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"cashew" poems
A melancholy ***** we came to adore in mournful tone, finish the tale abruptly and sob, uncontrollably; "Memories of my melancholy ****** including "Love in the times of cholera" are now part of our folklore, this land of cashew groves and banana plantations in  Indian landscape, far far away from Latin American shores. Her lascivious days are over death visits the house of love, blood splattered and a haunt of dark happenings, that begets children with tails, shame, honor and secrets creep out of manuscripts. Gabo is no more, no more"Living to tell the tale" the Part Two, promised before. Gabriel Garcia Marquez, after three false starts goes to his final abode for rest, now. A coded manuscript, written in in classical Sanskrit, (the language of all divine texts of Indian sages of yore) scripted by the mysterious gypsy,Melquiades predicts the wipe out of Buendia clan of five generations Torrential rain and deluge engulf Macondo, ends "One hundred years of solitude". Gabo you point towards east what is the answer to the conundrum of Buendias? In Mexico city they were preparing to take  Gabo to his last ride to the origin of all magical realism he'd return In a land far away, yet exactly the same landscape as Latin Americas we grieve his death as that of one of our own Gabo, in past thirty years, you mysteriously taught us to discern the magical realism of cosmos
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Apr 19, 2014
Apr 19, 2014 at 12:35 PM UTC
Adieu, dear Gabo, now we'll see your magical realism in cosmic wonders
Mary plants stems of roses Happy is her sensuous senses. Rosy roses reddish ,yellow Dribbling dews on petals glow. Sandy was her piece of land ,still Mixing humus made she fertile. Grow up mango, cashew trees now Hellish heat around falls low. All the birdies, human beings with Rolling breeze’s blessing grew forth. Nurture Nature for our future Save our culture agriculture. Greenery is her granary giving Honey, money, feeling pleasing. Waves on beaches softly recede Crawling ripples crippling proceed. Do you know? lives here sustain Only through eternal restrain. Gain for all lies where interactions Divine hold our honest actions =============================
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Feb 8, 2012
Feb 8, 2012 at 10:33 PM UTC
NURTURE NATURE FOR OUR FUTURE
A kilo of fish brinjal pumpkin Cauliflower raisin and bean Washing soap and eggs one crate Need to buy bring from market! Mustard oil some milk and rice Cashew nut and a horde of spice Gourd and potato spinach cabbage The list is long fills a page! Feel confused from where to start How to pile and stack on a cart Shoeshine cream to adhesive glue All calculations and maths to do! Ticked what’s got unticked what’s not Cash dwindles with much unbought Trudge back home in sweated daze She checks items and fumes in rage!
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Nov 15, 2014
Nov 15, 2014 at 10:55 AM UTC
From Market
A satisfied appetite is a simply joy Overlooked and simplified Like a growing urge, a salivating need That is entrancing and glorified. Everlasting for moments we call meals Forgotten in time, lingering above But the taste, the lonesome lover pushed aside Gazes afar and near wanting to be enjoyed again The young lady with a tongue of raspberry delight And the matured widow with darkened cacao lips Ripening nectar of a sliced peach center Halved and topped with mascarpone crème The man with a skin of caramel glaze Caressing and savoring With a fragrance and scent Of hazelnut coffee indulgence and sin In the pursuit of a brief love affair What oral sensation did my taste buds want? My odyssey of gustatory endeavors await Through the seas of lined people and waiting staff Generous portions and humble pies Decadent desserts so rich you’ll die Vine cherry tomatoes sliced and sauté Over al dente rigatoni in a roasted cashew sauce A robust aroma and savory appeal Basil leaves with garlic strips Olive oil to top the surreal Hubristic meatball aborigine Elysian cuisine or many dreams Teasing the senses, warming the pit Of flowing pleasures And tingling fingertips Without moral measures And succulent wines Rotisserie lamb falling of the bone Seasoned with Sicilian herbs And paired with broiled asparagus Drizzled with lemon juice And a glass of Merlot Spices I hardly know Lachrymose apologies beside a bottle of faded sorrows With love there is pain, passion endured through the names Thin soups, flavorless and dull, feeding street-thrown bums Breathing hard against the delicatessen glass Hickory smoked hams, pepper-seasoned pastrami Vinegar cultured pickles and hard dried salami Unpleasured, without measure, at one's leisure. Forever my endeavor Blackcurrant tea laced with slivers of gooping honey Layers of cinnamon hair atop olive skin red-painted doors with cedar trim crushed almonds mixed with hazelnut butter cream spread devilish rounds of crumbling rum-swirl bread Smells and wonders, tastes so ... oh god Divine and sublime.
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Jul 22, 2013
Jul 22, 2013 at 5:42 PM UTC
Lachrymose Taste
A satisfied appetite is a simply joy Overlooked and simplified Like a growing urge, a salivating need That is entrancing and glorified. Everlasting for moments we call meals Forgotten in time, lingering above But the taste, the lonesome lover pushed aside Gazes afar and near wanting to be enjoyed again The young lady with a tongue of raspberry delight And the matured widow with darkened cacao lips Ripening nectar of a sliced peach center Halved and topped with mascarpone crème The man with a skin of caramel glaze Caressing and savoring With a fragrance and scent Of hazelnut coffee indulgence and sin In the pursuit of a brief love affair What oral sensation did my taste buds want? My odyssey of gustatory endeavors await Through the seas of lined people and waiting staff Generous portions and humble pies Decadent desserts so rich you’ll die Vine cherry tomatoes sliced and sauté Over al dente rigatoni in a roasted cashew sauce A robust aroma and savory appeal Basil leaves with garlic strips Olive oil to top the surreal Hubristic meatball aborigine Elysian cuisine or many dreams Teasing the senses, warming the pit Of flowing pleasures And tingling fingertips Without moral measures And succulent wines Rotisserie lamb falling of the bone Seasoned with Sicilian herbs And paired with broiled asparagus Drizzled with lemon juice And a glass of Merlot Spices I hardly know Lachrymose apologies beside a bottle of faded sorrows With love there is pain, passion endured through the names Thin soups, flavorless and dull, feeding street-thrown bums Breathing hard against the delicatessen glass Hickory smoked hams, pepper-seasoned pastrami Vinegar cultured pickles and hard dried salami Unpleasured, without measure, at one's leisure. Forever my endeavor Blackcurrant tea laced with slivers of gooping honey Layers of cinnamon hair atop olive skin red-painted doors with cedar trim crushed almonds mixed with hazelnut butter cream spread devilish rounds of crumbling rum-swirl bread Smells and wonders, tastes so ... oh god Divine and sublime.
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Hey, I already told you that you were a little bit crazy. What did you think—that I was completely nuts? Come on, Cashew, and shake that walnut-sized brain of yours, and then we’ll try to put together a decent menu. Still, I ought to kick you in those itty-bitty sunflower seeds, those ones that you claim to be your source of protein. Hey, Macadamia Breath, accidentally lose the ******* hula dancer and then fire the impending search-and-rescue party! Your tropical trail mix was no good for each other. You need a vacation from this deserted island, Captain Crunch. Go down south and get yourself the businessman’s special. You know—some old-fashioned brazil nuts. Yeah, that’s the two-tickets-to-paradise, for sure. Fool, you really do need to buff up the old almond. Do I need to open up the **** aluminum lid for you? You’ve been stuck inside this assorted, mixed can that you try to refer to as an extra bedroom for nearly nine months. Get out and take in a little hike and bike right after you do the wake and bake. Maybe you should go slow roast yourself at the beach a little. Why don’t you go to the mountains and try to become one of those pine nuts that end up in all of those overpriced health cereals? Hey, Snickers, those dank trees really are beautiful, you know. Would you quit acting like a frikkin’ flax seed already? Just admit that it’s almost payday, for criminy sakes! You pathetic Mister Peanut, you. Please, Saint Chestnut, give this completely lost consumer strength from high above store aisle number nine. Number nine. Number nine. Number nine. Listen to me, Nutt Sack, will you shake those tiny little beer nuts that no one can seem to stomach anyway? First of all, they are becoming way too stale just sitting around here, so if you continue to wait any longer, they will petrify—and then we will eventually be forced to call you teeth-breaking Corn Nuts!
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Jul 26, 2014
Jul 26, 2014 at 5:04 PM UTC
Totally Nuts
Hey, I already told you that you were a little bit crazy. What did you think—that I was completely nuts? Come on, Cashew, and shake that walnut-sized brain of yours, and then we’ll try to put together a decent menu. Still, I ought to kick you in those itty-bitty sunflower seeds, those ones that you claim to be your source of protein. Hey, Macadamia Breath, accidentally lose the ******* hula dancer and then fire the impending search-and-rescue party! Your tropical trail mix was no good for each other. You need a vacation from this deserted island, Captain Crunch. Go down south and get yourself the businessman’s special. You know—some old-fashioned brazil nuts. Yeah, that’s the two-tickets-to-paradise, for sure. Fool, you really do need to buff up the old almond. Do I need to open up the **** aluminum lid for you? You’ve been stuck inside this assorted, mixed can that you try to refer to as an extra bedroom for nearly nine months. Get out and take in a little hike and bike right after you do the wake and bake. Maybe you should go slow roast yourself at the beach a little. Why don’t you go to the mountains and try to become one of those pine nuts that end up in all of those overpriced health cereals? Hey, Snickers, those dank trees really are beautiful, you know. Would you quit acting like a frikkin’ flax seed already? Just admit that it’s almost payday, for criminy sakes! You pathetic Mister Peanut, you. Please, Saint Chestnut, give this completely lost consumer strength from high above store aisle number nine. Number nine. Number nine. Number nine. Listen to me, Nutt Sack, will you shake those tiny little beer nuts that no one can seem to stomach anyway? First of all, they are becoming way too stale just sitting around here, so if you continue to wait any longer, they will petrify—and then we will eventually be forced to call you teeth-breaking Corn Nuts!
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let's talk about his peanut butter thighs and his cashew eyes his cloaked voice that floods me when he speaks, and his big hands and thin fingers. Let's talk about all of his parts that make him whole and makes my eggplant legs go bump bump in the night.
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Sep 3, 2014
Sep 3, 2014 at 12:30 PM UTC
peanut butter and eggplants
Did you know? Cashew nuts grow on flowers, and they grow one at a time. Think of the distance between railway tracks: this traces back to ancient Rome. To know the true energy of the sun: imagine it covered all over with postage stamps, each square inch a bomb, each exploding with power only comparable to explosions in Hiroshima. Energy like that. Think of this: how time once was unknowable for being different to everyone, until trains began and the post began arriving on time. Did you know? Facts are enough to make a poem. Where do poems grow? Do they come one at a time? When did poems first set down their tracks? What is the power of a poem? Does it explode? Are poems different to everyone? Will we ever know?
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Mar 1, 2014
Mar 1, 2014 at 6:31 AM UTC
Factual
I reach out to hold beard of this old man, On balcony edge he makes me stand. "It's scary Grandpa, don't leave my hand." "Worry not my child, won't let you fall on this land." Sparrows chirping as we feed them sprout, Flying here and there, I laugh out loud. Pointing to the sky, "Look at that white cloud." I learned so quick, he felt so proud. Bought me different chocolates every night, I'd sit eating happily, enjoying every bite. Pretty dress, like a fairy, wings he made me wear, "Look at me now, I can fly, I swear!" "This is our stable," I point to the grass Grandpa carried me on his back at last. Like a horse, he'd ride smoothly on the floor Five year old rider, shouting "Off to the door!" Toys on the table, every day a few, Puppies and bears all red, yellow and blue, Tricycle and tents, small pillow fights, Without his kiss, I wouldn't sleep at night. We stole cashew nuts, while grandma prayed, Ate them quick, before her eyebrows raised. Small trips around the city in our car, So many stories and learnings he'd shower. Clapped at my dance moves to every song, Scolded me for everything I'd do wrong. Fell on my ankle, losing his balance once, Couldn't walk that day, but I loved him, I'd pounce We get a call, a call late at night, My parents pack bags, rush to the airport flight. Silence hurt every now and then, Mom and dad didn't know where to begin. "Grandma, say something!" But she doesn't He was here and then he wasn't? So much more to play, and so little time? I shed tear every time I remember his rhymes
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Oct 26, 2014
Oct 26, 2014 at 8:35 AM UTC
Play
I reach out to hold beard of this old man, On balcony edge he makes me stand. "It's scary Grandpa, don't leave my hand." "Worry not my child, won't let you fall on this land." Sparrows chirping as we feed them sprout, Flying here and there, I laugh out loud. Pointing to the sky, "Look at that white cloud." I learned so quick, he felt so proud. Bought me different chocolates every night, I'd sit eating happily, enjoying every bite. Pretty dress, like a fairy, wings he made me wear, "Look at me now, I can fly, I swear!" "This is our stable," I point to the grass Grandpa carried me on his back at last. Like a horse, he'd ride smoothly on the floor Five year old rider, shouting "Off to the door!" Toys on the table, every day a few, Puppies and bears all red, yellow and blue, Tricycle and tents, small pillow fights, Without his kiss, I wouldn't sleep at night. We stole cashew nuts, while grandma prayed, Ate them quick, before her eyebrows raised. Small trips around the city in our car, So many stories and learnings he'd shower. Clapped at my dance moves to every song, Scolded me for everything I'd do wrong. Fell on my ankle, losing his balance once, Couldn't walk that day, but I loved him, I'd pounce We get a call, a call late at night, My parents pack bags, rush to the airport flight. Silence hurt every now and then, Mom and dad didn't know where to begin. "Grandma, say something!" But she doesn't He was here and then he wasn't? So much more to play, and so little time? I shed tear every time I remember his rhymes
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i am an apricot, dried and vacuum-packed amongst chunks of cashew nuts and ************* i am a cigarette, wrinkled and cracked with ashes so rank and how the wind whispers my bones away. i am a stick of magnesium extingushed halfway - and i will never burn again for you have swallowed my spark.
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Oct 13, 2016
Oct 13, 2016 at 3:06 PM UTC
retardation
*trees, trees and plants we see them with trunks round Love them, laugh with them cos you may not see them all years, always a -round* Trees, trees they have no fingers Oh, but they’ve got many rings; and they still get on the internet by logging in Tulips grow on your face and if you plant kisses you get another two lips; the cucumber goes mad cos it’s in a pickle; the mushroom is always invited to parties cos he’s a fungi and the dog loves the tree cos they both have bark; while the frog’s favorite flower is the croak-us; the elephant, on the other hand, I mean on the other trunk, loves squash; and while the fruit comes from a fruit tree the chicken comes from a poul-tree *trees, trees and plants we see them with trunks round Love them, laugh with them cos you may not see them all years, always a-round* the nut sneezes: "Cashew!" And the lemon is sick and the kind neighbors give it lemon-aid; the tomato turns red cos it sees the salad dressing; and baby corn says to mama corn: "Where’s pop?" and you humans if you reach out with your hands you can fit a palm tree in; and knock! knock! who’s there? *"Leaf – yeah, just leaf me alone; enough of your silly jokes"* Trees, trees and plants we see them with trunks round Love them, laugh with them Cos you may not see them All years, always a -round
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May 14, 2013
May 14, 2013 at 9:29 AM UTC
trees, and plants and such
CASHEW NUTS EATEN, BY AN OPEN FIRE It's air in motion, the sound too soft to the ears and appealing to the senses. The air so crisp, dust-filled and ice cold The moon-lit skies, looking like the red night goblin was about to shower bars of chocolate and descend with his wrapped toys. Some sweet jazz christmas music was playing in the background, Nat King Cole for sure. From the old turntable came the music. Well mixed with the breeze thus presenting a never-before heard rendition of the song playing. Once again the breeze blew heavily. Trying to have its way with the open fire, burning some metres away from the large hut. Earlier in the week, the cold North East wind had brought along some wild fire. One happy family was sitting around the fire. A man in turban and his wife with their handsome boy and cute little girl. All dressed in warm woolly glittering sweaters and thick trousers. They were all engrossed in what the father of the house was saying. And almost forgetting the wild fire had made them homeless. They had to settle for the large abandoned hut. In between, they seemed to be chewing something. Of course roasted nuts from cashew in a flat plate. All they had left to eat. Father downing some fairly warm wine as he spoke. He was telling them tales/legends of christmas and santa from all over the world. Even the chewing horse relaxing next to the family, was enjoying the story-telling session. Father closed his story book. Together the whole family made and sang a remix of 'the christmas song' replacing the first line with 'Cashew nuts, eaten by an open fire' Half way through the song. They heard a loud bang close to their hut, something had landed in front of their hut. It was a large box filled with swiss chocolate, other yummies, gifts for the whole family and most of all, a map telling them about a place of hope along the West. On the right-hand side of the box was a large label with the words 'From Santa with love'. The family, now relieved from the sudden heart-pounding sound and excited by the arrival of the gifts, cheerfully and gratefully started their song all over. This time it sounded like a 'reprise/outro' to an epic album. This was the night before christmas and Harmattan just got serious. Happy Christmas!
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Dec 23, 2014
Dec 23, 2014 at 2:23 AM UTC
CASHEW NUTS EATEN, BY AN OPEN FIRE (CASHEW NUTS)
CASHEW NUTS EATEN, BY AN OPEN FIRE It's air in motion, the sound too soft to the ears and appealing to the senses. The air so crisp, dust-filled and ice cold The moon-lit skies, looking like the red night goblin was about to shower bars of chocolate and descend with his wrapped toys. Some sweet jazz christmas music was playing in the background, Nat King Cole for sure. From the old turntable came the music. Well mixed with the breeze thus presenting a never-before heard rendition of the song playing. Once again the breeze blew heavily. Trying to have its way with the open fire, burning some metres away from the large hut. Earlier in the week, the cold North East wind had brought along some wild fire. One happy family was sitting around the fire. A man in turban and his wife with their handsome boy and cute little girl. All dressed in warm woolly glittering sweaters and thick trousers. They were all engrossed in what the father of the house was saying. And almost forgetting the wild fire had made them homeless. They had to settle for the large abandoned hut. In between, they seemed to be chewing something. Of course roasted nuts from cashew in a flat plate. All they had left to eat. Father downing some fairly warm wine as he spoke. He was telling them tales/legends of christmas and santa from all over the world. Even the chewing horse relaxing next to the family, was enjoying the story-telling session. Father closed his story book. Together the whole family made and sang a remix of 'the christmas song' replacing the first line with 'Cashew nuts, eaten by an open fire' Half way through the song. They heard a loud bang close to their hut, something had landed in front of their hut. It was a large box filled with swiss chocolate, other yummies, gifts for the whole family and most of all, a map telling them about a place of hope along the West. On the right-hand side of the box was a large label with the words 'From Santa with love'. The family, now relieved from the sudden heart-pounding sound and excited by the arrival of the gifts, cheerfully and gratefully started their song all over. This time it sounded like a 'reprise/outro' to an epic album. This was the night before christmas and Harmattan just got serious. Happy Christmas!
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Thor is a place with birds in a pond. Many birds; some small, some blonde Few birds come as the seasons demand. Come and visit Thor with Sanket to remand All the known and unknown birds beyond. Thor is a place with birds in a pond. Let it be cashew or nut or almond, Bring any thing for birds with monde And see many types of birds beyond The island, colours that birds donned. Thor is a place with birds in a pond. Few birds are black, and few blonde; Canteen ready with food on demand, Garden with plants having leaves frond, Pond with birds different on demand. Thor is a place with birds in a pond. Security guards allow us, on demand, To take cameras to view and shoot monde Of varied birds here and beyond. So, visit Thor with Pari Style in a pond.
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Aug 18, 2017
Aug 18, 2017 at 7:42 AM UTC
MONORHYME ON THOR BIRD SANCTUARY
While i was learning to savour the new taste of cashew and walnut in the autumn of that year you were learning to eat the bones of your neighbours' dog as you fled from an earth gone moist the leaves of war were torn from the jungle as a cavalry of shrapnel burnt away the air you were learning to hold your breath while i was doing the same in a suburban swimming pool when the dust of your family filled the lids of your eyes being left to see for yourself held quite a different meaning while your skin seared from the heat of warfire i was feeling the warmth of a shopping centre in winter when you went without feet, a landmine exploding your underneath world underneath i sprained an ankle at basketball the words of an american god spat forth from an automatic weapon and you saw the tongues of the lamb inviting you to feast in a foreign language and while i drew in crayon on the kindergarten wall you were drawn in the crosshairs just before the smell of cordite
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Jun 12, 2014
Jun 12, 2014 at 8:06 AM UTC
Saigon Battle Children 1972
Like a perfectly squared puzzle piece - Life is the bane of my existence. I don't know, diary, I've been touched by morbidity. I am not getting this 'life' thing right, My grips are tight and things slip Anger comes from places unheard of, Slightest hells are the shells of explosions Am I even a person? When I don't own enough to feel my very presence Am I even a person? When whatever emerges from me is obsolete I am the sole cashew hiding in a bar of chocolate; The behavioural tick that picks on unsteady nerves And so the question remains; Slices my veins as it takes the reins of my sleep Am I even: A person?
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Jul 6, 2014
Jul 6, 2014 at 3:28 PM UTC
Am I even a person?
He spent hours bending himself Shape shifting through the night Before finding the image Stooping all over his hands, lost over his spectacles Neck pains. The musty apartment is lit By a kerosene lamp that's Fixed upon the book shelf in the corner. It has no lampshade Its high brown orange casts headaches And proves rotting plaster. He is saved by dawn blue Dawn blue for ****** eyes Rags hang around in groups. A cashew waits before the trash bin Books lay around, spines exposed Sleep would muster new strength, no loss. Good grains, a few oats, high oats. He feels his oats, Bent over his work Why sleep now? He'll eat a can of corn If he can get away But  who has time for lighting a gas stove when there's work The work is his gas stove
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Aug 11, 2013
Aug 11, 2013 at 9:49 AM UTC
The Work is Enough
#*The seven year old twins of my friend, A boy and a girl On a visit to their Aunt’s place in South Goa The village scenic and beautiful The roads covered in dust from the red soil Lined by Cashew and mango trees The children at their Aunt’s countryside villa, happy, stood at the gate A beautiful moment captured in the lens, by their mother The two with looking eyes searching for playmates their age A moment so precious to be savoured for long*#
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May 16, 2019
May 16, 2019 at 11:03 AM UTC
The Moments
nothing much happened today no great calamity, no suprising visitor the cornflakes dried to a cement like consistency in the chipped blue bowl the tuxedo rex vomited on the newly bought home beautiful magazine.. my heart beat at a lazy 74 beats per minute when i checked after my nana nap my bad ankle creaked and twinged reminding me to get the towels in before it rained I made a wonderful chicken cashew curry for dinner, but fogot to buy naan bread and yogurt to accompany it.. I kissed the god boy goodnight, then read two chapters of Harry Potter aloud as the tuxedo rex, watched me, from the windowsill marked some essays of dubious quality, was given a shoulder massage, by my agong surfer dude, that led to much greater intimacies no, nothing much happened today yet it was fufilling, upon looking back it had rhythm and purpose turned the cogs of my world it was the miles between the milestones that often go unrecorded and as I sit in the almost dark of the moon I do believe it was one of the best days of my life
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Mar 7, 2017
Mar 7, 2017 at 6:42 PM UTC
just a day...
I cannot eat Asian food or pork. Or rice. I don't know why. The other night I went to a hibachi grill with my friend and his mother and I thought that although I probably wouldn't eat anything I would be fine. See.I thought I had gotten past the past. I used to hold my breath when my mom picked up cashew and sweet and sour chicken. I barely breathed the whole way home. I covered up my straw so that the smell wouldn't infuse my soda pop. I state outside until I was positive that all of it was gone. At the hibachi grill I got pasta. No rice. I had veggies. They started out giving us salad. I could barely eat it but I was fine. I was fine. Then they started cooking. And in my head I heard it. You won't leave this table until its gone. Stir fry. My second family once made me feel so insuperior that I don't know how much worse it could get. I sat there. He put the food on my playe and I cursed and I implored myself. I ate one noodle. But those voices. The flashbacks. I am not good enough. I cut my noodles onto more pieces than there are people in Japan. I almost leaped from my seat. They were screaming. Why can't I just eat the ********* food. Bathroom Panic attack Compose myself Return I'm fine but they know its a lie. And so I am so sorry Karen.and I am so sorry everyone because I realized something that night. I may not have your eating disorder. I don't feel fat and I don't throw up. But that night I had an eating disorder. And I could barely stand the voices the pressure the memories the hate. You are amazing. Every day feeling souch pain with food. You are my hero. I forced myself to swallow one noodle but you make a choice daily to do so much more. I think I have a price of the puzzle. I don't pretend to understand. But now I know. Every tiny bite you take. Every time you say no to the toilet you are my hero. And when you fall. You are still my hero.
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Jun 23, 2014
Jun 23, 2014 at 3:13 AM UTC
this ones for my sister and best friend. Karen
I cannot eat Asian food or pork. Or rice. I don't know why. The other night I went to a hibachi grill with my friend and his mother and I thought that although I probably wouldn't eat anything I would be fine. See.I thought I had gotten past the past. I used to hold my breath when my mom picked up cashew and sweet and sour chicken. I barely breathed the whole way home. I covered up my straw so that the smell wouldn't infuse my soda pop. I state outside until I was positive that all of it was gone. At the hibachi grill I got pasta. No rice. I had veggies. They started out giving us salad. I could barely eat it but I was fine. I was fine. Then they started cooking. And in my head I heard it. You won't leave this table until its gone. Stir fry. My second family once made me feel so insuperior that I don't know how much worse it could get. I sat there. He put the food on my playe and I cursed and I implored myself. I ate one noodle. But those voices. The flashbacks. I am not good enough. I cut my noodles onto more pieces than there are people in Japan. I almost leaped from my seat. They were screaming. Why can't I just eat the ********* food. Bathroom Panic attack Compose myself Return I'm fine but they know its a lie. And so I am so sorry Karen.and I am so sorry everyone because I realized something that night. I may not have your eating disorder. I don't feel fat and I don't throw up. But that night I had an eating disorder. And I could barely stand the voices the pressure the memories the hate. You are amazing. Every day feeling souch pain with food. You are my hero. I forced myself to swallow one noodle but you make a choice daily to do so much more. I think I have a price of the puzzle. I don't pretend to understand. But now I know. Every tiny bite you take. Every time you say no to the toilet you are my hero. And when you fall. You are still my hero.
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*A cashew-nut she pressed between my lips slumberous awestruck I chewed it groping for her hands in the dark if she really was there or I was dream living why should a woman in the middle of night press a cashew-nut moist and warm between my lips was she hungry herself hypoglycemic picking them in despair popping one betwixt my lips or is it the one I popped through hers last evening misdirected without my knowing it found the vertical lip betwixt her swells till she felt the ***** when loosened her robes and it stirred in her a long forgotten spark so she came back in the middle of night for me to chew the re-popped cashew-nut slumberous awestruck!*
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Nov 9, 2013
Nov 9, 2013 at 3:32 AM UTC
Dried Leaves and a Spark: Revisited
Made of peanuts I feared the hand that searched for me so adamantly. Watching the strange horror across agonized faces. The bitter crunch of teeth. The dissipation of silent screams. Why not the cashew beside me. All he does is laugh, I blame the commercial for all of this, at least he got to keep his shell. This totally wasn't what I had in mind when I said I'd meet you halfway. Paralyzed in fear I sat. Watching this hand pat all around me. A total invasion of privacy. Rattling what sanity I had left. Sometimes it feels like I'm losing my mind. Trapped in an empty container with nowhere to go. Of all days why couldn't you rinse your mouth with something else. Finally finding that annoying cashew, If I could close my eyes and pretend it was all a bad dream. Sweating inside of these tin walls. If only I would have known that the world was going to end today. I'd probably cover myself in chocolate and pretend I was someone else. I would have hatched the perfect escape plan. Here's to hoping I get caught in your throat so you'd have no other choice but spit me out. Stupid Planters peanut guy
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Nov 17, 2016
Nov 17, 2016 at 4:08 PM UTC
Of All Days
Never mind watching your P's and ****** Q's. There are far more obscenities that anyone can use. Worse letters than Q or P not meaning to confuse. Many different meanings something you'll have to choose. So choose your letters wisely there's some you can reuse And some that are used for insults or a form of abuse But it doesn't really bother me so I ain't making an excuse Just use the ones that come to mind and you cannot ******* lose So you can **** my big fat 'B's' and I can **** yours too Fingers up my ******* 'A' something we can both do I will lick your lovley 'C' and mine is like bamboo Or maybe its a 'D' in my pocket or is it a canoe If you squeeze on my two 'N's' similar to cashew Then i will **** your Salty 'S' or the other avenue And eat all of that juicy 'J' like a **** barbeque Making all your 'H's' wet so both can get a ***** Allowing me to enter and 'F' you through and through Slipping in my big hot 'R' deep inside a fishy stew ******* on your succulent 'T's' but none of them are Blue Not talking of our feathered friends because that's a different crew And neither is it other birds not parrots or cuckoos Its a mound of fleshy 'M's' glands that I would chew So stick your effing Protocols just stuff them down loo Use the letters that you wish its your own point of view Once the eggshells are broken its nothing to undo And **** all that snobby-ness don't watch your 'P's' and 'Q's'
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Mar 28, 2017
Mar 28, 2017 at 5:37 AM UTC
'F' Your 'P's and 'Q's'
and if you ever come across me remember this crooked song "wild strawberries in the woods not the only fear at the neighborhood bad apples, cookie monsters, and crows cashew farts, peepholes, and human toes we shall fear not, as of today, as of now we stop, stand, run, jump, and bow whatever we need to want to can whatever we need to want to can"
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Jul 16, 2020
Jul 16, 2020 at 3:35 AM UTC
the crooked song
/she was my favorite flavored ice cream full of cashew nuts, marshmallows, chocolate chips, creamy vanilla drizzled with chocolate syrup and I wanted a spoonful of her goodness/
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Apr 19, 2017
Apr 19, 2017 at 11:03 AM UTC
ice cream
I feel you slip in beside me We sleep as two curled Cashew halves Sitting inside each other Naked flesh close, embedded In a permanence of love. Love Mary ***
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Mar 17, 2018
Mar 17, 2018 at 7:07 PM UTC
Halves
My grandfather loaded his pockets and the squirrels had a feast He died before I was born so this is family lore The family of five squirrels who live in a park near me They are sweet and precious and bother nobody Rocky is the family acrobat Three are not named yet Nutella sat on the side branch like a suspended in motion cartoon character My bi-weekly leaving of nuts and seeds paid off today Walking away , she came down to retrieve a cashew and disappeared Seconds later she appeared and helped herself to a pecan On a cold morning walk before zoom meetings She made my day C@rainbowchaser2021
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Jan 27, 2021
Jan 27, 2021 at 9:36 AM UTC
Nutella