#harm poems on Hello Poetry

Kaitland Dec 2020

Lithium, light boxes, little pills for this and that. I’m sitting here in total fear, is anything gonna work? Pay me this, it costs that much. I was once told happiness is free. How do I satiate the demon inside who wants to **** me. How do I lull him, hold him, suduce him? He never sleeps. The pills don’t feel good anymore, I’ve cut too much and now I’m sore. Starving worked but it’s hard to start. There’s nothing left, I’m torn apart.

#depression #eating #disorder #self #harm

N Feb 2021

Orphaned Soul

Who dares **** a child
by burning their yellow?

It shivers and weeps,
and in oblivion it sleeps

#yellow #orphan #soul #death #burn #oblivion #abuse #harm

Caitlyn Emilie Dec 2020

*******

You didn’t give a **** about me, but you really had me thinking you gave a **** about me.

Dug yourself into my guts and made yourself at home.

When I was crying all you did was leave me alone, wouldn’t even answer when I’d text your phone.

I slammed your car door and walked up the block and you still didn’t give a ****.

I sat on the ground, on the cold cement with my face in my hands after you told me all the lies you hid.

I said goodbye to you for the last time, walked around the neighborhood yelling aloud to nobody and nothing.

Got home an hour later and abused the skin of my leg with whatever I could find.

Blood dripping from my skin and you still didn’t give a ****.

You never gave a ****.

my ex ******

#depression #anxiety #self #harm #mental #illness #sad

beckie d and the poetry Nov 2020

Blade

The blade feels cool against my skin
This place is so dark but strangely familiar
I pray for the courage within
To press down hard
To commit that fatal sin

The blade feels like home
The most morbid honesty I've ever known
Pain is something I can understand
Blood is a friend that I could keep around

The blade feels cool against my skin
This place is so dark but it's my reality
The blade feels cool against my skin
The blade will set me free

pain is something i can understand

#self #harm

jǫrð Nov 2020

auto-****** asphyxiation

Asphyxiated
In the ashes of what I
Once mistook you for

The History: I was wrong and I don't know how to repair the damage I've done. Without the intent to harm, I have. Is this my nature?

#chaos #toxic #ashes #asphyxiate #harm #mistake

Sarah Flynn Nov 2020

permanence

cutting was once
my temporary relief.

I wish I had realized
that these scars
wouldn't be temporary.

#harm #hurt #relief #pain #self #injury #regret #scars #skin #blood

Sarah Flynn Nov 2020

metal

I used to be addicted
to the feeling of a blade
pressing into my skin.

I used to be addicted
to seeing those red dots
forming a ****** line.

I used to be addicted
to my own blood and
the relief it brought me.

I used to be addicted
to metal.

the world must be addicted
to the feeling of power and
violence and destruction.

the world must be addicted
to bullets in brown flesh
and mothers' cries.

just like I was, the world
must be addicted to blood.
its iron still tastes metallic.
it's still red.

just like blood,
guns also taste metallic
when the barrel is
in your mouth.

the world and I
have different views,
but we have one
thing in common.

we're both addicted
to metal.

#blood #pain #harm #racism #hate #self #cries #tears #hurt #bullets

Sarah Flynn Oct 2020

anesthesia

the nurse gave me lidocaine
before she stitched me up.

she told me that it would
help to numb the pain.

I laughed out loud
at the irony.

honey, don't you see?

I'm already numb.

that's why I'm here
needing these stitches
in the first place.

#hurt #harm #pain #stitches #numb #myself #cutter #scars #irony

Sarah Flynn Oct 2020

choose your weapon

I am addicted to
rough *** and masochism.

I used to be addicted
to self-harm.

I learned to live without the feeling
of a blade against my skin,

but now I need the feeling
of warm hands against my skin
where my blade used to be.

I'm not recovering.
I'm still hurting myself.
all that changed is the weapon
that I choose to do it with.

#hurting #skin #harm #blade #*** #drugs #addiction #depression #numb #recovery