I went to that bridge,
the one nobody knows.
To stand on the railing,
in my pretty white clothes.
Then imagine the falling, falling,
the letting go…
Have my sins be forgiven
by the deep blue waters.
To which so many
lose sons and daughters.
Splashing,
crashing,
thrashing away.
I find myself still alive.
But beaten up enough,
that it’s easy to give in,
hard to survive.
An open escape,
yet I’m still desperately pleading.
Gasping for air to
breathe in,
breathe in and hold on.
Hold onto the sorrow.
Hold onto the pain.
Hold onto the life that drives you insane.
Feel the tension,
a storm in your brain.
Lighting cracks,
scream and shout.
Holding.
Holding.
Breathe it out,
out,
out,
out.
My plans, plans,
never really unfolding.
Mind chose to prevail.
Inhale, exhale.
My plans, plans,
never really unfolding.
Like when I fell in love,
with a boy who can’t be.
Cold feet, only getting colder.
Temperature dropping, dropping,
and you’re only getting older.
Time will keep passing,
now you can’t even hold her.
Your fingers still, limbs frozen over.
Your mind is dark,
I can’t find the match.
For the candles, candles,
and the spark won’t catch.
Happier alone,
that’s what he said.
Isolated from you
I feel six feet under,
dead.
Talkin about you,
like you’re already gone.
Mourn a man,
whom I’ve only fawned.
Oh how I wish
I could say good riddance,
let his death be a dawn,
To a new coming sun.
Breathe out his poison,
with a simple yawn.
Yet I still breathe in,
breathe in and hold on.
Hold onto the sorrow.
Hold onto the pain.
Hold onto the man that drives you insane.
Feel the tension,
a storm in your brain.
Lighting cracks,
scream and shout.
Holding.
Holding.
Breathe it out,
out,
out,
out.
Oh how I wish
I wasn’t so drawn
to deep brown eyes,
his siren songs.
Waters so alluring,
eye of the storm,
can you see me?
Do you watch me perform?
Make a fool of myself,
in my pretty white dress.
No longer so warm.
Are you hiding?
I’m pleading, please.
I need some confiding,
and I know you can see.
Please tell me…
Will I ever be free?