how did i become so intelligent of the dark side?
its peaceful, yet so violent.
I'm going deaf from the lies you tell me.
"i love you"
I'm drowning

Some mornings looking in the mirror
Is like seeing a stranger in my body
Trying to figure out where she came from
While I'm suffocating in the unsuspecting comforts of my own body
My own mind.
The thoughts that consume me
They aren't mine
The actions that take over when things go wrong
They aren't mine
I'm searching for a breath of fresh air
Searching for that break through moment
So many people looking at me
Wondering what is wrong
Why am I like this.
The actions that take over
The thoughts that take over
None of them are me
I'm slowly being suffocated in my own body.
Some days when I look in the mirror
I just wonder what is wrong with me
Why can't I just kick it to the curb
Just kick everything bad that goes on inside to the side
And just let it sit in the corner and be silent.
Some days I wonder why everyone else has all this insight
Yet I'm the one who can't seem to make it stop
Some nights when I lay in bed
I look out my window
And wish upon a star
And pray to the higher powers that be
That they can take it all away.
That someday I can look in the mirror and recognize the girl looking back.
Recognize the woman I have become.
One day I will
One day that mirror will look back at me with a smile
It will look at me knowing the hard times I've had
And realize that I survived.

tell me
is my love too extreme?
why do you run away from hooks?
when i give everything

is all my love too little?
should i give more than the sun?
i want to know which one of me
let you decay
left you undone

i would humbly beg
to know the cost
to bring you back to me
even though
my love's so strong
i never let you leave

just one more time
remind me
what makes you want to go?
why do my loved ones
want to leave
when i love them so?