Completely shut down,
Shut your heart off,
Block the world out,
But stay strong.
Weakness won't work,
Sadness can't swallow you,
Tears will destroy you.
Walking alone in life
For almost two years
not a feeling to be given
your broken heart dropping pieces
with each step you take
a tear shred in the bathroom
in the back ally bar you hide yourself in
a dark cloud hovers over you
with each drug you take
Making horrible choices
seeing terrible faces
debating horrific scenarios
playing your past on repeat
Walking around like nothing is wrong
Wearing a smile that could light up the dark
making jokes like your life depends on it
Laughing a shallow and hollow chuckle
Sleeping with people
if you don't like them
they can't touch you
mentally
physically
or emotionally
numb.
numb.
numb.
numb.
numb.
numb.
Cant feel anything
everything is falling apart.
Until one day I met your smile.
