I have no right to be jealous,
Of you and that perfect woman.
She is definitely yours,
And you are hers of course.

I have no right to be jealous,
If you brushed your fingers through her hair.
You look at her divinely in the eyes,
And mine are misty for my heart cries.

I have no right to be jealous,
If you kiss her ever so softly.
You whisper her words of caress,
I'm locking my soul in self-made fortress.

I have no right to be jealous,
When you speak her name gently.
Drawling each syllable with care,
I wish to have that girl's name to be fair.

I have no right to be jealous,
When you give her the whole universe.
You offer her the most simple "I love you",
I yearn to reply freely "me too".

I looked for a word to say.
   but I could not find one today.
I had hoped to find a word that would stay in your heart.
   That would show you exactly what tore us apart.

I hate what you did... I hate you so deeply.
I hate what you said... I hate you so passionately.
I hate what you made me... I hate you so sweetly.

I look at you and I cannot tell what is in your eyes.
   I speak directly to you but all that comes out of your mouth are lies.

I see how you hurt.
I see how you hurt me.
I just do not understand.

All your true feelings are kept and safely hidden in a far far away land.
   Is this a land we call love?
And now it is a destruction.
   A land God has made from above.
And now we call it seduction.

Its true in a way we both long for each other.
  But we both see to long for another.
Another human being we both thought we were
   But now it seems that this human being I thought you were is now a blur.

This is a bitter sweet heart
   That will end in eradication.
This is a bitter sweet part that needs some construction.

Why I hold on?
I do not know.
I probably will never know why.

I should move forward... Yes
But I feel like I would rather just die.

You caused obliteration deep into my heart.
You caused obliteration because you thought it was smart.

I hate what you did... I hate you so deeply
I hate what you said... I hate you so passionately.
**I hate what you made me... I hate you so sweetly

those eyes of yours
they're filled with love
I want you
to look at me that way
but this is reality
and you love my best friend

I love you*
you love her
I'm here waiting for you
to love me, not her

A drop in the ocean
A change in the weather
I was praying that you and me might end up together*

~

I never belonged in your life.
I'm  just a chapter that's about to end.
Or maybe I wasn't a chapter at all,
Just a single paragraph would do.
I know I don't have the right,
To feel hurt or sad,
For I am nothing and so is my heart.
I feel the burst of emptiness,
In almost every moment.
Please let me have peace,
And take my heart,
For it wasn't mine anymore,
Let me be just empty,
Cold, dark and numb.
Let me forget you.
Let me move on.
Let me be free.

-MCJ

I am slowly liking him.
A friend whom I just met.
I was caught off guard.

His aura is so different.
He's funny and cute.
He hates how loud is my voice
Then he covers my mouth.

He's athletic.
I was impressed with his background.
He looks so strong.
But weak inside.

I wanna take care of him.
I wanna fall in love with him.
But I can't.
I must refrain.

I might fall for him
And that would be so painful.
Too much risk.
Too much pain, I can't handle.

Your simple messages,
A little Hi and Hello.
Things that I need,
Everyday I am waiting.

Waiting for you,
Hoping that you,
Think a little bit of me
In your everyday.

I was so drawn to you.
I can't save myself
Neither can you.
Help me. Help me.

I am falling for you.

Looking at my phone
Waiting for any messages
I might receive from you
But nothing came.

I am waiting in vain
Thinking how you are
And what are you doing right now
I can't even know

Are you okay?
Are you thinking of me too?
Do you ever had a thought of me?
Because I do every single minute.