It hurts so much.

How could your words
Be so cruel,
Yet I still wait for it?

How can I love you
This much
When you can unlove me
Just like that?

Nobody wants to admit it but we all miss our ex.
Because its one person that used to fit so well with you,
Somebody held parts if you that you can never get back.

So yes, sometimes I miss you,
Sometimes I miss how we could make each other laugh so easily,
I miss discovering new shows with you,
I miss how you talk about movies,
I miss how we compared our notes after watching something,
i miss how we threw around jokes so comfortably,
and sometimes we laughed because it was funny,
but usually we smiled because we were happy,
I think I'll always miss the way we knew each other so well,
Until we didn't.

People change, feelings change,
but sometimes I wish we didn't.

I'll always have a piece of me missing,
Where you fit in just right,
And sometimes I don't think about you at all,
Sometimes you invade my mind.

Sometimes I miss you,
I hope you're doing okay,
I hope you're laughing at something right now,
I really hope you're happy,
But mostly,
I hope you miss me sometimes too.

and my sighs turned into songs
and she sings with her sighs
though I never ask why
for I know the songs aren't for me

my heart hurts
i’m stuck with
this curse
i need to learn
how to love
before
it kills me first

It hurts to know you aren't here anymore
To not feel your lips move across my neck
And up to my lips
It hurts to know that I'll never hear "I love you"or all those sweet lies you once told me while smiling at me
It hurts to know that I'll never feel the warmth from your embrace
Since all i know now is the cold from you not being here
It hurts to know that you are dead and gone.
But I'm still stuck here wishing i was still with you.

Theres nothing wrong with me
I have a normal and happy family
But for some strange, strange reason
My head hurts no matter the season
My mouth is pained from smiling
The heaping weight keeps piling
How long will I have to tell my lies
I can see the distaste in their eyes
My heart is underwater slowly sinking
My mind is full of wishful thinking
All my tears and pain unseen
Hear the words I really mean
“Others have it worse” they’d say
But its getting harder every day

Plunging down into freezing waters
Every single time without supporters
I can hear the things that aren’t there
I just want to disappear somewhere
Falling in my dreams, landing in a heap
See, all this really plagues my sleep
But its alright, I’ll just say ‘I’m fine’
Looking up and down to pass time
Watching birds fly on their wings
Feeling a pull on my heart strings
A lantern’s glow and a candle lit
They’re growing dimmer bit by bit
Try and try and try as I might
But I still can’t reach the light

Wave your **** eye-roll, salute my attempt at least. We can no longer please; perhaps we never have. I’ll hold up, to when we next meet; I’ll shake your hand. I’ll be waiting for you, myself, when I used to be able to command the man. The man with no new qualifications, other than to displease. Hold your judgement please, lord. You're biting to hard, with your golden teeth.