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Kerstin Sep 2016
Silent
Ever expanding darkness
Nothingness surrounds my thoughts
When concerned with you
The darkness turns to fire
My skin bubbles and burns
Every horrible possibility comes to life
Playing behind my eyes
Tearing my insides to shreds
Over happenings yet to happen
Morbid days pass
With thoughts so painful
My color drains
The sky's stay so gray
Everyday all the feelings drain away
Replaced with pain
A constricting heart
Breathing hurts
My blood runs cold
Shut off from rational thoughts
My mind wonders to all thoughts grim
Silent ever expanding darkness
Turns to nothingness
Hannah Sep 2016
'let's find love to live for'

that's what you said.
and i thought you meant me
why was i how could i so stupid
didn't you know?

'you were what i lived for'
Hannah Sep 2016
it was real.
i know it was
you felt it, and i did too
at the same time it wasn't

so why does it hurt so much
we never spoke about it
but other people did
and we knew it

was i not good enough
don't tell me it's about a number
that never stopped you before
so why her and not me

and what hurts even more
is i have to pretend to be happy for you
i have to convince myself
'if you love him, let him go'

and i want to, i really do
but there was a time when
i wanted you so bad
and i still do

why you gotta hurt me this way?
complicated story hah but i used to like my best friend's ex, and maybe still do, and she herself said that he might have liked me. but now he's asked another girl out, one that all 3 of us are kinda close to and i just sigh
aar505n Sep 2016
I miss my dancing days
Do you remember Him?
How He moved like it was the only way one should move
Eternal, He -

I could live forever in His fountain of youth
If the truth wasn't so clear
I could drown in His water instead

~

In the forest fall
I hide from all
So I can hear Him
The voice in the darkness -
The singing god
Whispering just enough
To unhinge me

I'd imagine the stars still shine
Darkly over you
The stars here are different
They look the same
But they're askew
Not quite aligned
like me and you

Not quite bright
Not quite right
On this quiet night
Lethabo Sep 2016
Time to move on
The feelings are too strong
The bond is stronger
And our voices together in laughter like soft summer rain...

I want to leave
I want to be alive again
In your soft lips I drown in thought
Your eyes pierce straight into mine
But this is all a lie

While I struggle to scratch you out
You think of her
Then you close your eyes
Kiss me
Touch me
In your mind I'm her

But I'm not
I am me
Can't you see?
I'm done with us
...just for now
denise Aug 2016
If only I could wish to forget you.

I remember it being not so long ago, when your awkward smile imprinted itself to my memory. I remember when you brushed your hair out of your face, when your eyes told me "well, aren't you something else."

I remember the stories you told me. You told me the story of a little boy who was afraid to grow up. We relived the stories you kept in that scared head of yours and gave them hope for a better ending.

I remember the times you fell on your knees, searching for acceptance. You were always yearning for empathy. You were tired of sympathy. I cleared away the broken glass. I gave you a magic mirror, to show you the goodness you couldn't see in yourself.

I remember the tears that you let me keep. I held you in my arms, in my heart; for yours was a heavy burden I couldn't let you bear alone. I saved you from that anchor you called a soul, even if it meant that I drowned too.

I still keep them to this day.

It wasn't so long ago.

You gave me your heart. I trusted you with mine.



How easily you just threw it away.
i wish i could throw you away too
One and Only Jul 2016
Hurts, all over..
Notice me, **** it.
Call me her name, it hurts.
It was the name you had for her,
It was the name you called her.
PLEASE I BEG YOU DON'T.
It destroys me,
It tears me apart.
It rips me into pieces
and now I've ruined your mood....
I'm sorry if I'm sensitive,
I'll change, I'll shut up
PLEASE,
Just please don't replace me.
Not now not ever.
But you've already started haven't you?
I'm just there, but you've got videos to keep you happy.
I'm here uhm excuse me, you've got games to keep you busy.
Hi? Hello? Bye? Now, you notice me.
I HURT A LOT, I CRY A LOT
But you know what?
I keep silent because all the pain is worth you...
So am I worth it too?
HURTS, you were the one I could share my problems to before. Now, who do I turn to? Where do I go? When we fight, how can I be strong? How do I turn my emotions off like before?
denise Jul 2016
Do you know how much it hurts?
To see you everyday. To know you everyday.  
Trying to believe that what we had was real. What we have is real.
I tried to believe in you. Did you know that? I believed in you. I believe in you.
But you of all people. I don't know what I expected. I'm tired of getting hurt.
You've hurt me more than I should've let you. You hurt me.

I loved you. I love you.

And I had to let go. I can't let you go.

I'm sorry. *I'm so sorry.
i can't.
denise Jul 2016
To hope is to catch falling stars.

You wait with open arms.
You are waiting.
Waiting for something.
Waiting for something that you know will be beautiful.

You are waiting for something beautiful.

You wait with your hands spread like butterfly wings.
You are waiting.
Waiting.
Anticipating.
Knowing.
Not knowing.
The Pain
That will burn you alive.

It will burn you.

Till there's nothing left but ashes.

It will burn you.



And set you free.
i have no idea where logic comes from.
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