I am a fish, swimming without a twin
In this great ocean without emotion
I think about you, carried by the wind
You make me feel love with your love potion

I am a whale, chasing after your tail
When I see you I am slow as a snail
Your mind eludes me, taunting me to sing
My whale songs delivered in water rings

Now I am a bird with eyes in the sky
Sometimes I still cry when you are nearby
But now I am free to fly up so high
I'm flying to the moon so this is goodbye

Thank you for all of the nights that we laughed
I hope you'll visit me in your aircraft

"Shut up."
shutupshutupshutup
I can't stop myself
From repeating those words
He hurts me
So much
But he is so kind.
God, I love him.
Shut up.
Just...
Shut up.

Wondering why
Breathe
Don't try to waste it
Try not to do anything stupid
but you just can't help it
The sadness is always there
I'm trying to read your mind
Based upon you ****** expressions
Based on the way that you whisper to me
Because you don't talk
You just whisper
I love when you try not to being sad
I love the way you think when you're sad
I know that you're not okay
But that's how depression is
You just can't help it
It covers you
It comes to you
It is not afraid of you
Because it's you
It was always you

i wish
that i was
a person
who could leave
an impression
on people

Don't talk to me of love
Don't talk to me of love
I want none
This illusion of the above is crap
The words have lost their meaning
They're just stealing what we push on them

Don't talk to me of love
Oh would you like a dove to fly above?
Well ****
This word love, doesn't work like that
That is all just crap
Don't talk to me of doves and roses
Roses are a symbol of love they say
Quite right it has thorns all over it
And it quickly withers

Don't talk to me of love
Placing our hopes in others
What are these lovers going to do for you?
They all just fall through

This love you speak of needs glue
It's shattered and broken  
It's cynical and tired
And you know what - it's fired!

Don't talk to me of love
Talk to me of self love
Talk to me of friendship and family
Don't talk to me of superficial love
The coupled, masqueraded facade we all seem so willing to participate in
Put it in the bin

Don't talk to me of love

if i make a typo,
please forgive me,
because my fingers are slipping as my keyboard
drowns.
but i needed to write this, to someone who will
never see it.

dear you,
i miss you. i miss the way your eyes were the greatest color i had felt in a long time, and then became a legacy nobody could live up to. i miss the way you tripped on air. i miss the way you laughed when i tripped on my words, because i never trusted my mouth to work properly. i miss the way you would become this energetic child when you talked about the possibilities that lay in the stars. as if talking about stars literally pulled them from the sky and put them in your eyes. and maybe you never put them back. i miss the way you believed in me, one hand firmly on my mind and the other cradling my fragile heart. i miss the way there was this sort of love between us (completely platonic and professional) and i miss the way you asked me if i was okay, and when i lied, you pulled the truth out of me. i miss you, simply and fully.
how come you had to go?

r.c.

My soul needs saving
Mary come close and
Grab hold of my heart
Purify it whole

Save me from what my future holds
Keep me from straying
Stop all these evil people coming in close
I need you to protect me
To keep me warm and to prevent me
From turning cold

Pull out the dread from my intestines
Save my soul or am I
too late
My devil demands that I throw you up
He wants to purify you from my heart
but  
My heart is empty
and he won't let me fill it up


Oh mother mary come and save me before I am gone