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Catalina Ruby Dec 2018
Take me to that forbidden place,
That place where you spill my blood and cause me such blissful ache.
Lay me on the table, gather your tools,
While I reminisce on your words “those who fear pain are fools”.
Lay your bruising hands upon my yearning body,
After you’re done with me feel no remorse, say no apology.
I'm begging you for this,
Give me that painful bliss.
Sharpe pointy cold knife,
Run your tongue over every slice.
Strong caring hands gripping my throat,
As I repeat your unforgettable oath.
Spank me while I count,
Increase the amount if something other than numbers escapes my mouth.
Gently kisses turns into dangerous blood rushing bites,
The painful pleasure you give me has endless heights.
Trembling legs, oversensitive ****,
Bleeding body, throbbing ****.
Master use me to please yourself,
I know I am addicting to you, I may even be bad for your health.
But are you willing to take me on this dangerous voyage?
Please say yes, I need this, please agree and honor this as a solemn pledge.
I don't even know what's happening to me, but I can't deny it.
Catalina Ruby Dec 2018
How I've missed that feeling,
The deep burning cuts, the endless bleeding.
I know it's bad, I know I might die,
But it makes me feel better, I rather not cry.
But you came along, you've stopped me from using  my blade,
you've made me miss the burning sensation and the seeing of that beautiful red shade.
I am begging you to let me cut, I promise I won't die,
But you won't let me, you say if I do you'll cry.
But I don't want you to cry,
I'd rather die.
You are my happiness, and you know this,
But there are some things within me which you cannot fix.
This is why you should let me cut, let me see that crimson color I've longed to see,
Please just let me bleed.
I wish he'd let me.....But I know he just wants the best for me, so I can't blame him.
Catalina Ruby Dec 2018
Before him there was you,
I’d usually follow you around, stare at you for long periods, there wasn’t anything I wouldn’t do.
But you ignored me,
And yet still I stayed on my knees.
Then one day he came, and he took me away,
Then immediately after you started paying me attention, you started to play.
I started staring at you once again,
My mind thought about you every now and then
The more I visited your favorite quite place the more I changed,
I completely transformed when I found out you were a ****** when I found out you could give me pain.
I shared personal stuff with you because I could relate with you since I was a submissive *******,
I trusted you because you were a ******.
I admired you a lot, I still do,
But what you did, I honestly didn’t expect it from you.
What am I even saying, you’re a ******, and causing pain is what you do,
I just didn’t expect you to break my heart in two.
“Will you humor me sexually, be subject to my ****** whims?” this was what you asked,
I wanted to, but you knew what was stopping me from carrying out your tasks.
I wanted to say yes, I wanted to be your toy,
But I couldn’t, so my heart you destroyed.
You told me to forget about you,
And this is what I can’t do.
You blocked me before my last message could go through,
How will I handle seeing you?
I am sorry for not being able to fulfill your request,
Honestly, I tried my best.
I guess this is goodbye,
now I will cry.
cry for the loss of my ******,
what else can I say, this is tragic.
Words cannot explain, only tears.
Catalina Ruby Dec 2018
So you say you’re sadistic, I think you’re perfect,
You might be creepy in some way, but knowing a ****** is worth it.
I don’t know if you are this way by choice, or if it just grew on you, but I like it,
I like your weirdness, your playful aura, your personality and the fact that you’re a ******.
I want to know something though, I want to know what goes through your mind when you stare at me,
Do you **** me a thousand ways in your mind, do you eye **** me or do you imagine me at your knee.
Do you want to have me helplessly begging for your pleasure?
Or would you rather have me all ******* and waiting for you to discover every inch of me like a long-lost treasure?
Must I give you my body so you can carve your name on it?
Would you find pleasure in choking me while I moan out your name like the ******* I am? Would that make you feel pure bliss?
Your ****** is growing within you, it yearns to get a release from the cage you’ve placed it in,
Don’t you want to feel the blood on your lips while you view the art you’ve created on my skin?
You find pleasure in hurting me, I find pleasure in being hurt,
A ****** and a submissive *******, do you think that will work?
Do you like whips? Or you’re the restraint type?
Are you a ****** just for now? Or will you be this way for life?
Either way, my mind imagines a lot about you,
I wonder if these sinful things will come true.
My body yearns for your bruising touch, please master, please touch me,
I long to be sexually hurt, I long to bleed.
Tie me down, lay out your rules,
I swear I’ll follow them, after all, I’ll be in your school.
Use your paddle and spank me mercilessly if I misbehave,
Don’t feel remorse for me after, for even the spanking will sexually arouse me just the same.
Command me to go down on my knees,
In the end, if I fail to swallow every single drop I want you to punish me.
Honestly, I just want you to make me shudder under your touch, I’ll still crave more,
Take my body and do whatever you want, even if it leaves me sore.
You favor the color red, slice me open and you’ll see the color you so desire,
We both know we can put a calm to each other’s raging fire.
Please, Master, make it hurt, make it hurt in a way which will have me begging you for more,
Please don’t ignore me, don’t leave me on the other side of the door.
Yes you are sadistic, you know you’re
You might be creepy in some way, but knowing you is worth it.
Inspired by someone who makes me crazy
Catalina Ruby Dec 2018
I need a ****** who will cause me great pain,
I need a ****** who’ll not just let my eyes but also my underneath rain.
Sadistic lover where are you,
I need you to let all my deepest darkest desires come through.
Give me the relief I need, I long to feel the cold silver blade slicing open my skin,
If only I had a ****** who would’ve done to me such a thing.
I want to beg you to choke me harder, can’t you see the need in my eyes,
I yearn for you to punish my underneath, let me feel something other than blood running down my thighs.
Command me and watch me obey,
Take me on a painful voyage each and every day.
Catalina Ruby Dec 2018
I hate it when you walk away instead of putting me against the wall,
I know you want me, you want this, you want us, why not just answer the call?
you're sadistic to the point where you want to stay away from me,
but I am a submissive *******, why can't you just accept that and make me bleed?
you yearn to see me helplessly begging for you,
and here I am, take me, and allow you're darkest desires to come through.
A ****** and a submissive *******, isn't that something worth the try?
or would you rather leave me here alone to cry?
cry, yes, because you are withholding yourself from me,
please my ****** friend, come and make me bleed.

A. Johnson
julianna Oct 2018
When I feel something,
I just take a stab at it.
Like a 1-2 motion,
To make the most damage
In the least amount of time.
I want to draw blood
And make it last because
I’d rather feel that than nothing.
I think you could call me
A *******,
Or maybe a sentimentalist.
Whichever you prefer.
Fritzi Melendez Jul 2018
We stare deep into each others eyes.
Hand in hand as you hover over my body.
You close your eyes.
And give me a kiss.
I cant get enough of this.
The sweetness in your lips.
The passion in your eyes.
I want to savor the taste of honey.
I can only imagine what other flavors will come by.
I fly close to the clouds.
And I attempt to touch the sky.
But...
You pull away
And
Take a breath
And
Smile.
A sweet smile but...
There’s something underneath
Behind his perfect white teeth...
A smile so sinister,
I can barely muster
The courage to just pin you to the bed,
As you lick me deeply while I hold your head.
But I stay still,
An innocent soul,
Greeted by beautiful sins tied with a bow.
Who knew being bad was so much fun?
I close my eyes as your fingers run
All over my body.
Leaving its mark.
I'm your territory now.
Do what you want.
Hold me down, break me in half, **** me until I lose my mind.
Make my brain shake and turn my eyes blind.
From rolling them so far back as I take you in.
It’s so good, I don't feel human.
It all feels deliciously foreign.
I feel like an uncontrollable,
Untamed,
Unafraid,
Savage monster.
But...
I want more
I keep... wanting...
More.
I can't... take this anymore.
Please, make me your *****.
I don’t know what to think or do.
My body just wants to become a **** for you.
For your eyes only to listen,
And your ears only to hear.
As you whisper I love you and as you make me fear.
Fear of stopping this two person ride.
I can feel you slip slowly inside.
I let out soft moans.
But with this I shouldn’t have loaned.
You take the advantage to hear me so vulnerable.
You pound me into something unrecognizable.
Everything in me is breaking.
I'm a chaotic mess.
But I’m also falling
In love with this moment, in love with you,
in love of feeling like we are one too.
****** my hair and whisper me your dark desires.
I'm crazy for it, it’s making my heart catch on fire.
Make me yours,
Make me your *****,
Don’t even try to save
Me, just do what you want to see.
Keep me locked in your rib cage, don’t let me free.
No don’t stop,
I'm not crying,
I'm just insane.
Insane for your touch and for your thoughts in your brain.
This is so good, I  feel like I'm going to heaven.
You leave my legs shaking with ecstasy,
My ******* moving to your rhythm.
This primal **** overtakes me.
I am talking so *****.
I can't even think anymore
**** this entire rhyme scheme,
Deeper
Harder
Faster
Give everything to me.
Let our minds go crazy.
Explicit content warnings forgotten.
Take me in.
Make me...
Forever yours.
mindless, breathless, weightless...
Fritzi Melendez Jul 2018
i stole a cigarette.
no, this isn't a metaphor.

there's just times where I feel
like I deserve to be what falls in the ash tray.

I don't know why I keep trying to harm myself,
If things are going okay...

It's like, I'm so used to the torture and pain,
I don't ever want it to go away.

No wonder I had clung to my razor blades
No wonder I had clung to the trauma
No wonder I developed depression
and look at me now, stealing cigarettes.

Desperately trying to find a way to destroy myself
Fill my lungs with smoke
A stench that is more than just stuck on clothes.

It's the past, coming back to life
inhale
inhale
inhale more
cough

You want to smother these thoughts
Lose them in this smoke and fog

But no, there's no escape
Not even when the cigarette is done

The scars still string your skin
The pain woven deep into your veins
The ****** scabs you keep picking at

It's a coping mechanism
Or a way to slowly die

Is it that... I need to feel something, always?
Is it that... I have fallen in love with Death?

The couple of times, where he teasingly came
close to...
give me a fatal kiss.

Is this what I **** over?
Is this... what I want to feel?
...

In any case... this cigarette is still lit up.
Drifting me more out of myself.

And I disappear like the smoke in the wind.
I stole a cigarette.
honey Jun 2018
Give everything you have,
Give it to them,
That’s what they deserve,
Not just their own happiness,
But yours as well.
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