Twenty years ive known you,
Shocking as this sounds,
Back then I was a different person
My identity not yet found
I remember it well,
Meeting you online,
Intruiged by another culture
You were the mysterious one online!
I was obsessed with Geography
Knew every flag of the world
Spent hours staring at maps
I would never get bored
I knew I never belonged
In the land I was living then
So the atlas was an escape
From the confusion since I was ten
You spoke a different language
From the mysterious side of the world
I was fascinated by and drawn to
This different side of the world
It was an honour to meet you
I felt I was so lucky!
I now had a Russian friend
Although his English hard to comprehend
This made it just more interesting,
It showed language didnt matter
We were still able to communicate,
Even by postal letters!
I was young, insecure,
Brainwashed too at that time,
So this escape was a relief
The mysterious person online!
You temporarily rescued me
From the weirdness of my home
I dont have many fond memories
But meeting you was one
I bought a book because of you,
Called "learn Russian in 3 months"
I was drawn to the Cyrillic alphabet,
But only now 20 years on can I use it!
Russian in 3 months was hilarious,
It was never going to work
Three years yes maybe,
Thats what the title should be!
But such was your desire for English
Your skills overtook mine,
Now im surrounded by Russians,
....I wish Id learned more at the time!
By the time you came to visit
Id escaped to Scotland,
I was somehow free,
Although not yet entirely
The brain is great at deleting
Large parts of my life
But you kept all the postcards and letters
I was so surprised!
These things are like treasure,
Reminders of lost time,
Its good to regain the happy parts
And leave the rest behind
The phone call still makes me laugh
It took you so long to say each word
Even my cruel mother gave up
Trying to wait for the words
I remember the day so well
She called me to the phone
Told me theres a message
Then she left me alone!
Weird behaviour for my mother
The perplexity on her face
As she listens to the message
From a mysterious place
Now twenty years on
You've rescued me again
I got myself in a pickle
And you came up with a plan
Most people didnt care
Those I chose to tell
Except an angel, Patricia,
Her Nigerian name too long to spell
She didnt even know me
I met her through a friend
A friend from Burundi,
Now living in Scotland
In my hopeless depressing reality
Sat in a place called Gillingham,
I spoke to you most evenings
You again allowed me to escape
I looked forward to reading your writing,
Learning more about your life,
Now with your improved English
I wanted to read it all night
You knew I was desperate to leave,
And you suggested Armenia,
A country I had heard of
But shamefully only little
Meeting you in Armenia
Was the best decision by far
The best decision I had made,
Since being torn from Africa
I knew very little about it,
And yet I was ready to go!
It just shows how desperate I was
To escape from where I never planned to go
I have to say, you saved me,
If only from myself
And of course from the NHS
Who probably would have killed me
They say things happen for a reason
The universe makes a plan,
So I guess if I wasnt deported,
I might not have seen you again
You have changed my life for the better,
Although you say you dont do charity,
You even left me with your bank card,
As well as a way to make money
You may not see yourself as kind,
But that is all I see,
And I have always loved you
Ever since I was twenty :)
