Shocked*
By the passing’s of perfume on a winters day
Wow, not why
Because you used to wear that scent

I am shocked, shocked I tell you
Stunned is what I am!
I can't complete a sentence
Without a stutter or a stumble

My hand is shaking
There's tears in my eyes
I can't stop thinking in my mind

So many words are cluttered
In my brain
In my heart and soul

I want to let those words out
Cry them, scream them
But I can't
I can't without the hate
I can't do without the opposition
I can't without the homophobia
And the words I cannot repeat
To the ears of the youth

The result of that is sadness
Sadness for me
For my spirit and my sanity
They think I'm crazy
Nutty, mad, bananas
But I'm not alone

I'm sure others are mad
Maybe madder than me
Probably sipping tea
Coffee, water or milk
Maybe eating what I eat
Maybe saying what I say

I'm only able to express them
Explain them all here
No one hates
No one fights
No one laughs
No one taunts

We cry the same tears
We speak with the same voice
We have different opinions
And express them differently
But we have similar thoughts....

Oh!
There goes my wondering mind
Shocked again by what I thought
Stunned, yes that's what I am

Just yesterday you were a 17 year old girl,
with brown eyes and a smile that could light up a room.
You were beautiful.
You had so much potential.
Now you are a memory.
You're parents' hearts shattered,
your whole family is wondering why,
your friends are in tears,
and your boyfriend is left in pieces...
I don't think you intended to cause so much pain.

What were you thinking,
when you decided to leave it all behind.
Did you think you wouldn't be missed?
Did you think no one would notice or care?

Beautiful girl,
people who you never even met are crying for you.
So many hearts are shattered.
The little town you lived in is in complete shock.

You were so young.
You were so bright.
No one understands why you did this.
Everyone's broken.
No one knows how to handle this.
I know you didn't mean to break the hearts of those closest to you,
but did you not realize how loved you were?

Did you not think of that,
before you decided to end your life?

And I stood there
Surprised, at what he had just said.
He had failed to remember...
The Promise of fulfilling other promises.