Hope liquifies
Spills out my glowing eyes
Your skin whispers
It's finally alright
Hearts racing in tandem
I can feel my pain
Vanquished by the light
You bask me
In the most beautiful glow

I looked back to see when it started,
The loss of my sanity. 
When the demons swarmed in,
And walls went up.
When my tears dried,
And I silently gave up.
When my heart lost a piece, 
And I lost myself. 
When my will became weak,
My mind collapsed in on itself.
It was when I lost you
And everyday since,
I become more lost
With no way to be fixed.

Broken's almost whole right?
I'm just missing a couple pieces.
  I just need to tape them up
    never mind the creases.
Lost is almost found right?
I just need to find my way.
Blindly searching
   Tripping over my own feet
     screaming out your name.
Alone is almost together right?
I can hear your laughter clear.
maybe if I pull this trigger
   I'll be with you again
      my dear.

life is an ocean
life is a scrape
both flowing in one direction
waiting for an opposing force to break
the stream
the motion
bodies become one with the current
either in whole
or just a finger
you're the one to break your cycle

I imagine us
dwindling a paper trail to nothing
our footsteps are shadows
our pictures the only remnants our families have
until we call from a land line community phone
and tell them where to go
for freedom.
I imagine us
burning collection notices and old receipts for things we never needed
the smoke is our journey
disappearing into nowhere
having ourselves, our brood and our tribe.
I imagine us
our souls no more like candles that flicker
but stars that shine
like guiding lights to show the way to shore.
I imagine us
forever, before and after, and infinite
having no beginning or end
having everything inside of us
and us inside of everything.
I imagine us
whole and unfiltered
lasting and ending daily
destruction and chaos as beauty....
I imagine us
                                  and we are not ourselves...
                                  and we are not each other....
             we are whole
            the boundaries of existing like dew
                     like fog...
                                   there and gone
                                         old and new
I imagine Us.

I should have known by the words of our favorite songs
that it was okay to tell you that maybe I'm not who you think I am.
When you look at me, what do you see?

I wonder if you knew that I am a broken person, and that I have been,
but that I don't want to always be a broken person.
That sometimes at night I look to the sky and cry

Tonight when you came over,
I was going to tell you that maybe I'm not who you think I am
That maybe I'm not as whole as people think

But tonight you asked me out

I should have known by the way you talked to me
that it was okay to tell you that maybe I'm not who you think I am.
When you look at me, what do you see?

I wonder if you knew that I like this girl, and that I have,
but I'm not sure if I always will.
That sometimes at night I think of being "normal"

Tonight when you came over,
I was going to tell you that maybe I'm not who you think I am
That maybe I'm not as straight as people think

But tonight you asked me out

And now I don't know what to say
Other than I'm sorry
I'm sorry I kept secrets
I'm sorry I told lies

I want us to still be friends