You are more than just pounds of meat
More than working muscle and skin
I wake only to see your face
All I have is solid hope for that grin

You are more than a primitive animal
More than hair on a somber hide
There is a special glow radiating
Shining from a place inside

You amount to more than the atoms
Meandering throughout magical matter
Please tell me what led you to believe our ideas
Would boil down to pointless chatter?

I would gladly rip my flesh
Endure the darkest agony
It would show you the love I feel
Is much more than biology

I think that I am needy
There I said it
I don't have what everyone else has
a boy that loves them and wants them
and I think I'm needy
because I want that
I want the Pam and Jim love story
the Me before You story
the Meredith and Derek story
Is that so much to ask for?
It must be.
I say that there is someone for everyone
but when am I going to start believing it?
It seems so easy for everyone else,
to love and be loved, so quickly finding someone
but here I am chasing a boy who may not want me
and I convince myself he does
What if he doesn't?
Have I wasted my time?
When did I start measuring my worth
upon how far I have gone with a man?
And when someone else
who is much __(er) than me
gets with a guy,
I feel like there must be something really wrong with me.
When did women become each other's competition?
When did I start being so harsh to myself?
I know what I want, truly, from a man
and I think I'm needy because I have standards and expectations
I want to be desired and loved and wanted
I needy for it and I hate myself for it

I try so hard to
Make your life better but I
Only make it worse

He can't handle not being there for her.
She knows he can't always be there to save her from her demons.
He thinks he is her one and only but in reality, he isn't the only one wanting her.
She knows she needs to choose but she can't one is sweet and is her best friend and the other is her boyfriend and everyone knows that they like each other but people ask if they are friends with benefits. She knows if she breaks her boyfriend then her best friend will be scared that she will break him.  She wants to choose her boyfriend but her best friend is a sweet temptation. Her boyfriend acts like he wants her but never actually spends time with her.