that one time, unsurpassed

at first, white
coral fountains drizzling
spring cotton, pink
candy dye
blushed
on stain
capped champagne

jackknife popped

fizzled soda
drop

the last
sweet, melty flavored
slink...

Be brave, my love.

**Your dearest,
Victoria

Lost
But lost in the thought of you
So I'm fine with it

Maybe that's what
I should do.
Step back and
let distance take
its toll.

I don't have
time to have
my heart broken
again.

I'm falling in
love with you
and I don't
know how to
stop.

i know that i get scared and lost in my own heart,
i've been bruised and beaten down,
almost from the very start
of me.

its hard to understand how i could be
the perfect part of me that i
have never known existed
at all.

it's disguised by fear and anticipation
for the bad things that probably won't
come, and interfered by the thoughts
that i'm not good enough.

but if you rip me open,
there are sunflowers inside,
and when you shine your light
upon my face, the way you do,
so perfectly,

my head will lift toward your gaze,
and i will only look to you,
for you are my sunshine and you
will keep me standing tall.

I never thought it'd be you.

I never thought I'd fall in love,
At least not after the heartbreak of last time.

I never thought I'd meet
Someone like you,
Who would change me so quickly.

Someone like you,
Who listens, knows, and cares
About what I'm feeling
And why.

Someone whom I can trust
And rely on, no matter what,
No matter when,
And know for a fact that they
Will never leave my side.

Someone like you,
Whom others would know
As a close friend,
Or maybe even a best friend.

I never thought I'd be saying this,
But you're more than a friend,
My love runs so much deeper.

I never thought I'd fall for someone,
As great as my best friend.

I never thought it'd be you.

Never fall in love,
Unless you're strong enough to do with pain.
Matters of the heart,
Bring you nothing to gain.
Except torment each day.
Slowly, I'm moving further away.

My heart can't cope with this,
I'm finding it hard to forget.
Staring into the shadows,
Visualizing your silhouette.

I feel drawn to you,
As if we both swallowed a piece of a magnet heart.
But we're too close on opposite sides,
So the force pulls us further apart.

You've turned the hands of my heart,
Now is taking is slowing down.
But I'll have to pick myself back up,
After you leave me to drown.

"I never really liked blue eyes,
but her's,
                           god,
the way they reflect the sunlight,
the way they sparkle in the dark,
the way they gaze into mine.
She has guided me through
one of the darkest times of my life.
She is the light of my life.
She has stood behind me
throughout this all.
Refusing to back down.
She loves me and
god
do I love her.
If only I could tell the world,
                         she's mine.
I could hold her hand in public,
I could kiss her in front of others,
I could run away wit her,
we could finally be free.
But,
until then,
we'l just have to wait.
After all,
two years
isn't that far away."