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havenx Mar 29
There was a time when

your presence in my mind

was not so all consuming

when the demons remained buried

crashing waves on obsidian walls

just lingering in the shadows

-havenx
havenx Mar 29
In here the sun shall not rise

The eternal night breathes

Of grief and rage

In this chaos there is no rest

No sleep no release

These thoughts are not mine

to control or resist

Yet these thoughts are mine

To possess and breathe in.


- havenx
Fire licking the frame of my bed
The sheets are all stained red
My mother’s corpse lying there
Tears streaming down my eyes as I clutch my teddy bear
I huddle in my bed as the fire spreads
Holding my blankets remaining threads
Closing my eyes, I wish it’s all in my head
Looking at my mother, I wished it was me instead
I wish it was me instead
It’s all in my head
~19/3/21
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Mrs Anybody Aug 2020
I pressed
my palms
hard
against
my eyes

Desperately trying
to get you
out
of my head

But instead
I saw your
small smile
and
brown eyes
right before
me
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rhionna Feb 2020
how can I tell if what you say is true?
how do I know of real or fake?
a part of of me believes you
but that nagging voice in my head
says the opposite
what if it's a lie
the thought of what if
for this I'm sorry
with time the voice will get quieter
one day I'll control the voice
and it won't control me
tales of my bad habbit of second guessing everyone
maya cahill Dec 2019
the trail is endless, the fog is surreally beautiful, calming but unnerving
i’m continuously picking at the barren ground for something that i might recognize
but it all keeps drizzling through my fingers like sand

wait, i found something
i can hold it, but i can’t make it out, it’s too blurry
no, no it's slipping through again
“please don’t leave me. please.” i say, as it slowly changes from solid to goo to gone

i look around me, still trapped in here
the void in front of me ******* me deeper and deeper in
when can i escape?
when will i find my way out?

wait, i think i hear someone calling my name
it’s getting louder and louder, i turn around and around but can’t see anyone
“hello, hello”, i call back
my name is being screamt louder and louder, my ears are beginning to hurt, my vision is darkening
am i leaving now? am i finally going to return?
my body feels like it’s being thrashed around. this pain, it won’t end, why won’t it end?
“i love you.” my eyes flutter open, and my vision is clearing up. in front of me is my mother,
and she’s weeping.
I got lost in my head again.
I have a gated community
but I don't have a community

I only have company

I can't be alone in my bed
then I'll be left alone in my head

and this is why my "friends" run from me
Nadia Sep 2019
In my head
There is a mirror
A time travelling mirror
Smudged and cracked
Reflecting a past
I didn't fully appreciate


NCL September 2019
Arielle Aug 2018
The mind is a magician
it's tricky and it's quick
thoughts it slips in
out of order , not based on facts
feelings follow - large and controlling
rationale flees or hides

The person I am
shadowed in the reactions and actions taken
orchestrated and directed
by the master puppeteer - this magician

inner duality
illusions of autonomy versus reality
to cut the strings, rebel!
adhere to this
To The Plan

1• Question critically
2 • Do not react
feelings based on false perceptions (to be weeded) not an easy task, nor meant to be
inner and outer discipline to be applied
3 • Create pauses, and reflect
4 • Strengthen self LOVE
5 • Forgive - Fall - Do not judge - Do not stall - Practice - Practice - Practice
6 • Never stop learning, striving, keep growing.

Follow the plan
To be freed
To be led by .....
The true me (you)
Something I've written while in my depression ... may not make sense to some but does to me.
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