Your presence has now become redundant and         superfluous . I'm tired of feeling furious over non-sense, over actions and feelings . A relationship with you,  isn't at all appealing . It's as if a succubus is ******* the very soul from my being . And seeing , a superficial world with a superficial girl , strikes me as insane . You gain , everything I lose . You regret everything you choose . So what's the use . Why make things the way they are , when you know how big scars are . Your a pretentious kind of  person . Ostentatious to say the least . Which means big in a logical sense . Oh well , sing the bell in my head . As I review every moment spent . Starring at you for some comfort and establishment . All to the more I, spending more time forgetting it.  You know what I regret ? Why I let people , other human beings , get so close .…….

my mother was an addict.
history repeats itself.
my brother is an addict.


my brother is my twin.
history repeats itself.
my nieces are twins.


my mother lost a son.
history repeats itself.
I lost my son.


my parents were absent
from their children's lives.
history repeats itself.
their children are absent
from their lives.



when your children are afraid,
they will run to their mothers.
their worst fears will be
the boogeyman or
losing their parents.


my worst fear is that
my children will
run to a mother
who was like mine.

my worst fear is that
my children will feel
the same fears that I did.

my worst fear is that
my history will
continue to repeat itself.