To be selfless, to be loveless

They are similar
In that there is always less
Of something there once was

Less of self, less of love

I wanted to think of you more
So I thought of myself less

I wanted to love you more
So I loved myself less

You asked for more
So I wanted you less

Even the feel of summer failed to heat up my heart
Despair and sorrow waged war upon my innocence
Little by little, my abandoned soul tore itself apart
While searching, yearning to feel your presence

Your thoughts once used to make me smile
Now your memories became the reason of my sorrow
My heart breaks every time I think of you for a while
Because I know you won't be there in my life tomorrow

I tried to lock up these stupid feelings inside my heart
In a desperate attempt to stop the unceasing stream of my tears
You said the vastness of oceans is enough to keep us apart
But I guess your love ceased to exist after all these years

It hurt, it pained like hell, but with all my efforts, I tried
To make peace with our beautiful moments and let go of you
But your voice echoed in my ears, dirges, my heart cried
Because darlin', this time, you didn't love me too...

Baby, you really hurt me
letting me think that we could have been something.
I should have known months ago
when you stopped saying hello and started leaving me on read.

I would pull back
but would keep hanging on
thinking this was going to go somewhere.

If you weren't serious all you had to do was tell me.
Instead, you left me outside waiting in the storm.
Having second thoughts should have been the first sign.
Thinking I deserve someone that does not leave me on read,
but at last, I was too naive.
So I stayed waiting by my phone and waiting for that light.

But now I realize it's just too cold out in this storm.
I tried being an adult asking where do you wanna go from here,
but I guess you just didn't have the time to answer me.
That's okay, maybe I won't get this past year back,
but I have too much to look forward to than worrying about someone who just doesn't care.

Baby, you really hurt me
thinking that this was going somewhere.
Baby, don't worry I can tell you don't care about me anymore
the way I believed you did.
Baby, don't worry I'm woman enough to realize I deserve better now.

Walking free
I'm in all red.
Swaying bodies embrace in bed, like waves from the sea.

You're so far
But not even mine
Your back was my last sign, wishing on a star.

Come back to me
I've fallen back in
Leaving you, my greatest sin, but now you're just walking free.

I'm in prison