirits running after water. The heavy sent of fresh fallen rain on old pain and yellow Paint and trumpet flowers that play silent music To the ears of a young person discovering existence Exploring persistence and resilience and Coming forth out of darkened nights with the Resurrected brilliance of the maimed sick and twisted Soldiers of life from these former generations. Never has a place existed as hell and heaven Like this museum of familial dysfunction. I stand here at junction between, panic struck sadness, And the will for the gumption to say goodbye To a past with dwindling survivors And sour memories. Praying a thank you to dark space For the fond thought of their wrinkled faces And a grandeur lesson of all that I want not, And for the first thing my life to stay in one place For the duration of its chaos. Sweet wicked, loving woman , The remnants of my childhood will die with you. I assume I will hide my tears in your  memory. My past my memories myself, I hate the parts I love And fear a kind of numbness at the loss of you At the loss of this chunk of myself And of all the things that will slip my grasp When so much of my life is confined To the constantly desecrating atmosphere of my mind. And when I turn to find The first cornerstone of my existence, My support and experience I will See only shadows and the pasts of real things, And I will miss you.
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I am but a leech, desecrating in lilly glossed waters; Clotting beautiful beads, like bracelets, across wet flesh. Desire is a horseman in this world, coming to close the curtains on the day. Why stop? For lashes from the scepter that was to guide us? Fractured and rotten; yet we still cling for a taste of a crumb of the life once held within it's dead trunk. Death. But an old friend and a forgotten enemy greedily tickling this slicken frame. Fingers float tempting whispers to my every nerve and I long for my senses to set ablaze in those writhing clutches Screaming from inside for release that teases and tingles like the ****** that never comes. Shaken and slightly shrunken Light blazes at the doors, searing and scorching the very flesh that holds a withered frame No longer seeking escape, I slither back to the darkness I seem to have forgotten was home once before
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Jul 9, 2022
Jul 9, 2022 at 7:07 AM UTC
Untitled
The size, do you see it? That nefarious beast overwhelming But suddenly the beast is overwhelmingly gone It's absence, it confounds me to the very bitter end I search and I search Till my fingers fall away Then inside of me, the final searching place And there, as I peer inside, lurks the hideous beast intrinsic Desecrating the make-shift temple of my unclean heart But then, a fulminating voice from above: Reach inside and pluck him out from your unclean heart Snarling, the beast lands on the leaves, and cries out as he falls Through the earth and through the fire as he is finally ruined
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Sep 25, 2012
Sep 25, 2012 at 1:26 AM UTC
Overwhelming Beast
Shall I take my life away Strip the essence of disgust From a beautiful aroma of life Shall I envy no longer The tears that seem foreign To vacant hollow depths Soulless windowpanes that echo The pain of a thousand voices Yet I seem to struggle With these tornado winds Ripping through my heart Desecrating the holy lands That once flourished with Love and Innocence Now Godforsaken Shot down in the middle of night Crashing burning into hallowed grounds Aerial assault bombarding Leaving ruins and corpses Thirsty for the spillage of my blood Carving rivers into my wrist Breaking dams in my veins Letting the ****** tsunami rage Drowning myself in its depth Godforsaken Now I shall die Simply because I'm pathetic Always thinking I can save the world With six lines or outstretched arms All I'm doing is setting it up For its inevitable failure
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May 8, 2013
May 8, 2013 at 8:36 PM UTC
Godforsaken
Vindictive viral inception, Sneaking in my thoughts pretending ta be the Ego inside o’ me No!Free! Digo me, Quickly WHEN,WHERE,HOW, WHY? come the questions “No answers” quoth the clouds as they transfigure by. I am done defending why I don’t think I need to take my slice of the pie. Take a look; exclaim ow, oh my I got a piece of SKELL truth in my eye Sincerely instead of me, so trickster this shadow amphetamine But my light is gone A denser Vibration I adorn One of Absorbtion, no reflection ever since this inception …of attachment …of suffering …of another love So in love it tears me apart So in love it wears my heart so instead of being asleep I’m desecrating thoughts, tainting delete. Making others worry and weep as I sweep my gaze From external to internal infernal extension referral to station impatient inflation we stand together in the dirt o’ the nation so in love I seem to flirt So in love I always hurt I read the text on the screen….and **** NO! It can’t mean…eye look, I scream. Shock sets in, while I’m translated in the hug of a friend. We lock eyes and she knows why… Darkness sets in and she helps me cry; tears from near realized fears, tears from the suffering desire steers. My boy is in trouble I’m in a hurry and on the double STAND BACK PLEASE SLACK this information noose is too tight to bareback…and my throats so t.i.g.h.t I can’t taste the air. This isn’t fair! What a cruel affair to send me into such disrepair. Mental suffering burns like a flame, so I use cigarette burns to tame the Pain in my heart…………..fading away. My body cools off and with a different pain I can face the day. So often I pray for the day where my loved ones can stay in zion with me, oh wait hypocrisy risin inside o’ me please state, the ideas deriving me, Caged in my psyche, found the lock, but lost the key. gotta get outta my mind, gotta get outta my body opaque and dense, and way late for defense Wee wait in such suspense for LIFE to dispense, of us and our love. WhyohWhydotheseideasresideinme, if i leave my body will i be free, they think you justgottado1morethingtosee. I just hope to god they don't try again.  I just can't take that part of the plan.... Please live. and be glad for it.
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Feb 12, 2016
Feb 12, 2016 at 11:02 AM UTC
Viral Inception
Vindictive viral inception, Sneaking in my thoughts pretending ta be the Ego inside o’ me No!Free! Digo me, Quickly WHEN,WHERE,HOW, WHY? come the questions “No answers” quoth the clouds as they transfigure by. I am done defending why I don’t think I need to take my slice of the pie. Take a look; exclaim ow, oh my I got a piece of SKELL truth in my eye Sincerely instead of me, so trickster this shadow amphetamine But my light is gone A denser Vibration I adorn One of Absorbtion, no reflection ever since this inception …of attachment …of suffering …of another love So in love it tears me apart So in love it wears my heart so instead of being asleep I’m desecrating thoughts, tainting delete. Making others worry and weep as I sweep my gaze From external to internal infernal extension referral to station impatient inflation we stand together in the dirt o’ the nation so in love I seem to flirt So in love I always hurt I read the text on the screen….and **** NO! It can’t mean…eye look, I scream. Shock sets in, while I’m translated in the hug of a friend. We lock eyes and she knows why… Darkness sets in and she helps me cry; tears from near realized fears, tears from the suffering desire steers. My boy is in trouble I’m in a hurry and on the double STAND BACK PLEASE SLACK this information noose is too tight to bareback…and my throats so t.i.g.h.t I can’t taste the air. This isn’t fair! What a cruel affair to send me into such disrepair. Mental suffering burns like a flame, so I use cigarette burns to tame the Pain in my heart…………..fading away. My body cools off and with a different pain I can face the day. So often I pray for the day where my loved ones can stay in zion with me, oh wait hypocrisy risin inside o’ me please state, the ideas deriving me, Caged in my psyche, found the lock, but lost the key. gotta get outta my mind, gotta get outta my body opaque and dense, and way late for defense Wee wait in such suspense for LIFE to dispense, of us and our love. WhyohWhydotheseideasresideinme, if i leave my body will i be free, they think you justgottado1morethingtosee. I just hope to god they don't try again.  I just can't take that part of the plan.... Please live. and be glad for it.
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Sixteenth of September, six days after my sister was born was the first time I remember it happening. Body in my bed, I knew that was strange⁠— I had always slept alone⁠— but I didn’t know if it was wrong. In school the next day I looked around at all the girls, I wanted to ask if this was normal. I was twelve and I could not be sure my body belonged to me. I read horror stories, compared myself to them and said, you have faced a fraction of the full range. I said, you were complicit, he never told you to be silent. I am seventeen still reading article after article and I think: my father is not evil, my father does not deserve to be behind bars⁠— who will feed my family?⁠— but I think I would feel safer if he was.           I think about one night when he asked, “ does it feel good” and I felt myself disintegrate. I am not sure he heard what I heard: does it feel good when I am making your body, in which you will stand for the rest of your life, unlivable? Does it feel good when I am desecrating it, when I make it unholy ground? At the trial of our sins I will ask God what my body is, and He will say “it is a trust” and I will point to you and say “then he has broken it.”
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May 25, 2020
May 25, 2020 at 4:35 PM UTC
Sixteenth of September
We are all but hanging from a thread as our lips seal behind thick black string flesh made raw by shards of heavy rope ensnared by echoes of all opposing voices seem to come from all sides- but are, rather, those of the loudest protesters out of sheer frustration that we still find ways to shine in our music- angry, spoken word, **** RIOT rant filled in our art- graffiti on your capital desecrating your male saints streamed through your safe airwaves ******* up your perfect hegemony livening your boring missionary bedrooms bleeding in your just-washed white sheets with my girl friend and her boyfriend In our poetry- CAPITALIZED, misspelled, profane-fuck-out of syn tax without filter in red paint on sidewalks in newspapers on bookshelves in magazines on flyers on our lips in our hearts screaming crying laughing soaring souring soar- ing
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Mar 21, 2012
Mar 21, 2012 at 4:19 PM UTC
A Dream Referred
Somber rasps, from neon flickers; cosmic elapse, while late-workers drink the moon's wake, subtly alive - blood-bolt captions on their weary eyes, by feel-good bar lights, solemnity; desecrating gemini, grisly wonder germinates in vapour-shaken minds, fissures - pigment-bleed from harsh-glare, crystalline pecks - tension resolve, absolution; static melt over slate silhouette slink - frenzy cult, blink- she swells into the night, aluminum-thump - frigid airs send urban-rush, past in whirring monotony, hall-stretch labyrinth - she was home again, rusted clink, cogs whine again; like clockwork, she hadn't touched the front door yet
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Aug 3, 2014
Aug 3, 2014 at 4:22 AM UTC
Sleep Radio
They slip through the cracks In and out of every pit Until with ease they arrive Where Fools sit... In grotesque embrace; Questioning deafly till They're blue in the face Doubt spins round Desecrating the air And manic eyes blink With glassy-eyed stare; Murky mirrors reflect pale Shadows of mens' minds Mockingly peering down nose As they sweep truths from under toes... They slip through the cracks In and out of every pit Until with ease they arrive Where Fools sit....
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Jul 2, 2011
Jul 2, 2011 at 1:38 PM UTC
Atheism
and the little white girls walk in with their school sweats on, smilin' all precious innocent like with hair that never goes awry. and the dictionary is tellin’ me words ive been using for years never really existed, and then i look’d up existential crisis. and the cold wind turns tan’d skin pale as blood recedes to more important portions of a body preferenc’d warmer times. and the words i have to say i want to erase without a second notion, but i cannot for fear of loss of thoughts not yet conceived. and the knowledge of having been a mystic misplaced, once recess’d to a span of sleeping lives allow’d to be found incarnate. “ . . and even if, crazed, he ends up by losing the understanding of his visions, at least he has seen them!” content’d the loss of action to thought.
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Dec 13, 2012
Dec 13, 2012 at 11:44 PM UTC
desecrating Rimbaud.
What kind of man is this To report his mother for begging him To abandon hateful folly? What son is this, so depraved, Would shoot her in the public square With jeering blood-seekers cheering? What kind of god must this man seek, To end the life of the one who gave him life, To what end would such a god demand obeisance? Perhaps a god this is, Whose thirst for blood would raise The dripping flags of war And bathe the world neck-deep, Up to the horses' bridles in gore, But he's no god of mine. This god is not the One Who sent His only Son To give His Life in the name of peace, To save His friends and love His enemies. This god is in rebellion, Denying his own creation, Lying to himself, Reviling peace Because it bears the image of The One True God. Enviously manipulating, Beguiling the children of Eve, Desecrating the human form, Dividing the human race, Heaping doom upon doom, Calling damnation on himself.
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Jan 8, 2016
Jan 8, 2016 at 8:48 AM UTC
What Kind of Man: What Kind of God, is This?
I feel we have the same depth. I measured it. It is exactly 2 feet, 12 centimeters and one apple. Sometimes two apples. Depending on the weather in New Zealand, And the size of the kiwi crop yield divided by the length of a fault in Japan. And how that effects the cherry blossoms. Make a hole in a book without desecrating it. I bled on a book once, Not what I meant.
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May 18, 2014
May 18, 2014 at 2:45 AM UTC
lowercase 'untitled'
Still learning what to say What to feel and what to wear Deranged and damaged goods we are Like madmen running naked wild Like old men trying to play with fire Deranged and damaged goods we are A Generation in a haze All our dreams have been tased Too many noises all around Too many hearts broken abound Running and jumping We're just desecrating The flesh and blood in the fire Screaming and shouting We're just all repeating The anthems of denial A generation in a haze All our dreams have been chased Too many noises all around Too many hearts broken abound Like psychopaths defile Like those in pain who smile Deranged and damaged goods we are Like demented empty shells Like a living regret Deranged and damaged goods we are
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Feb 3, 2014
Feb 3, 2014 at 12:44 PM UTC
An Anthem of Denial
Three wives or at least two But I'm one of the few The few that believes in monogamy So I'm sticking to my marriage with poetry Yes, I admit to a couple of affairs with words But that's a crime my wife can easily wave go Like Sarah having her maid wooed Though desecrating to her matrimonial room. Make it rain all day Rain poems that makes heart stay sane Pain and bitterness interwoven into poetry Yes sad but the joy therein comes after the read. Let there be a deluge So much without a place for refuge Let the poetic flood wash away pollutants of this awesome world Let the poetic purification begin now. I pledge to transformational poetry I write this insane world back into sanity Recreating my own space Letting my pen and mind decide the pace. Peace out of chaos Addicted criminal gone pious I call that "Poetic magic"
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Mar 26, 2015
Mar 26, 2015 at 8:47 AM UTC
Poetic Magic
I found an old box of disposable latex gloves and became   entranced   aroused   foolish I pulled them on,    becoming breathless as their fibers    closed tightly around my fingers shaking I raised a hand to my throat and let it caress and clamp tightly around it the other hand smoothing into my stomach, together they moved and groped and pulled tracing memories of latex gloves on my body desecrating my temple praising my goddess freeing me of-          - I ripped them off-                                        exhausted                                        breathless                                        ashamed           I wanted more           I wanted to ask for more           I wanted to run back and ask           I was still his sub his slave           I fell to my knees and worshipped           I was ashamed I felt weak           I didn't care                    I wanted more
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Jun 1, 2017
Jun 1, 2017 at 11:08 AM UTC
sinful darling
desecrating the bathroom floor of a home that’s barely my home with blood or ***** what’s the difference? it’s not even my bathroom. my bathroom is one flight up. a boy I barely remember is talking to me & somehow I’m talking to him back, or am I? feeling dizzy like a sunburn with plenty of ***** left to go around still in my throat, plenty of food still in my stomach. 15 liters of food in somebody’s stomach could make that person’s stomach explode. sometimes I have dreams about stomachs exploding the way the sky does just before nightfall, like it has a virus or something. a girl walks into the bathroom & I’m still sitting cross-legged on the floor of this stall wanting to throw up but trying not to, a plastic bag next to me, and an open wallet, purple water bottle. every bit of me wanting to tighten up like a small dog. I picture bruises opening up across the backs of my legs. I picture grandmother commenting on the size of my stomach when I see her tomorrow. my grandmother has wrinkles deep as the belly of a pregnant cow. something about the way I interact with my grandmother reminds me of the skeleton of a dead bird. like the dead robin I saw walking to the bus stop from my house, on broadway, next to the old synagogue; dead robin reminded me of a ****** up crying infant & I wanted to bury it like one. (a girl walks in on me in the bathroom & I squeeze up, hush up, she sees you, it’s too late, swallow your skin.) everything these days reminds me of a ****** I saw once on T.V. with some boy I can no longer remember the name of.
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Nov 21, 2014
Nov 21, 2014 at 12:41 AM UTC
11.21.14
desecrating the bathroom floor of a home that’s barely my home with blood or ***** what’s the difference? it’s not even my bathroom. my bathroom is one flight up. a boy I barely remember is talking to me & somehow I’m talking to him back, or am I? feeling dizzy like a sunburn with plenty of ***** left to go around still in my throat, plenty of food still in my stomach. 15 liters of food in somebody’s stomach could make that person’s stomach explode. sometimes I have dreams about stomachs exploding the way the sky does just before nightfall, like it has a virus or something. a girl walks into the bathroom & I’m still sitting cross-legged on the floor of this stall wanting to throw up but trying not to, a plastic bag next to me, and an open wallet, purple water bottle. every bit of me wanting to tighten up like a small dog. I picture bruises opening up across the backs of my legs. I picture grandmother commenting on the size of my stomach when I see her tomorrow. my grandmother has wrinkles deep as the belly of a pregnant cow. something about the way I interact with my grandmother reminds me of the skeleton of a dead bird. like the dead robin I saw walking to the bus stop from my house, on broadway, next to the old synagogue; dead robin reminded me of a ****** up crying infant & I wanted to bury it like one. (a girl walks in on me in the bathroom & I squeeze up, hush up, she sees you, it’s too late, swallow your skin.) everything these days reminds me of a ****** I saw once on T.V. with some boy I can no longer remember the name of.
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Lyrical Poet of Greece flowing like gentle breeze Born in island of ****** like dawning sun she beautifully rose As the time flew desecrating winds blew leaving mere fragments of work one complete but mere sixteen lines So little is known for certain Yet it does not discourage me to pen Let this poem be a spark let your curiosity leave a mark She crafted words into a mystic Shape once read there is no escape She wrote of fragile personal moments of her daughter and her female friends . Even Plato acknowledged her beautiful lines He even said these following lines "Some say the Muses are nine: how careless! Look, there's Sappho too, from ****** the tenth" Solon an Athenian ruler heard her song and wanted it to be taught along when curious faces asked Him why he replied "Because I want to learn it and die". Her Face was was minted in coins Portrait painted on vases Syracuse honored her exile by erecting a statue showing words could transcend her gender in the people's eyes .
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Mar 5, 2016
Mar 5, 2016 at 11:13 PM UTC
Sappho
The words do not scream It’s the inner turmoil Which blasts out the words Fired like missiles Landing on opponent’s heart Desecrating the feelings Why such vitriol That can burn everything Another war of words For words come easy To wipe out precious feelings
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Nov 3, 2014
Nov 3, 2014 at 10:41 AM UTC
War of Words
He crossed the line Entering my life He ignored my resistance signs Avoiding all my female land mines There were no explosions There was no protection He crossed the line Desecrating my sacred shrine
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Nov 16, 2020
Nov 16, 2020 at 4:06 AM UTC
Crossing Lines
A calm winter night. The street lights at the window sill did not seem to embrace my room as I was seated beyond my desk. The unlit screen still seemed bright for when it carved its image in my eyes, The glass display shattering in millions of shards piercing through my paper skull. An etymology of communication, the relation of electrical currents through my crevasses, The empty eyesockets in my skull ridden with blood, pus and ink, oozing out of my empty casket on what remained of the abandoned framework in the chair, corroded to unidentifiable bits of gore A steaming pile of putrid mass desecrating the serenity of the chamber, decorating the walls with mould and algae A murky portrait indeed. Tangling vines carress the oxidated heaps of sticks and bones, they feel it, they long for it Mutilating the sheer remains of contorted steel and ivory as the ink chants its final tune.
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Nov 15, 2017
Nov 15, 2017 at 8:00 PM UTC
Poppies for the fallen
Some people drink, some people do heroine and some do crack, some hurt themselves, some use other coping mechanisms, some smoke cigarettes. I used to see no point in these things, I used to see no point in drowning your pain and fears in things to avoid your tears. I never understood why people try to forget the things that hurt them by doing things that hurt them? Until you left, until you came back and asked me why I smoke. You asked me why I do something so stupid something that hurts my body. You asked why I smoke. I couldn't tell you it was because of you, I couldn't tell you I smoke because I don't wanna face the fact that I... At one point... Saw no point in drowning pain in things that cause pain... I couldn't tell you I smoke to avoid the realization that at one point in time you made me feel so high I didn't need drugs, and now, you make me feel so low I need drugs just to feel normal. Now you asked about the cigarettes, why I put the cancer stick between my lips and inhale it's desecrating fumes and ruin the lungs that used to breath you in. And I can't tell you again, it's because of you. I can't tell you that the thought of you makes my hands shake like a beggars trying to hold onto his last dollar and the only thing that slows them down enough to grasp the present is that cancer stick. I couldn't begin to explain the strange notion that I put the cigarette between my lips to muffle my voice so it doesn't sound the same as when it spoke through my heart to you. That my clothes still reek of you and the only way to mask that once sweet aroma is to cake it nicotine, tar, jet fuel, arsenic, ammonia... I could keep going but I don't have the time to name the 4,000 chemicals I'm letting **** me, and yet keeping me from killer thoughts. My mind reels from ...THC and nicotine... I know it sounds obscene that I'd let you get to me to this degree and potency, but you don't understand the impact you had on me I fact I don't even think you took me seriously, but maybe that's why you took your leave. You asked me why I smoke, but I didn't have the heart to tell you it was because of you. You told me you don't love me anymore, you told me he was better than me and he didn't hold the disgusting habits I'm tied to. I couldn't tell you, when you break his heart like you did mine he'll hold them as close as I. I couldn't tell you it's always because of you..
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Apr 7, 2016
Apr 7, 2016 at 11:05 AM UTC
Coping You
Some people drink, some people do heroine and some do crack, some hurt themselves, some use other coping mechanisms, some smoke cigarettes. I used to see no point in these things, I used to see no point in drowning your pain and fears in things to avoid your tears. I never understood why people try to forget the things that hurt them by doing things that hurt them? Until you left, until you came back and asked me why I smoke. You asked me why I do something so stupid something that hurts my body. You asked why I smoke. I couldn't tell you it was because of you, I couldn't tell you I smoke because I don't wanna face the fact that I... At one point... Saw no point in drowning pain in things that cause pain... I couldn't tell you I smoke to avoid the realization that at one point in time you made me feel so high I didn't need drugs, and now, you make me feel so low I need drugs just to feel normal. Now you asked about the cigarettes, why I put the cancer stick between my lips and inhale it's desecrating fumes and ruin the lungs that used to breath you in. And I can't tell you again, it's because of you. I can't tell you that the thought of you makes my hands shake like a beggars trying to hold onto his last dollar and the only thing that slows them down enough to grasp the present is that cancer stick. I couldn't begin to explain the strange notion that I put the cigarette between my lips to muffle my voice so it doesn't sound the same as when it spoke through my heart to you. That my clothes still reek of you and the only way to mask that once sweet aroma is to cake it nicotine, tar, jet fuel, arsenic, ammonia... I could keep going but I don't have the time to name the 4,000 chemicals I'm letting **** me, and yet keeping me from killer thoughts. My mind reels from ...THC and nicotine... I know it sounds obscene that I'd let you get to me to this degree and potency, but you don't understand the impact you had on me I fact I don't even think you took me seriously, but maybe that's why you took your leave. You asked me why I smoke, but I didn't have the heart to tell you it was because of you. You told me you don't love me anymore, you told me he was better than me and he didn't hold the disgusting habits I'm tied to. I couldn't tell you, when you break his heart like you did mine he'll hold them as close as I. I couldn't tell you it's always because of you..
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