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rhionna Feb 7
how can I tell if what you say is true?
how do I know of real or fake?
a part of of me believes you
but that nagging voice in my head
says the opposite
what if it's a lie
the thought of what if
for this I'm sorry
with time the voice will get quieter
one day I'll control the voice
and it won't control me
tales of my bad habbit of second guessing everyone
maya cahill Dec 2019
the trail is endless, the fog is surreally beautiful, calming but unnerving
i’m continuously picking at the barren ground for something that i might recognize
but it all keeps drizzling through my fingers like sand

wait, i found something
i can hold it, but i can’t make it out, it’s too blurry
no, no it's slipping through again
“please don’t leave me. please.” i say, as it slowly changes from solid to goo to gone

i look around me, still trapped in here
the void in front of me ******* me deeper and deeper in
when can i escape?
when will i find my way out?

wait, i think i hear someone calling my name
it’s getting louder and louder, i turn around and around but can’t see anyone
“hello, hello”, i call back
my name is being screamt louder and louder, my ears are beginning to hurt, my vision is darkening
am i leaving now? am i finally going to return?
my body feels like it’s being thrashed around. this pain, it won’t end, why won’t it end?
“i love you.” my eyes flutter open, and my vision is clearing up. in front of me is my mother,
and she’s weeping.
I got lost in my head again.
I have a gated community
but I don't have a community

I only have company

I can't be alone in my bed
then I'll be left alone in my head

and this is why my "friends" run from me
Nadia Sep 2019
In my head
There is a mirror
A time travelling mirror
Smudged and cracked
Reflecting a past
I didn't fully appreciate


NCL September 2019
Arielle Aug 2018
The mind is a magician
it's tricky and it's quick
thoughts it slips in
out of order , not based on facts
feelings follow - large and controlling
rationale flees or hides

The person I am
shadowed in the reactions and actions taken
orchestrated and directed
by the master puppeteer - this magician

inner duality
illusions of autonomy versus reality
to cut the strings, rebel!
adhere to this
To The Plan

1• Question critically
2 • Do not react
feelings based on false perceptions (to be weeded) not an easy task, nor meant to be
inner and outer discipline to be applied
3 • Create pauses, and reflect
4 • Strengthen self LOVE
5 • Forgive - Fall - Do not judge - Do not stall - Practice - Practice - Practice
6 • Never stop learning, striving, keep growing.

Follow the plan
To be freed
To be led by .....
The true me (you)
Something I've written while in my depression ... may not make sense to some but does to me.
ryn Jun 2018
I deliberate.
I contemplate.
I procrastinate.

Then I write in ink...

In the hopes
of capturing
all that swims unruly
and speaks in runes.
Haesel Feb 2018
I know I couldn't do that to them or you
It's just every thing is tearring me up from the inside out
Everyday it gets harder and harder to stay
Trying to pretend like everything's okay
It's making it hard to stay
My heart is heavy and all these things I've kept inside
Is catching up to me
Three years of avoiding talking about my problems and keeping sh*t inside my head
Makes me want to try new things instead
Alcohol Pills smoking a spliff to get high  
Made things 100x worse
A little something I wrote when I was in a dark place im so glad I'm no longer in that state of mind count your blessings
Karmen Mar 2016
Calm and secure you always made me feel
Each night we lay side by side
Hand in hand
Sometimes with my head on your chest
It felt right
Two beats in tune
Each breath released as if it were one
Heart aching for what would come
It knew this wouldn't last
Still I went along
Pretending it would all be alright
I didn't expect it to end this way
Not this fast is what I mean
Thought there would be one last time
Moments like this are rare
Wish I could relive
What love you made me feel
The battle to let go
All too real to be told
Demons I fought
As I lost you in sight
The time went by
Never to be as I once was
Jst.moved on
Forgetting that once upon a time
Each night we shared
I once was calm and secure
gabriel ackerman Oct 2015
Rain clouds as far as the eye can see.
Water pouring from the sky, drowning me.
I close my eyes, and shut out the dim, pale light.
I give into my sorrow, my starless night.
My eyes fill with tears, but they are covered up by the rain.
The blood drips from my body, and the water worsens the pain.
The pain shoots through my body, the worst pain I've ever known.
And i let out a scream of terror, the most weakness I've ever known.
I wait for myself to drown beneath the tide.
This time, why even bother to ask why?
I'm so far out to sea not a soul would hear me.
But then i remember, my mind is the sea.
My thoughts enclose me, trapped with no way out.
And then i stop crying, it's already too late, not a thing to cry about.
My eyes slowly close as the world fades away.
This time I'm asleep for good, I will not live to see another day.
A bittersweet smile finally crosses my face.
The muffled "goodbye" and I'm gone without a trace.
Here's another poem, even though I hardly ever upload.
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