She is the sun but she doesn't know
She looks at herself into something low
but you can see, how much she glows
so bright, i hope she knows.

two rather large glasses down,
one heart crumbled the other thriving.
Leave the shattered pieces on the ground
find the light
find the happiness and the warmth
that linger within
after layer after layer of singed love.
a fire that was lit and never put out
burned me to my core
leaving no light
no happiness within
no warmth for me to bathe and bask in.

Yes, it's holidays in summer,
No books, what a ******!
Chicks need light books for lit.,
Mental slumming, that's what I call it,
Yes, recreational reading,
Books for older  girls is what I'm needing.......

Nobody can break me,
But myself,
And I do it so carefully,
To build a shelf,
Filled with stories of the lonely,
Pages of truth known only to me,
For I am the one they know,
To own the barely beating heart
That pumps ink instead of blood;

I break it on the daily,
To spill words so familiar,
Yet foreign like careless whisper,
Like the sweet nothings he once gave me,
Or the promise he broke chance after chance;

Still my heart held on,
Ink filled to the brim,
Flowing through the tips,
Coursing through every vein,
At the touch of my bony fingers,
Dancing away on screens,
Or the clickity clacking,
From typing bits of him,
But more of me,
And how I never knew,
That truth is this heart,
It bleeds free,
It bleeds true,
But not in shades of red,
Just black and blue.

@byizn

theres dark spaces between my bones
that she has not crept on and
there are soft spots i have not spoken of
kept wrapped and gauzed
and waited when she would
hold the kiss she knew where to plant
there are places that are lonely
inside my head that she
cannot fill, for a heart like
mine could hide away
the loveliest lover and the
faintest lies.
theres no heart beat
loudest enough in this dark forest
for a lover to hear the sound”
— there’s no heart beat loud enough

the maroons and reds of your youth echoed in my heart creating a fire the aorta couldn't fathom
i watched you from greenhouses where flowers unveiled their beauty when you touched-
i can still see your eyes, dark, so dark where’d they go? why can’t i see the moon anymore?
me drinking cotton candy bullets as if you engraved my name in the single metal alloy
where is my name on your journals, i thought you said you loved me?

it's a cold winter night
another struggle i need to fight
how long do i need to survive
without you by my side

stars are scattered on the sky
reminiscing as the time goes by
i smile to myself as i realize
i've been strong after my sacrifice