I look upon my list of friends arranged out on this page.
And there are people on it from my life's every stage.
There are family in a distant land where I lived once as a boy.
I remember them and love them and they fill my heart with joy.
Family less distant and sometimes close enough to touch.
To my older sisters I love you both so much.
Others there among you from when I was but a kid.
Bonded forever to me because of things once shared we did.
There is one of you who helped in the most practical of ways.
Who provided material things so I could rebuild my future days.
One or two among you who worked right there at my side.
Who stood beside me at times when I struggled on this ride.
Even those among you who only know me through this page.
Who took the time to touch me and helped me face the rage.
One of those among you who passed not so long ago.
As a friend she loved me and as a dear friend I loved her so.
One of you bonded to my heart in the most special of ways.
From memories and then seeing you that has made for better days.
I wanted to thank you all as friends you fill my heart with pride.
I doubt I could have got this far without you standing at my side.

Your eyes are cold and distant
Never a smile
Never a laugh
I just wanted to be your friend
How could you hate me so much?
I don’t know what I did
I don’t know how to fix this
So it’s time I said goodbye to you
To your childish tricks and games
To your hatred of everything I love
To your all-consuming sadness
So goodbye and sorry

Your not-friend,
Sydney

I have a friend
who's damaged to the bone
she holds knives in her chest
and worry on her breath
she swears the world
could swallow her whole
without a second thought

Little does she know
she's stronger the she's ever been
with a heart that's bulletproof
her armor grows each day
and with a mind that's curious
but striking
I swear the world would stop spinning
without her

Do you think of those who enter into your world every single day?
Do you see the things they do and hear the words they have to say?
Do they influence the way you think and occasionally react?
Are there those among them with-whom you hold a pact?
Have you those you cherish and greet with every kind of joy?
Are there those among them there by the tolerance that you employ?
Do you see them as they really are or as you choose to do?
And when they return the look do they see the real you?
If you changed your path would they follow you on your way?
Or do you know that any change would bring the ending of a day?
Do you see them and in return do they see the real you?
Or do you kid each other to keep the things mutually you give and do?
Would the changing of your step bring something to an end?
And if it did would that be the measure of someone once called friend?
As these people pass and come and go or linger on their way.
Do they really see and hear you and let you influence their day?
Can it all be measured by what we give and take?
And who among them all is there for love and your own sake?
Have these things been tested in the life you choose to live?
Who is there to take from you but will never choose to give?
If you changed your life to take on some new guise.
Would you see friends who stuck with you and witness love with your own eyes?

Knock-knock
Who's there?
Leave it, you do not care..
Say what?..
The moment we do any blunder
You torture us with hunter
We always show loyalty
But there are more cases of your cruelty
"Came from my mother's womb
Thinking I would love it,
Beaten me, separated me & all I saw was doom"
"From Ambanis to Jonas
I became a mere piece of showiness"
We know you're more fit
I guess this is why you still refer us with "it"
Inhuman to us in many ways
Thus our number decreases on new days
Did neglections, rituals and even rapes
A mankind so contaminated
by people without capes..

I see. Well, I'm sorry you feel that
way. My sincere condolences.

(confess emotion)

I see. Well, I'm sorry you feel that
way. My sincere condolences.

(offer expression)

I see. Well, I'm sorry you feel that
way. My sincere condolences.

What is your deal?
Controlling everything you touch in your path
Controlling my decisions
Everyone's decisions
Changing courses
Not letting the perfect plan come to task
You take my time by going too fast
You make me feel down when you go too slow
Can't you stay at one speed?
Can't you let me go out and climb a mountain?
Can't you let me do my homework for 36 hours?
Can't I sleep?
Can't I see my friends?
Can't you just let me control my own destiny
Coordinate with me here
I can't be truly happy if you can't compromise with me

He trickled his hand around my heart
He proceeded to pull my heart out
He decided to take it
He played with it and confused the beats
He proceeded to beat it because it didn’t mean anything to him
Then he cut it and said sorry and tried to do it again