Every step you take towards me I take three steps back away from you I just can't, I don't have it in me To just stand still And let you get closer to me I just can't, I don't have it in me To take the step towards you And meet you halfway I just can't even if I wanted to I just can't, I don't have it in me.
I’ve met cowards. They mutter in the back of the room. They yell from behind a podium. Tweet from inside a bunker. From behind a mask. He hid in a bathroom stall and waited for me. It didn’t matter my gender or race. He was after one thing. Power. I assume he didn’t have much in his life. He didn’t even have the courage to prey on someone his own age. He couldn’t handle them fighting back. Control isn’t power. Control isn’t confidence. Life is uncontrollable. He didn’t need to r*pe and pillage to gain control. He needs to learn to flow with the currents and leave me my dignity. He thought he stole mine. But he forgot his with me, and I carry it no. Forever knowing be had hurt before. I wasn’t the first and I couldn’t stop him from desperately grasping and groping his way to the fleeting feeling of power. Control. But I carry his dignity. He lost control in a scramble to gain it. He lost it to me. Pathetic. So now I’ll always know. And he's irredeemable. Coward.
I do not want to argue anymore Show me the way to the door I would rather slum it surfing couch to couch Than hide from life as I slack and slouch Look down upon from your self-righteous horse Insults hurled til your voice is hoarse And "wouldn't you feel bad if I died?" As if unaware of how I feel inside
I hate living with constant fear and anxiety. I honesty do not know how to refrain from taking it out on other people. Especially those close to me, such as my mother.
Pain will not leave, But it's wrong to cheat, Is pain too much to bear, Than the tear your loved one will share, Being a coward is your choice, Leaving the world is not easy way leaving the life, The pain you leave is not nice, People are crying because you are not here by your choice.
Two years of happy to be sad for my whole life It's not a trade I would have made had I known at the time You never really meant a word you'd say Convince me of your love Just so you can walk away Walk away just to find there's no escape