#weight poems on Hello Poetry

Raven Sep 2014

Oak

I depend on you
The way my oak tree
Depends on
A dead branch.

I hope she
Doesn't become
Your
Dead weight,
In the way you
Became
Mine.

#love #dead #hurt #tree #weight #cheat #branch #offensive

Iz Sep 2014

Dealing with an Eating Disorder

You tell me not to be stressed
about food, gym and health
you tell me not to be obsessed
and you remind me those days when
I would eat a whole bar of chocolate
without knowing what calories were
But let me clarify one thing
it's not that easy
Those voices in my head
are controlling myself
and I'm trying to defeat them
but I'm getting tired
as they **** all my power
I swear I fight them back
and sometimes I win
but sometimes I take
one step forward and two steps back
so I'm always here
surrounded by anxiety and fear
60…59…58…57….56…55
just simple numbers on a scale
but as they decrease
I feel so powerful, yet so scared
to cross the line
dividing sanity from insanity
and suddenly I'm walking on a tightrope
trying not to fall
into the darkest of all holes

#society #mind #food #new #eatingdisorder #body #personal #sanity #weight #scale

Alexis A Sep 2014

A Common Lie

I'm getting better
I'm learning how to eat again
The weights are still in my closet,
and I binged again

I promise you
I'm gonna stop
I'm not gonna die
But I think I'll go purge

I swear I'm fine
I'm telling you, I ate
Don't believe me, whatever
But I truly am gaining weight

Okay, so maybe I lied
I don't want to stop
I want to be pretty and thin
And even perfect

I did try, I swear. But honestly, I hate food. It makes me feel fat. I don't know what else to do anymore, but I really don't care.

#lies #die #food #perfect #anorexia #bulimia #weight #recovery #purge #binge

Revenant Sep 2014

I need quiet

I want to bury myself in books; to not be here.
There is a gnawing at my heart that
will. not. stop.
There is a pain in my soul; a weight upon my chest; an edge to my voice-- a falter in my wall of defense.
I cannot bear this weight of stupidity radiating out from the immature idiots surrounding me.
I cannot exist in such an environment.
I need to go
I need to go
I need to go
I am tired
I am weary
I am DONE.
Shut up.
Stop
Just
Stop.
I cannot eat.
I cannot function.
They are a detriment to my very existence.
What chaos leaving Chaos has erupted in my present day.
You are so childish, so rank, so foolish.
Grow up.
Grow up and leave me.
I need to go
I need to go
I need to go
Escape.
Escape.
I need to be alone.
There is a groaning in my bones that cannot be quiet.
Quiet
QUiet
QUIet
QUIEt
QUIET
I need
*quiet.

#heart #pain #soul #stop #here #books #myself #weight #gnawing #bury

mark john junor Aug 2014

your hearts burdens

looking for forgiveness in the eyes of strangers
in every train station on the hudson line
breathing the beauty of the rush and hustle
of every train in the pouring rain
scribbling heartfelt worthy lines in a dogeared notebook
with her name etched with loving care into the
weatherbeaten cover

while standing at the top of the stairs
the faces shuffle past
offering absolution to the pawns
offering escapism to the bishops of twisted truths
gaze down the halls of forgiveness
looking for a familiar face to unleash your hearts burdens
to unwrap the tear stained words for
hoping like hell its somebody who could tell her
that you weren't so bad after all
if she only see her way to giving you that
holy grail of the heart known as a second chance

but in the end you catch a glimpse of your
reflection in some woman's poem
makes you look and see the state your in
see how far you have fallen
how far you've run from the light of day
carrying the weighty truths close to the heart
but never looking them in the eye
live again my friend
forgive yourself and live once again

#forgiveness #hearts #weight #truths #burdens

J Aug 2014

Ideal

Many have treated me like
I am one of the ideal girls
People pertain to in comments such as
"I feel invisible when she is around" or
"The girl who has it all — from boys to body"

Society constantly presents those different from
Me to be the image of insecurity

Those very much bigger than me
Those whose arms sag more than mine
Those whose faces are not structured like mine

And at this point
Many, if not everyone
Would think I am being
Heartless & cruel
Describing these women
Who are different from me

As if it is only their right
To feel insecure
As if it is my responsibility
To feel good about myself

To look at the mirror
And see a flat stomach
A nice 27-inch waistline
And feel content

As if I have no right
To complain
To complain about all bones
No *****

No right to complain about eating so much
For the sake of at least looking healthy

They make my figure look like the ideal
I do not want to be the ideal

I should not be the ideal.

#body #weight #size #insecurity

Aquinas Aug 2014

Gravitational Pull

I tell myself it's all just gravity
That pounds and weight are only my dreams
But the lines and the curves
The shape of my face
The chubby waist no one wants to embrace
Everyone says it's just in my head
So all I do is blame gravity instead

#gravity #lies #sad #space #body #weight

Sam Aug 2014

Untitled

She
Is just like me
She
Is my age, smiles at the same jokes, cries at the same sad stories
She
Walks past me and in my mind I say
She
Is getting fatter why do I feel that I have a need to comment on what
She
Deems beautiful why does my mind run to the way her shirt fits tighter
She(ltering) me from my misperceptions of pretty
She
Is a human being filled with flaws filled with bones and viscera and
She(ll) fragments and so am I
She
Is
Me

Thoughts

#beauty #perception #weight #insecurity