A few solid strikes from a broken fist
My throat hurts from all the ***** I scream
It can't end
It can't end like this
I'm shaking
While I read
All about the sorrys
And how the time is not right
It's been a while since a tear left my eye
I guess the incision feels nice
Compared to the palm on my heart
But I knew from the start
Love is a gamble
The cruelest game to leave the lips of God
So I took the chance when I held your hand
And let my lips touch yours
Now I'll relive those nights
Instead of pray when I turn out the lights
I'd give anything to hold you one more time
Carve your name in my shoulder
So every night I lay my head
You are there at my side
I only hope when you're gone
You won't find another one
Or lose my place in your soul
I stumbled in
I'm not ready for the fall

I was feeling weak
and you were strong for me
I was broken
But you matched me perfectly
I believed in you
Call it blind trust
I fell for every lie
But I believed in us
Tired of love
But was willing to fight
There I was
Laying in your bed every night.
Sweat on my body
As I laid close to you
Slowly giving you all of me
Hoping you would too.
But you started stealing my love
And stopped answering my calls.
No more drunk nights in your room,
No more hot loving all night.
Still I was weak
And was feeling alone.
You said you were in love
But I was all alone.

A little electricity in my veins
will momentarily rid me of the pain.

It will make me forget that I am broken
and it will somehow fill the wounds that
are still fresh and open.

But then it will soon fade away-
eliminate that short-lived bliss,
until all that haunts my mind is you,
whom I so dearly miss.

A hug's goodbye embraces my aching body
The squeeze breaks the coarse string
of hope I had left. Stay with me.
I hoped to embellish our love
but I lost that control long ago.
I lost you then and now I am lost..
My soil cries your name.
Nothing more will be done.
I can't breathe. Your final touch took
away the air I needed, though it
was much less than I needed you.
But we have said our goodbyes and
I am alone at last with no more than
my bleeding heart and your spirit.
This is it...

I almost texted you good morning
I forgot
We aren't talking
You had become my second nature

Why lie?
Why waste my time??
I'll never understand
why you told me you loved me, when u obviously didn't...

I didn't tell you when I told you goodnight how much I miss you and how much I want you in my arms right now, about how much I want to feel your heartbeat on my chest. I can't bring myself to tell you how much you really matter to me, and how hopelessly, eternally, and deeply in love with you I am. I can't tell you that I don't just want you, but I need you. You're my favorite drug, and I'm an addict past the point of rehab. I didn't tell you that knowing you're not just down the road makes me feel so small and I didn't tell you how much I feel like I don't matter to you. I want to tell you all of this, but I want to hear that I matter. I want to know that you miss me, that you want to kiss me, and I want to hear these calming words from your beautiful heart. You never leave my mind. You're a grand distraction. I can't even take tests or watch tv without thinking of you. Get out of my head and please get in my arms. I miss you so much. Those are the things I left unsaid. That I didn't text you. All of that was compiled into a small goodnight, but you have no way of knowing what I really mean to say.