It shouldnt be this way,
Is what I think i'd hear you say,
For this is a "developed country",
Or at least - it thinks that way.
So then why am I leaving,
To find help somewhere else?
To a country still developing,
A country that needs help itself.
Out of sheer desperation,
That is why im going,
To the people I love and care for,
And as an attempt to heal myself.
I gave them one last chance,
Ive explained, Ive asked for help,
I was shocked and did get close,
Yet that plan failed, there's no help.
This is the state of our services.
And to be seen in the area struggling most,
Yet here I am again,
Back where I started yet again.
It seems there is no money,
It seems there is no help,
Of course it depends on your "problem"
But for me, it seems there's no hope.
The world looks up to this land,
With its Health Service to be proud of,
But seriously, where is it??
Two years later, ive not found it.
So I will return to South Africa,
Where services are yet more stretched and underfunded,
But with patience and perseverance,
There can at least be a way forward.
Im fortunate due to the exchange rate,
It fills me with guilt no end,
For not all can access the help they need,
I dont have much, but they cant afford it, I can.
The public system is slow of course,
But that does not bother me,
For when I finally see someone -
They treat me with respect and dignity.
It may not be for everyone,
But South Africa is a last chance for me,
I know I can get some treatment at least,
And some of it is free.
It may not fix me completely,
For I will probably not have time,
But what am I doing here?
I've got nowhere, in all this time....
Yes it will not be easy,
Life in a Township never is,
But what it does give me is hope...
And with that - it allows me to "live".
.....I have not "lived" for 2 years. All I have done is "exist"....
Good night. x
Im new apologies.
