As I drift in the middle of this body of water

This vast abyss reminds me of our time on the earth


The waves unpredictable 

Yet you can see them coming


The sun cool at first

But then grows hotter

These people that either give you hell or give you help


This storm of bad fortune

Makes the waves grow taller
And the people grow smaller


As they go away to their shelters to leave you at sea

Because when this place is at it's worse

That's when you are left alone 


That's when you must fight the wind and the waves all by yourself 

To get back to where you belong

I can't quit it
I can't forget it
I'll admit it
I've been at if for a minute
Playing a game and trying to win it
No matter how I spin it
This is who I am
Without any plan
This is the man
That through it all emerged
After traveling a road that diverged
My demons have been purged
These paths are not paved in gold
Though I walk through the cold
It all seems so old
For every time I fell
For every story I tell
For every single hell
I struggled to make it through
It was all that I could do
To come out as someone new
A few more tears a few more scars
Yet I am still gazing at stars
Daydreaming of things so bizarre
An image in my head a smile on my face
My troubles all vanish without a trace
Knowing all the while that this is my place
I have been broken, beaten, and burned
In all of this I have learned
Love is not given it is earned

How many tears should I waste?
How many wounds should I get?
How many nights do I have to cry?
How many years should I hide myself?
How many years does this pain takes?

How many lies should I hear from them?
How many years should I put this mask Smile on ?


OK IM DONE !

You can put filter in your life , but it depends on you . Whether you like it to be dark or light.

Sometimes
You've got to do
What you don't want to
To get by

Often times
I find myself
Floating beneath
The waters surface
Desperately needing air
But it's hard to do
What it takes to survive

We live
In a life
Filled with hate
Filled with the lack of care
To see if we make it out okay
How much calamity
Need we face, until we get it?

Nothing will change
Because we are the change
And we refuse to do it ourselves

So I'll sit here at 2 a.m.
On my lunch break
Feeling lucky that I can even
Have enough hours to get one

Find my lost soul
It has wandered away in the deep
Help me Stand
These shaky legs have lost their grip
Strip my body
This tainted garment stinks
Engulf my spirit
Let your presence consume my guilt
Permeate my heart
That I may know surpassing peace
Stir up the dying passion
So men would glorify you for your masterpiece
I desire to stay
keep me for eternity
but if I try to run again
Please never give up on me.

Why won't you tell me everything's ok
That all the struggle got pushed out of my way
Why won't you tell me the truth
I do not need your lies to sooth

Why can't everything be the same
Who is the one I have to blame
In this everlasting change
Why does it have to be outside my range

It is so hard to accept
The truth that we cannot adept
To all the changes happening in our life
To all the incidents catching us by surprise

Won't you tell me everything is ok
for I do know it will never be that way

A panacea,
the band aid word I
slap on conflict

A solve it all

Acronym for nothing and
Diffuser of
All scenarios.

the  more politely phrased version of
The mafia's cry.

But no matter how you slant the saying,
It's still salient- and a parched, bleached lie.