this world confuses me so.
we are all made equal without ever really being equal at anything comparable side by side. in fact we aren't.
we are told to respect others while they could never in a million years respect us and what we believe. we can barely respect ourselves.
we are expected to build up our soul from others with the known thought that the very first soul was alone, yet we still are told that we have to have someone to accent us. we never do, but we still choose to believe so.
we were each molded differently like a potter molding his masterpieces, but due to reflections and gravity, the idea of beauty and ugliness haunts our every action. we could never get the thought that we were beautiful past our ears to begin with.
we are told to take a leap of faith by the only people who haven't ever taken one themselves as they sit and wait for a terrible outcome, so they can move along thinking they made the right choice to stay put. the only way to move forward is to actually move yourself, not watch others move for you.

(j.a.r.)

Girlhood was fun when you were a part of it
It was fun just because I lived it with you
We were in the prime of our years, I was smitten
It was not just love, it was so much more
I was a tamed bird in an open cage, you were free
You flew in the sky, I was perched all shy
Beneath the cloud of my darkness
I was scared of the open gate
Your light made me see the world
You made me believe I could be so much more
The cage was all that I had, my world
You told me to give it a try and let my heart fly
you made be believe, I look the leap
There I was singing song of my freedom
Spreading my wings like I have never done before
There I was flying high in the blue open sky
You set me free by letting me know you’ll always be with me
Here I am in my new world.

Let's be like leap year.
Let's leap through time
leaving behind
all our agony and tears.
Let's head to a future
where surrounded by close peers
we could just be ourselves,
no longer filled with fear.
We'd do things our way.
No longer would we adhere
to a broken system and society  
where things are never as they appear.
There would be no such ambiguity.
Things would be done in complete sincerity.
We would be the premier engineers
in this radical new frontier.
So, if your ready
let's leave this time behind
let's leap to a better future,
a future with a little more peace of mind.

I can disagree with what others think.
I must live with me,
And though they will judge
And throw figurative punches
And jabs, I have the ability to fight back,
Laugh, and walk away.
No matter what they say,
I refuse to loose
My happiness from their projected
Self-Hate
And
Internal-Turmoil.
I will not coil
Into submission.
I shall not ban my Thoughts, Feelings, and Words like prohibition.
I treat myself with

Respect

Dignity

Pride.

Of course a heaping side of

LOVE.

I can BE brave
BE fearless and
BE-autiful.
Stop saying
How Dare You
And start Daring Myself
Go far, far, beyond the limits and lines
Exceed Heights
Find the Joy and Excitement in Life.

Take a L E A P
Of Faith
Even though I might fall.
At least I can say, I tried at all.

I can loose myself outdoors,
And still always find my way back home.
I know where to find shelter and safety
But I cannot grow
If I keep myself caged in captivity.
I then risk it all
First Sanity
Then Creativity.
I whole-heartily believe I need the latter
In order to have the other.
Sometimes loosing myself
Creates my best work,
Then I have both my project
And a Lesson Learned.

I fall back,
And I step forward.
All part of this natural process
Of Life Leading Onward.

New places I crave,
Goals I will attain
Not one day, or some day,
But All The Days
I Live Out and Breathe In.

As for now I Pray:
Light my way,
Send me Strength.
I embody the Present,
I Am Here Today.

SOMETIMES I WONDER WHAT
WOULD'VE HAPPENED IF I HAD
SPOKEN MY MIND, WHAT
WOULD'VE HAPPENED IF YOU
DIDN'T LEAVE. BUT MOST OF ALL
I WONDER WHAT WOULD'VE
HAPPENED IF I WAS THE LAST
THING ON YOUR MIND BEFORE
YOU TOOK THAT LEAP INTO THE
NEVER ENDING DARKNESS.
WOULD YOU HAVE STAYED?

Do not fear the leap
The leap into the unknown

Not everything stays unknown
Not everything unknown is scary

Sometimes you have to make the leap alone
Sometimes it's into the darkness

You have to muster the courage to do it
Not everything stays dark forever

Do not fear what will happen after  the leap
Fear what will happen if you don't take the leap at all

We’ve traveled for a long while now,
And I don’t regret each moment...
Spent together with you.

All we have is each other these days,
And to be honest, I’m perfectly OK with that
Who am I without you?
(Who are you without me?)

You helped a fragile heart,
Unlocked it from a keepsake treasure box
Kept it living, kept it breathing
Kept it pumping, kept it bleeding

You helped push me forward when I was too scared to move.

You gave me courage,
You gave me strength

Something I could never feign

_________

Look at me,
A hundred miles away
From home, from friends
From family and loved ones alike

You say it’s a big jump.
While I agree; I’m willing to take the risks

What’s life without boundaries?

However, I’ll be the first to admit: It’s not easy.

I will miss them dearly.

I know they’ll be in my heart,
As I will be in theirs.

But I need to move on with my life.

I need to take that final leap of faith
And let love guide the way to a better life

If love was a jar
I'd be at the bottom
Tripped fell and stuck
Why do I take that leap?

Why do I let women get the best of me
They all mess with my head make me think I am dead
Numb and cold

I'm not here I'm not there
She's everywhere
I like being in love just wish it wasn't so deep

Like I said I happy I decided to leap
This is weird
If love was a jar