There is no one behind to hold,
when you fall !
There is no one beside to cheer ,
When you feel Fear !
There is no one who can impress ,
when you feel depress !
No one who can stay ,
When someone's else betray !
Life will make you see all the troubles ,
without your lovers !
&
The fact is
the one who can heal
Is the same one who peel !!

How do people keep on trying
As though their hearts aren't broken
With every rejection, each no?
We just can't control what'll happen
We wait for tides to ebb and flow
Knowing fully well we're only boats
Impatient pawns on a chess board
In a horrid storm that only grows.
Waiting listlessly for an end
Confiding in foes and secret friends
Now I'm entirely at a loss
Which of my coins will Fate toss?
Or will it even try something
Has it given up on me too?
Just as I've lost hope in myself
I know what's false, but what is true?

filled up with enmity coiling up inside
The chest billows up
Thy want to heave it out
Then destined to tranquility

The claws scratch the flesh
Death gnaws on the remnants of longevity
Unless visions have a chest
To burst out into effervescence

Spontaneous sigh is kicked out of your breath
The clavicles sharpen, the eyes ogle ahead
The nothingness dilates
The flicker has no entrance for itself to adumbrate

For utopia has its own gore
To marvel over inside,
The plasters of bliss
Have guffawed over the gullible dusk

The gloom has left with a whisper
A muttering not to be heard
The relief has sewed on flesh
With the clouds coming out of thy outburst

The relief rebirths the serenity
Has been meandered, halted
For thou shed leaves
Making agony to clouds of no return

Utopic defiance,
the idiosyncratic anectodes
Stains of externalized innundation
For the literal existance of hope.

It's been so long
since a song
could make me cry.
my eyes were so dry,
For what feels like a long time.
My heart beats so fast
as this song escalates
and I hear it crash
It pulls me backwards
until I remember pain,
then twists me around
and reminds me
of when I could touch your face.

I'm slipping between the cracks
I'm slowly losing the plot
Lost on an unknown highway
In a mind that time forgot

The light has died inside me
It is winter in my soul
Nothing moving nothing living
In a bleak eternal cold

The world inside is lonely
The world outside is tough
Where is help when you need it
I have simply had enough

Only my thoughts for company
As they race around my head
A million shards of heartache
I think I'd be better off dead

I wait in bitter silence
For a message I can't hear
Only empty echoes of
A long forgotten fear

I don't know I got here
And I've stopped asking why
It's too hard to go on living
But I'm too scared to die

Despite my outer appearance, I am desperate
calling out for someone,anyone to see me.
My cries roaring loud for anyone to help for it
the desperation becoming unbearable but they leave me be
they leave me be, to deal with my sorrow and disdain
they leave me to deal with my regret and anguish
but its my own fault so why should I complain?
When I bring it up they look at me as if i speak a foreign language.
Everyone I love always goes away,
Everyone I cherish never stay.
Whats so unappealing with me?
What makes everyone turn and flee?
These are my constants thoughts everyday,
and so I am so alone so I am begging, stay
please,
Why don't you stay?

I have split the sane and insane part of me into a helplesss philosophical mind party.
The faces I see staring at me, seem scary as a clown on ecstasy.
I cant quite keep it together, the tight rope is wearing thin
I can barley function my paranoir is setting in
I'm trapped between two worlds of helplessness and shame
Each one trying to dominate the game
The apocalypse is real and I'm in the middle
They say its mental illness, I say its real
.

From the corner... dark.
All yellowed teeth,
 leering eye.
A thing designed..
to steal your mind,
And break it all to shards.
Then take what once was you,
and feast upon your pieces.

Mr.man in the moon
when i call for you can you hear me?
can you hear my words soaked in pain and heartbreak?
Do they reach you all the way up there?
Mr man in the moon can you see the scars i desperately try to hide? can you see the ones that are so deep, deep enough to reach my heart?  scares that have been made for all of my life?
Mr. man in the moon can you smell me? can you smell my liqueur stained clothes or my lips which hint at smoking and drinking?

you sit on your thrown and hear us calling fot you, calling at you for words of wisdom. we all want your attention. So answer us! answer me!
please
i dont know what to do...