And the sun sat.... when it did it felt like my eyes were closed. Felt like my back had been turned or I was in a dark room with no windows. Heart beating outta my chest. My hands could flow a river. Body tense. Legs weak. But I still remember. The day before we were together. And the day before that too. Where did it all go wrong? I wish It hadn’t cause now I have to sleep without you. I could comfort myself if I wanted to but it just wouldn’t be the same and you don’t even understand the pain that comes from hearing your name. Time heals all but I really just wanna make it stop cause it just keeps going and I’m stuck with all the things that come with not. Not having you here. Not seeing you. Not being able to smell your breath in the morning time. I really got use to all those things and now i have to relearn not having you around. But is it the same for you? I miss you so **** much.  This hurt that I feel is so unreal. Maybe it’s a dream please wake me up. No phone call no text you ain’t even trying to come back this way and even though I’m hurt I’d still take you back with open arms any day...... guess I’m just stuck daydreamin y’all....

What's worse?

Missing someone and
still not being able
to talk to them

Not because you
can't, but because
both are dangling
from a weak thread
A bit of more stress
to it would shred it
away

Maybe it's something
that I want - I'd
rather die once and
for all, and not die
a little every time I
contemplate things
in my mind..

But I can't have it
either, whilst all I
could do was put up
a charade - smile
and shut my mind
off.

I have written thousands of unfinished lines,
About a love that was meant to be divine,
About this high from this love drug,
That makes the world spin round and round,

I have another set of unfinished lines,
About a broken heart that hurts so bad,
And hates love so much,
And wishes it wasn’t why this world still spins!

I have felt love and I have been love,
I’ve been hurt and I have hurt,
I have healed broken hearts and I feel mine crack,
Each time your dreaming self says her name!

दिल तेरा दीवाना है,
इसमें मेरी क्या खता है ?
दिल दुखाते भी तुम हो,
और फिर मेरे जख्मों को सहलाते भी तुम हो ।

~your smiling queen :)

Pretty things remind me of you.

Love do you know
You're the only one
I want to hold
The only one

I don't wanna stare
Into an others eyes
Don't wanna touch their hair
Don't wanna burn in a colder fire

I only want you
You and only you
Your eyes in perfect hues
You're my highs and my blues
You and only you

I don't wanna hold another girls hand
I don't wanna sit up the back in the cinema
With someone who can't understand

Because you make me feel like I'm flying
You wash away all my sorrow
When you turn to me smiling
In a moment you wash it all to tomorrow

So far away
That it doesn't matter
When I'm with you
Nothing else matters

It's just us two
It's all that matters
Just us
Far away
From the madness and the pain
In our own place
Where no one else can find us

Just us