Little lady
Where have you been?
Where have you gone?

She said,
"I went to the stars
and far beyond"

Little lady
Why go so far?
What do you seek?

She said,
"To find God
amongst His Keep"

Little lady
Why do you search for Him?
What is He to you?

She said,
"I have prayed to Him
But he never answers me
And isn't that what Fathers do?"

Little lady
I hear what you say
But you may not look upon Him
He will answer you in his own way

I would like to slip softly, kindly, into the abyss..
That sweet nothingness, which cradles all in darkness.

I wish to become part of it,
Letting that cold emptiness entwine itself, into my thoughts, smothering them into decay.

I seek to see no trace left, of this mortality I hold.
To let it drift away on oceans of black, eventually sinking sweetly beneath the tectonic plates.

Erased.

I cover my heart
in a layer of steel
so that the things she has said
I cannot feel

It makes it harder to push
the blood through my veins
but we can grow a little
learning from the pain

Your heart will grow stronger
in its little steel cage
keeping you centered
letting go of the rage

When your mind is healed
and your body has calmed
You'll notice the cold steel on your heart
is now in your palm.

We just went boating

too far and got entangled –


in lotus flowers.

I sink,
feeling the water flow-
it will take me
Where I want to go-
away
From all the woes of this world.
Behind this veil,
I feel the calm
Distorted;  I can’t tell
What’s right and wrong
It's all a blur.
All I hear is ocean song
Singing quietly in my ears.
I wish I could breathe here
So I could stay forever…

My eyes may say "cool as a cucumber."
But that's just what I want you to see.
Because in reality, my eyes
Are aquariums of anxiety in disguise.

Silence, high water,

the ferry berths are empty –


the boat is stranded.