it will take forever
for me to get better
to get my life
back together

But this fast life
and these long lines
white lines
shine bright in the dark nights

hollow friendships
only smiling
when the drugs hit the system
when they're gone
everyone gets distant

fake love and fake caring
real drugs that we love sharing
inhale fabricated happiness
exhale all the hurt of yesterday

what your heart can't take,
darling
Your liver will
wait for jack
wait for the snow in July.

To stand alone on a distant shore
My being stricken with love and grief
The soul, it sings, of lost amore
and beckons back a loving thief

Like petals- surfing, on cold night air
Moonlight- drizzles through the dark,
The moon- it offers a wicked stare
and echoes the acid that fills the heart

There is a silent howling in my bones.
They shake and tremble from it's humming tones.
I slip slowly to my hollow knees.
For instead of marrow they're filled with airy screams.
I am now too weak to stand on two feet.
Oh, how all your callous words have emptied me!

Could we run to the ends of the earth?
I can still see you running in the field against the pale moonlight.
I can't chase you anymore,Darling.
You were my familiar, you were my home.
I wanted to reach out for you but instead I pushed you away.
Pain has changed me and I'm back to where I started.
I knew it was over when I could not rise to meet your eyes.
I shouldn't dwell on the memories but they used to sustain me.
If only, I had made another choice, a different route
then you would be untarnished by my destructive touch.
You can't lose yourself if you never met me.
I can finally accept my sins and let my demons consume me whole.
All we have left are these hollow words.

Days are colder than before
Nights are filled with sorrow
Time passed like a waterfall
But I still felt like I am torn
It aches deep down inside
The emotions I tried to fight
It was my mistake all along
I was a fool for letting you go

Now I know that I am hollow
Wishing that there is no tomorrow

It was hollow, and blue
with light leaks of black surrounding
circles of sun light, peaking through
to say "Hello", there were too many
I couldn't respond, I could not see you

It was hollow, and blue
strange, I see no light at the end
But I see a mirror, reflecting the past
that stood behind me,
to get through, I must get closer to
the mirror that reflects my past

It was hollow, and blue
with no light leaks of black surrounding
circles of sunlight, peaking through
I still don't have the courage
to get through, to get to you

- Kaya