When I do not see you for awhile
Start going through withdrawals
Like when you’re addicted to drugs
Dependent on alcohol
When I eat food is tasteless
In fact hard to enjoy
Much anything consumed
Focused on the void
No matter what’s done or said
Nothing distracts from absence
If I keep hours busy
Not once your thought leaves my head
My brain obsessed with you
Turning memories around
Try focusing on anything else
But way your laughter sounds
Impossible to be at peace
I wake up alone
Emptiness follows me from our bed
Clinging to each bone
Inside stomach sits a knot
Tangled with concern
Ball that gets tighter every minute
Messages left unreturned
I hate how I need your kiss
To function throughout day
Did not realize contact was necessary
Til moment it was taken away
My heart beats unevenly when you are gone
Stays like that until you come back
Every ***** placed in my body
Is in some manner out of whack
I am more than just miserable
Sick without you here
Unable to be myself
Until presence is again near
When I miss my boyfriend Paul
