i try really hard not to cry a lot.
and i try to stop myself from thinking about anymore sort of losses.
and i try really really hard not to realize the loss my dog is more hurtful than the loss of my late grandfather.
because,
there's a difference in-between spontaneity and fore-told doom regarding loss.
there's a difference between having someone on my bed every night,
and the loss of humanity that Alzheimer turns you into.
i don't know which one i'd rather choose,
another 6 years of knowing they aren't there anymore.
or another dead dog.

I'm thankful for my dog
because she gets excited
to head to the backyard
and chase a ball for a little while

My dog its name is Gizmo with a capital G, he isn't
very tall and not very long. He's very playful doesn't
always listen to what he's ever told. But it's like his name,
as others have said so. If somethings missing the blame
would always be on him, to this hairball this is just a game.

His favorite season for walks is when autumn comes to call.
The puddles on the floor and the leaves on the ground, all
he wants to do is be playful in the heaps of color and crawl.
Beneath them playing hide and seek, but he is always so
easy to find, following his lead a tail-wagging to and fro.

He never misses a puddle, his hair soaked, and has very
muddy little toes, chasing all the birds, but he's not scary
at all. They fly away squawking and he just looks at me
then runs around again chasing nothing at all. We see
in the distance home letting off the lead, he runs in glee.

Towel now around him, drying him quickly off. As his wetter
than a puddle. Shivering we give him a cuddle, feeling better
he now falls asleep upon his bed. Five minutes of peace before
he gets his energy back, and then a zoomy around the floor,
and then I'm like, has anyone seen my sock?      Gizmo!!

dog  dog breath  dog ****
smells like security now
in days of our need

i am rich now
see dog squirrel and rabbit
huddled together

a dead red dog   road
flowing tears from cold young face
rain on a slick path

You strike my heart from time to time,
unexpectedly.
Little things I hear, I see, reminds me of you.

You rest in my soul and I feel the swishing of your tail,
from time to time.
Never have I ever lost anyone as meaningful as you.

You are not human,
but since the beginning of our time together,
you've always been more human than the next "you".

From time to time,
friends and family betrayed me,
but I always had someone to count on, you.

There was a time before you,
yes I remember.
They were never as whole without you.

There has been time after your paw prints left this Earth,
but I hope to see you again one day, as all dogs go to Heaven.
Coming home will never be as joyful without you.

Thinking of you from time to time, almost all the time.
There will never be another one like you,
my magnificent Maxxmillion.