forgive me, when I make my own chaos. forgive me when I'm thinking of some things that I shouldn't think about at all. forgive me when I overthink over a little stupid thing. forgive me when my anxiety attacks. I need you to wrap your arms around my exhausted soul.

forgive me, when I'm being stubborn. forgive me when I don't want to go to sleep early because I do miss you. forgive me when I don't listen to you to stop eating ice cream. I need you to wipe those ice cream around my lips because you know I can't eat them properly.

forgive me, when I'm being annoying. forgive me when I'm staring at your brown eyes but get mad a few seconds later because you stare back at mine. forgive me when I can't stop pinching your cheeks until my fingers paint red on them. I need you to kiss my forehead and I'll be quiet for a little while.

forgive me, when my worries get a little too much. forgive me when I double text you because you take a few minutes longer to get home more than usual. forgive me when I'm asking about how your day was. I need your smile and laugh to share warmth on a cold night.

— forgive me,
when I can't give you the world,
because you are my world.

For you i have to be strong and I try
I am hoping it will be enough
It's challenging to be the rock when
I am fragile, and you are tough

Inside you have a softer side
Only to the deserving you show
The sensitivity you carry
To most you keep it hidden below

Your love is a flame burning strong
When you are close I feel the heat
Radiate from under your skin, I am
drawn to the chemicals you secrete

My ultimate goal is to make you proud
A new motivation starkly wakes
To ignite the fuse leading to your heart
I hope a spark is all it takes

I want to be the one to unlock
The part of yourself you thought you had lost
I'm determined to make you believe
In true love again at any cost

Underneath I see a gentle soul
On cruise control, barely sliding by
I can tell life has stolen much from you
So you escape by getting high

This hill we are tumbling down is steep
My plans somehow keep falling through
I apologize for empty vows
I promise I'll straighten up for you

How to apologize, how to apologize
for so many things at once when,
regardless of my words, the world
will spin at a constant speed.

The bees we chain to their nature
and pull their spoils for ourselves:
they were not the first sign.

The trees that fall without hands,
if only they could catch themselves.

We squabble as the concrete dries.