If I weren’t afraid, I would scream your name
And tell you the truth, like I’ve never done
If I weren’t afraid, I’d kiss you right now
Shame and regret, no, I would feel none

If I weren’t afraid, I’d smile like I knew
What I was doing, but I really don’t
I would tell you I loved the colour of your eyes
I stopped myself before, but this time I won’t

If I weren’t afraid, I’d pull you in close
To whisper those three precious words in your ear
I wouldn’t hesitate, not even for a second
Cause I would no longer have anything to fear

If I weren’t afraid, I’d tell you right now
This poem was for you, the light of my soul
But if you weren’t afraid, you would tell me too
All the things that you’ve always been able to control

It could be anything, if you love me or hate me
If you want me to stay away, then just tell me that
Or it could be something small, that’d be okay too
It’s better than silence and pretentious little chats

All the things that I’d do if I weren’t afraid
Why am I afraid? What do we have to lose?
I just hope that one day I could maybe be brave
Enough to at least whisper you the truth

Let’s stop
Time for a moment
Why always rush?
Reality is a torment
Listen to the hush
Of complete silence
If you listen closely
There is always a difference
In the way something sounds
The way the air feels
There is so much that
The outside world conceals

Why must we be
Always keen to go
To the next place, why don’t we
Ever take things slow?
Why don’t we
Take time off the frets
Savour the little moments
We’d otherwise forget?  

And have you
Just skimmed through these words?
No time to read aloud
You don’t want to be heard
Isn’t it just
A part of your mind?
A system forbidding you
To slow or rewind

You’ll always skip through
Let the words blur your sight
And you would continue
To read it all quickly
No matter
How detached
Are these
Words
That
I
Write.

Where evil lives, goodness thrives
If there’s no dead, there’s none alive
Angels come because demons ****
Peace exists because blood was spilled
If there’s no hate, then there’s no love
If there’s no hell, there’s no heaven above
The same pattern seen repeated here
Do you get it yet? It’s all so clear
That if there’s no you, then there’s no me
So stay, don’t go, for this I plea
Take one step, and I’ll be no more –
Don’t come back, you were so sure
And don’t regret, cause you chose this
You’re not someone I’m going to miss
Oh, that’s a lie, but I don’t care
It was just a silly love affair
But if there’s no pain, then there’s no gain
I’ve walked all year through the pouring rain
Finally now, I see the sun
Back then I lost, but now I’ve won

I often dream of a magical land
Where the beaches rolled with sparkling sand
The waters a calm clear diamond blue
The sky always filled with magnificent hues
The forests are thick with dancing trees
Enchanted creatures roam wild and free
When dark, the faerie lights come from the thickets
Illuminating the night’s peace and quiet
Occasionally the feared predator comes
Searching for prey, not one but some
They all would run to scatter and hide
Waiting for the time to pass aside
By morning the light creeps in again
And one by one, they’d leave their dens
To sing the bird’s early morning song
The days seem short even when they’re long
For there, in the land of dreams where dreams come true
It’s there that the old seem bright and new

But I wake up in the reality of morning here
In the world of sorrow and acid tears
Where the waters flow with filth and dirt
And every day more innocents get wrongly hurt
All the flowers are dead, deprived of sun
No living colours left, not even one
The streets are filled with frightened ghosts
Shadows slumped against burnt-out lampposts
I trudge along through the lifeless parades
Cowering in the safety of my shade
Walking home alone to lie in bed
Wondering what it would be like to be there instead
And there, in the land of fantastical dreams
Where the waters and skies all magically gleam
There, even though it’s not the truth
At least I can live in merry youth

I’m missing you like the drought misses rain
A drug that keeps feeding me this bittersweet pain
It lives in my soul, draining me of joy
What once was beautiful has now been destroyed

I’m missing you like the snow misses sun
Where light had once flourished, now there’s just none
A darkness that drowns me in melancholy and sorrow
I was such a fool for giving you my heart to borrow

I’m missing you like the night misses day
But no matter what happens, it’ll always find a way
The world will keep turning; the sun will shine again
A cycle for a billion years, I’ll miss you even then

But this has all been a daydream of strayed and mindless thoughts
I’m reminiscing like a fool, while you’ve probably forgot
Do you even miss me? Do I even want to know?
It wouldn’t be as painful as having to see you go  

And I’ll still be missing you like a beautiful sin
With the guilt inside of me where my heart had once been
You never returned it, don’t know where it might be now
Perhaps destroyed or buried, I’ll love you anyhow

We’re close enough to home
To castles made of cards
Built in our backyards
Crowns of coloured paper
Our world could last forever
A kingdom in which we ruled
A group of friends we fooled
And when the rain lashed down
The cards fell to the ground
We rushed inside for tea
You’d cuddle on the couch with me
We’d dream of a sunny tomorrow
In a land where there’s no sorrow
Our futures we planned out
There seemed to be no doubt
That anything would ever change
We had everything arranged

But when the time finally came
We realised life is not a game
Not a fairy tale storybook
With hardships we could overlook
No more magic or castle cards
Everything seemed to be so hard
Is this what we had dreamed?
Much more hellish than it all seemed

But here we are right now
On the outskirts of our town
To the world of our backyards
To the kingdom of castle cards
And we’ll never reach that place
But I can almost see it from where I stand
Of fairies and giggling gnomes
Yes, we’re close enough to home

My greatest fear is that one day
You’ll believe those words they always say
Those terrible stories they like to tell
In which thirsty vultures, they like to dwell

To try and find out which bits are true
The shards that speak of me and you
Of our secrets, but most of them are lies
They’ll never find out despite their tries

My greatest fear is that you’ll wake up to see my flaws
And realise I’m not as great as you thought I was
You’ll leave like everyone else does in the end
The difference is this time my heart won’t mend

You’ll find somebody else you think
Is worthier than I’ll ever be
And you’ll wonder how it was
That you were ever in love with me

My greatest fear is you alone
Cause you’re the only one I know
Who has the power to break my heart
Fix it and then tear it back apart

But you’re worth the risk and all those foes
Love is about a trust that always grows
The shards don’t pierce if we don’t want them to
And I’ll be strong as long as I’m with you

Forget about London, forget about LA
Or some sunny exotic island you visited last May
And flashback to that winter of young hopeful romance
Of our days strolling around the cobbled streets of France
Key into the Seine, our love sealed by the locks
Feeding bread crumbs to pigeons as they come by the flock
Lourdes's faith and divinity approves of our entwined hearts
Cannes opens its arms for our new united start

But London sticks to your mind
And now you live in LA
Surfing and lying in the open sun
The sunlight is your summer sleigh
Concrete streets and tall palm trees
There's no more chilly winter breeze

And back in France dies our last chance
Didn't you hear? They're removing the locks
They weigh down the bridge, puts people in danger
I guess love can't always last forever
Sometimes the burden becomes too much
And you burn everything that you touch
The time has come to extinguish the flames
And that's the end of our little French game

A misunderstanding, and that was all it took
For everything to end like an unfinished book
Not the ending I hoped for, but things never end
In the way we wish to, hope, or intend

You were screaming and saying that it was all my own fault
I was crying and thinking that I know that’s not true
Both of us or none of us was to blame for this mess
So before it even ended, I already forgave you

But you were so angry and I was too upset
To fix or stop anything we’d later regret
You slammed the door in my face and then headed down,
Out of the house and to a far enough town

I thought that was the last time I’d see you again
But a few weeks later you showed up at my door
We were both dishevelled from two weeks of crying
If this is what love is like, I don’t want it anymore

You told me you still loved me, and in my heart I did too
You said nothing could change that, no matter what I’ll do
But I couldn’t take you back, whatever you were going to say
We both know if we continued, it’ll end anyway

Nothing is going to last forever, so why pretend that it will?
You were a beautiful chapter in my book, but a tragedy still
It’s time to move on now and find another path to take
A brand new chapter to relieve the previous one’s heartache

But when I see you walking on the street unexpectedly,
I can’t help the wave of memories that comes rushing over me
Reminding me of our beautiful beginning and the bittersweet end
An echo in both the hearts that are still yet to mend