you grew on me like skin
And i remember looking
into your eyes and finding kin
i wish we had hung around longer
but i know u do not miss me
And moments that held me..
vacated you and i

im waning my own moods
weaving and finding my way thru
the Wilderness
that is the mess of me
from thick untamed roots
to my the temple of  crown
to my chipped and toes
I am a pile of bones, missed phone calls,
forgetting and late night regrets. Text messages and dial tones and
unconditional love.

when will i stop trying
to find someone else
to give love to me?
weak bones, strong heart.
i reach through deep
hallow waters and find
the bottom of everything.

was i meant to love her?
allow all her secrets to seep
between my bones, kiss
my collarbone..run secrets
against my skin.

her eyes have shown
a flaming old soul
a sweet smile to have hid
where her mouth has been.
even when my thoughts
grow wary and  life
seems to caution me at
entrance,
to a heart made of shredded
moments and had darken over
with fear.

they say light attracts dark
and those who live
with all heart are betrayed
and yet i cant remember a face
but a soul. who never left ,
who stayed,
and a unrequited feeling

i have kissed many men
and still have not regain trust,
sensual and heavy handed
with secrets held caged.
Prisoned and slandered,
kissed and no standards.
How could you, grow a broken
soul?

her eyes had shown
a flaming soul; though
not ready for love.
i tuck my heart in, i draw
my bones in.
Bind up a heavy love, a heavy secret.
an unrequited angel
left alone and uneeded.

overthinking breaks my heart

soft shades
and lost days
i find daydreams
dissolving to worries,
and theyve said for me not
to worry abt the bad things
cause they just past
and its only temporary
bottled up, and carried weight.
i can feel so many pains.
i'm a shady gray
on these temporary
lost days.

theres dark spaces between my bones
that she has not crept on and
there are soft spots i have not spoken of
kept wrapped and gauzed
and waited when she would
hold the kiss she knew where to plant
there are places that are lonely
inside my head that she
cannot fill, for a heart like
mine could hide away
the loveliest lover and the
faintest lies.
theres no heart beat
loudest enough in this dark forest
for a lover to hear the sound”
— there’s no heart beat loud enough

you see me weak
i give you anything you need...
down on my knees
i held on to his first words
thats all i need....
nice ***, good check and loyalty...