On the edge ,
Holding your hand
Not letting you fall
Hands shivering
Not enough power
You are going down
I lost you
You fell
In the depths
Of the forest
My fault.

Then i jumped
Brutally injured
I searched
For you
You missing
I mourned.
I knew
I had strength
I could have saved you
But i failed.

I saw you
You seem fine
I m injured
I m lost
I cried for you
Your help
You denied
I am guilty
I apologise
Still it hurts
Seeing my hand
Through which you fell
It reminds
I m not strong enough.

You are okay
But no i am not.
I seek your help
Help to heal
I know it's
Too much to ask.
I am sorry
I apologise
I must accept my Demise

I forgot what you smelled like
I'm afraid one day I'll forget you
I successfully fooled everybody
Saying that I moved on!

But I keep returning
To our moments together!
Reliving them,
Wishing I never left you

Television static,
Echoing loud and clear,
Pulse accelerating,
As I feel my fear,

The pain point emerges,
It stings and throbs,
The physical manifestation,
Of my selfish flaw,

I’m hurdling through hoops,
A million miles a second,
My insides a rorschach test,
Contorting as you beckon,

Fighting inner turmoil,
Digging deep through the soil,
Trying to plan my seeds,
To stay true and loyal,

My heart aches for fantasy,
My heart yearns with envy,

For passion,
For your touch...
To drown in your love.

even in the shadows
of your love
i can still see
the stars that fall
from your eyes,
i hear your heartbeat
and i know
that although i am lost
you are here
in the darkness with me
and so the dark
doesn't feel so bad.

For I cannot bear to cut you off
I will live with the open sores
Waiting for a word from you
To be finally restored

I will not deaden the pain
I will bear the lacerations
To keep my heart open
The price for your possible return