#notgoodenough poems on Hello Poetry

Carson Alexander Defelice Feb 2018

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I am
Unpoetic, for
Isolation built from self-paved
Solitude has wilted my writing's
Possibility for sweetness
And sugar-faked beauty,
But poetry is crazed
For a taste of
Vast feelings,
So here
I am-

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All feedback is welcome

#poetic #darkpoetry #imagery #notgoodenough #msk

SeaChel Jan 2018

My Brain Is a Scratched Record

Every evening in the moment where
the late night turns to early morning,
my mind becomes stuck
on the same loop of thoughts.
Over and over again they play,
just like a scratched record
that won't stop repeating itself.
The difference though,
is a record player can be stopped much easier
before the skipping drives one crazy.
These looped thoughts that haunt me
from 2am to 6am without fail,
might just drive me to the brink
of insanity.

"What did I do wrong?" "Could I have done something differently?" "I wasn't important enough to acknowledge.. I don't mean anything." "I'm too much. I always love too much." "Yet, no one ever wholeheartedly loves me." "Nobody will ever genuinely love me without getting sick of me." "Maybe I'd be desirable if I said things/acted as promiscuous as her." "The pattern just keeps continuing."

#insomnia #insane #depression #anxiety #notgoodenough

Fox Friend Dec 2017

You ruined love for me

I thought I found it, dad. You tell me my dreams are worthless, you say you have to tell me this because you love me and want what's best for me. You say I need to be realistic. This boy once told me what I loved was garbage, and it reminded me of you. I thought, this must be it.
He must love me.
When I brought you my awards and achievements, dad, you told me they were okay for a normal person but your daughter, I, could do better - these trophies weren't special enough. I'm not living up to my full potential and I never will in your eyes.
But you never let me leave without reminding me with your words that you love me endlessly, dad, so when I found a boy that was just as critical of me as you are, I felt that I had found the one.

#dad #perspective #love #manipulation #abuse #notgoodenough #thinkingoutloud

Melissa Dec 2017

Untitled

How empty must I feel for you to get the point that I'm not just a vacation you can just visit, destroy what you want, & not clean up the mess you made?
How sad should I get for you to understand the ground you walk on is way different than walking all over a human being?
How low should I go to finally realize that pouring yourself for someone until there is nothing left isn't healthy & I should leave?
I will never learn.

#heartbreak #sadness #notgoodenough #poetry

Mia Kay James Nov 2017

Lingering Letdown

Thick smoke lingers between us,
always being tiptoed around,
but never spoken about directly.
Never dare to speak the truth,
just pretend it's not there.
Day in and day out-
Billowing clouds float
from your eyes
into my pores,
seeping slowly,
dragging me down
with every glare.
I'm sorry to disappoint you,
but shouldn't you be used to it by now?

#family #father #depression #notgoodenough #tired #anxious

Erin Nicole May 2017

Feeling

Do you ever just have the
biggest ******* crush on
someone ever and you just
know it wont work because
they're too old or you're
not good enough or they
and too attractive for you
so you pretty much spend
what feels like eternity
having the explainable
feeling for them until it rids
of the small bit of heart
you have left until you find
another person to have the
same ****** feeling towards.

#****** #love #heartbreak #heartache #feelings #crush #eternity #heart #notgoodenough

Amanda Kay Burke May 2017

Weight

Underneath the water,
My flaws are clear and tough,
I am forever shrinking,
but never thin enough.

My reflection is distorted,
Or so they tell me so,
But they don't understand,
They don't see the things I know.

So its time to stop speaking out,
I'm too far gone to save,
I don't hear the words I need,
The answer that I crave.

And every day, so carefully,
The numbers slowly rise,
Despite the suffering I do,
They tell me only lies.

It makes no difference what I do,
Or which foods I eat each day,
I will never look the way I want,
No matter how much or little I weigh.

#weight #notgoodenough #sad

Charity Warren May 2017

Inadequate

They say I'm good, they say I'm fine.
I'm meeting all the appropriate lines but I go to work, I feel slow
And I come home to feel all alone
When I speak its hot but not
They say it is and then its not.
I'm too close im too far
Where can I find the middle land
If I can even stand
I feel like im too much
i just need someone too clutch
I don't need help im not a child
But I just wish someone would be by my side
When im alone the world is dark
Spinning in my head
I feel like my heart has turned to lead
I give and give
At least thats how I try to live
But I feel like its not enough
And my emotions I try to *****
Im suffocating in my own skin
I hurt in silence its the best
Better than pushing my pain on the rest
Ill keep trying
And ill keep slipping

Is it all in my head am I a fool?
No im alone and sad in my room.
There are those who'll say they'll stay
Then they don't and I just lay
But its alright they say im fine
Apparently im meeting all the appropriate lines

#sad #lonely #hurt #pain #lost #dissapointment #depression #weak #notgoodenough