It was just you and me
Sitting on a bus
And I was acting funny
I told you the things
You never wanted to hear
From me

You started getting mad
You started yelling
You begged me to rethink this
Us
Everything
You were so concerned

I started messing with you
I feel horrible about it
I was just upset
And now all I want to say to you
Is that I am truly sorry
I didn't think it would
Hurt that bad
Just know I am truly sorry

I read a book once that told me
"I love you means never having to say you're sorry"
So if I love you so much
And I do so incredibly beyond these words..
How come I feel as if I need to apologize,
Please just let me.
It needs to be said from these lips,
the same ones that have kissed the entirety of you and left bruises on your neck.
Let me use the same voice that whispers I love you, into your ear and the same voice that sings to the radio in the car,

the same voice that has formed hurtful words that furled out of my throat like leftover cigarette smoke when the window is suddenly slammed shut and you can still smell and taste the bitter burning tobacco.
You look at me and you can't stop sighing. I look at you and I can't even see you. Your body to me has broken and I can't pick up the pieces because you won't stop sighing.
I love you means never having to say you're sorry.
I think in my head all the hate and every single sorry I would like to say

But you say sorry first.
It comes out of your mouth burning my insides quickly before the match has even reached the candle. I know before you even say it, turning me into a melted puddle of tears, more hatred, more sorrys.

The body that was once bits has been picked up and built together again and now reaches for the body that is a pool of lifeless clay and holds her hand and molds her back together. He holds her  fragile body and wipes the hot tears that could make her melt again and she mutters:
"I'm sorry."

You're gone.
You're gone.
You're gone.
You're gone.
You're gone.

Please come back.

Give up the fight
Everyday, every night
The voices tell you to run to heights and
Jump.
Tell them to shut up
You're already a **** up

You can't feel your heart anym
It stopped beating.
Realize how badly you lost the war
You stopped meaning.
Sleep, cause you find some bliss
from nightmares in a sea of ignorance

Who am I to complain?
I'm always the starting my own pain.
A few cuts here, maybe punch that wall.
Run around for an hour, hopefully. fall
Dead

I'll never put the blame on another
Loving friends, supporting mother
Yet I feel so ******* alone all the time.
I say I like it, another lie
but who could keep up with how many I've made?
I'm not trying to be saved.
I give up
I surrender to the pain.
Maybe in the end suicide isn't the only gain.

I couldn't believe the pathetic look you were giving me,
As if I was the one who needed saving.
Let me profess once and for all that I do not want your pity.
Once and for all, that you never realized what I needed from you.

Friends,
He shrugged at me when the fiery arrows came,
And he kept my secrets,
but only when I was present.
Friends,
I gave him my utmost devotion and he
dismissed it for the bat of pretty eyelashes
Friends!
He abandoned the sacredness of friendship
For the sake of professionalism.
It's "unprofessional"
to care for someone
Who sacrificed everything for you.